I got in ice cold water to kill my tempature fear and I felt no discomfort cause I know my bro didn’t except that which was inflicted by demons

lyrics

every piece of me is saying
word on the streets is you’re not staying
beg on my knees for you to say it
x2
but pleasant grove is all you know and fractured homes with broken family
i can’t tell you where to go
but every road led back to folly

yeah every time that we touch base, water works right out my face
just how you found me
four years but i guess who’s counting 
every time that you embrace me
you’re saying “stop it grayson”
wish i had the heart to say
iv been numb for days waiting on the pavement 

iv been throwing up, iv been throwing up all on the pavement 
she’s said it’s so frustrating 
she said i wish you were happier
so now every smile feel like a facelift
now you got tears running down your face 
but you took it all and i gave it
i know it’s not good for my brain 
but i have more fun when im wasted
now i been drinking every night but safely
six months ago this looked so much different 
but word on the street and my mind says you hate me 
that would rip my heart in an instant
last time we had a fight 
i remember what it felt like to cry 
got smoke in my mouth and got tears in my eyes
cuz i don’t want the last time
to be the last time we say goodbye 

yeah every time that we touch base, water works right out my face
just how you found me
four years but i guess who’s counting 
every time that you embrace me
you’re saying “stop it grayson”
wish i had the heart to say
iv been numb for days waiting on the pavement 

sticks and stones tend to break me down
try to grab the wheel but im crashing out
mom and dad don’t like me know
it hurts because they used to be proud
why you never around 
when i’m calling your phone,you’re just putting it down
iv been falling apart on the burial grounds
iv been screaming for help but can’t open my mouth.

folly w/ notahero [king theta]

Lyrics -

If ima fuck it up then shit, let’s do it over supernova stuffed inside this blunt
If there’s a salad in this bitch, no point to do it over lunch
But I can tell you missed the point and damn this roach is almost done 
let’s keep ‘em in rotation so we don’t run out of fun 
As I stand before the barrel of your gun 
All sensations lost my body weakens, I go numb 
It’s like I’ve seen something i know I  shouldn’t have now I’m stuck 
I was comfortable love, haven’t you ruined enough 

I get this sense of neglect right when you enter my mind 
Isn’t it obvious we’ve wasted our time 

Look how i fucked it up again 
Now the memories are ashes in the tray beside my bed 
Shit I took it to the head 
And leaves my conscience feeling fresh 
But that’s never what I get 
Now I don’t know

The Ruiner

took me a bit to make this, but it was a ton of fun to experiment with some new sounds. s/o hero for teaching me about formant shifting /o/ 
I'm gonna try and release 2 songs next month, no guarantee though c:

lyrics:

I would lift your head when the water’s high
I would wrap your hands when you’re cold at night
lay flat on the ground so I break your fall
And I would be alright
I wouldn’t mind at all
I would move the sun when it blinds your sight
I would shoulder your weight and still stand upright
mutilate my body if my skin’s not right for you
if you were by my side 
I’d die for you
  
So I tear myself apart everyday that’s fine
I know that every piece ends up entwined
with my hands tracing slowly up up spine
sewing threads so tight they won’t unwind
I

wanna know
have you ever tried to be
anything more than what you’re trying to be
need to know 
if you’ve ever tried to see
everything that I can see

I could be a shipwreck washed ashore
I could be approaching meteors
I could be somebody’s last resort
Did I ever tell you that
that

Iiiii
will love you like I know to
castle in the sky 
baby I think we should float too
I’m barely alive
but for you I wanna pull through
if you were my ride or die
there’d be so much I could show you

I would lift your head when the water’s high
I would wrap your hands when you’re cold at night
lay flat on the ground so I break your fall
And I would be alright  
I wouldn’t mind at all
I would move the sun when it blinds your sight
I would shoulder your weight and still stand upright
mutilate my body if my skin’s not right for you
if you were by my side
I’d die for you

I could be a shipwreck washed ashore
I could be approaching meteors
I could be somebody’s last resort
Did I ever tell you that before?

break your fall (empty roads)

"one day we gon be okay baby just stay"
i can hear just how you told me like its yesterday
ill be sure to send my love from the cosmos
i guess lately its just been harder hitting high notes
i guess lately its just been easier to let my mind go
i guess lately im feeling bad bout dragging you along

cuz i dont want to see you at the bottom
and baby you can tell me if its too much
i know i can be a lot so you just say som
and i dont like myself if we need something to agree on
im up making songs fell asleep with my jeans on
i can tell you love me from the way you take my jeans off
id love if youd stick with me ill look better when i wean off
the same songs just in different styles
you wonder when i been this happy girl its been a while

but i cant make you smile
havent seen those pearly whites girl whats got you down
we can live another life if we leave this town
one day i can make it right one day youll be proud
in the passenger seat found my reason in the stars
i got holes in my jeans you got anger in your heart
its not as easy as it seems so i try to play my part
control alt then you deleted me im back here at the start
i got bad lungs one more cigarette
another sad song posted on the internet
i guess its not fun tell myself im not upset
when the days done find a place to lay my head
from the day we met swore to be my best
we both know the fire started when you call my friends
now im only feeling sorry for the shit i said
one day imma be a star im just not shining yet

and baby you can tell me if its too much
i know i can be a lot so you just say som
and i dont like myself if we need something to agree on
im up making songs fell asleep with my jeans on
i can tell you love me from the way you take my jeans off
id love if youd stick with me ill look better when i wean off
the same songs just in different styles
you wonder when i been this happy girl its been a while

denim w/ halfhearted (p. under the maple tree)

i’ve been feeling different lately
tryna make sense of the mind that hates me
i follow the orders i’m creating
can’t ruin the flow or my body starts breaking

in the night it’ll catch me up and swallow me away
and i can't fight it off so i let it consume me easily
i wake up and cannot breathe
i’m shaking like i might freeze
there’s no control anxiety
it’s the one controlling me

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

it’s a nightmare
this phobia is eating me alive
and i can’t fight it
don’t call me just emotional since i did not decide this
and don’t remind me
the trigger’s hiding
i know it’s my head
so don’t keep talking whilst i'm dying

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

phobia [hollowprpl]

lyrics ⬇️

out my face wit all that negative talk cuz i dont want it
u would fold if you had felt like this for even just a minute
oh i promise you that
i wish that you would just admit it
i know that its been bad but i blame you cuz ur acidic
ion even understand why u always steady trippin on me i feel the shame
cuz somehow you got rid of me
and its alright
Cuz ima see the better me in the next life

your talkin bout my timeline i think ima cry
i dont wanna fear all things i love in life
it dont just appear when ur sleeping over night
nah nah gotta work for it a lot
and i wish that i could tell u that im finna stop soon but im not
cuz i dont think that you understand all i have to lose
its a lot

run it up cuz i fear im at the ending of my life
i dont know whats coming next but i know i cant rewind
i cant show that im upset if i do then u gon cry
i know that i been real blessed but i still been feelin blind

buncha random shi-
(LEMME GO)

try to make em proud but everything i do i dont
u never know what im finna do alone
every single thing i know u do not condone
i would try to fix it but its really jus too broke
every single bone every single choke
every single throw of a punch that i dont
maybe itll mean one day that ill get exposed
maybe if i did then i would grow

mama i been feelin low
can u can u please let me leave home
yea i dont wanna be here
let me just show you one more tear
maybe i just wanna be alone
maybe i dont wanna hear ur tone
maybe i dont wanna call u back 
cuz even if i did i know that you wont atone
i dont wanna check my phone

every single bone (josiah3)

in order <3 prod nevrfall
@breckenford
@user-642636378
@kiddamo
@notaheroo
@notcursed
@alex-thomas-fox

hurt (w/ brecken, halfhearted, kiddamo, notahero, notcursed, vails) (nevrfall)

caregiver.wav

everything by me

thank you for being here.
take care; as well as you can, as you are

what i heard whispered "it is all the same"
and i'm tired, of taking on that weight,
i'm wired and i'm trying to find her
you liar, you liar

cups rest beside the bed that keeps the body tied
a slow end, he'll try again yet something isn't right
it's pouring, as water runs the lungs of flooded eyes
the morning has led the wren to question it's own life

doesn't mean it don't exist if you don't feel it
the bat got me taking flight purging all villians
my whole life all i've known is a cold feeling
gripping vices alike, become the known illest
soul-stealing homes appeal him most
taken of his own and made a host
supplement contrived of what he knows
jeopardized, but it don't seem to show

cycling roads end, dividing unknown land
i'd rather be scarred than left deep in the heartless
those cursed of sight find contentment in low strides
somehow he's been alright, yeah right, what a bold lie

what i heard whispered "it is all the same"
and i'm tired, of taking on that weight,
i'm wired and i'm trying to find her
you liar, you liar

halving days, another broken ballad
dissonance within of what is valid
turn your back against it when you hear it,
cowardice convincing you it's fearless
staring down the mirror will suck you in
i do it just to feel it all again
sensitized of strife yet still indifferent
reconnaissance of his creating distance

(4x)
i know it's gonna hurt but i let it,
i know it's gonna hurt, but i let it as i've been, yeah

what i heard whispered "it is all the same"
and i'm tired, of taking on that weight,
i'm wired and i'm trying to find her
you liar, you lia-

phobia [hollowprpl]

notcursed

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