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i dont wanna be myself 
i wanna be someone else 
right now, i know 

i changed my mind, ill go to hell
just feed me and keep me in a cell
spend everyday needing so much fucking help
ill tell you the secret and see if you tell 

im not afraid of falling anymore 
i stare at the face 
i ignore features that look the same
theres a hook in my face
pull it out another one forms behind it
instantly cut off circulation
i feel my eyelids flutter as i struggle to sit
i just collapse to my knees in a fit
coughing, laughing, dry heave
punch my fist against the seat and the lid 

theres a message in here somewhere !
changing lanes
ill stay in mine
you stay insane
i love this crowd
dog bites man 
man drops a hydrogen bomb on the ground 
i got a sweet tooth 
i like it when i find hidden objects
i see you
underneath the grass
rubbing against me 
touch it, whats the difference?
ask me if its empty
over turn the glass and get every single last drop out 

oh god its fit right in the palm of my hand now 
rejected blessing i see the angel it shines down
im happy to have the plaque scrapped from my teeth
i added gems to my canines
im playing with them as we speak 

i lie and i steal things
try to be revealing 
off putting !!!
show me where i lost footing
lip service
cock sucking dick circus 
ill be at auction but all of this shits worthless

couldnt begin to imagine how that happened
hey, look over there! 
spit in a napkin!
are you kidding? im asking
are you shitting in my hand or wishing on black magic?
you didnt understand
sometimes its okay to match the energy of your worst man
im the dead spy, i got two red eyes
ill let you guess why i stare out my blinds paranoid
people around me notice and im afraid that theyre annoyed
or think im crazy, and maybe theyre right
backdrop: illusion of contact
age it until it tastes like a safe ride
take you home in the back of a sports car
godly intention so pure as im sure that yours are

i dont wanna be myself
i wanna be someone else

Numbing Agent

slimy oozing bubbling stuff erupting

touching all my clean white t shirts

dont ask me where ive been or ill have to lie

floating

in reference to my weekend

asleep behind the wheel 

havent eaten

feels good

try to keep it real

my body armor is so camoflaughed, bitch!

its got invisible rocket launchers right on it

holding on to way too much

watching my hair grow 

fucked up    

broken bones 

i notice those hurt the most when you wake up and remember how they happened



time for altered vision 

betrayed

i know you feel that way 

while im indifferent

betrayed 



who do i need to hurt?

to make shame a motivator that will work 

and after that sustain an outlook 

without constantly reminding me of how long it took

i know it wont be like before



i never believed that 

i know we both see that i need to do more 

i said i agree that 

this shit wont stop driving a wedge in the floor     



exceptions 

satisfaction is guaranteed

except when i dont land on my feet 

exceptions

i love them

just please love me  



and im a beast when 

my anger reaches my dome 

its just a circle

but it is all ive ever known

Bad Boy Cat Toy

Probably my favorite song on this album.
The "main loop" is from a rehearsal recording of my math-rock type band, Ultra Death Men, sped up and cut up.
The song is about a lot of things, as always, but was most heavily inspired by my first trip to San Diego. It was a pretty strange, negative, and intense part of my life, but the experiences I had there had profound effects on my outlook.
The first line of the lyrics references one night Bradlea and I were driving through the desert and the entire dusk sky was literally a full rainbow.
The reiteration of that part of the song the second time is about how I'd wake up every morning to a collection of four cats sleeping on me and they'd all scramble away from me when they realized I was awake, as if to hide the fact that they'd been sleeping on me.

Loud Noise In My Room

Seventh track on Bad Happy.

A bit of an "anthem" for those of you who have a propensity to compromise yourself and overlook unfair mistreatment by your friends and other loved ones for the sake of keeping the relationships intact... I'm quite prone to this.

Even after years of being hurt by people I know who have cheated on me, belittled my accomplishments and talent, ditched me, ignored my calls and emails, forgot to do important things they said they would for, broken promises, violated my trust, and whatever else, for the sake of nothing but themselves, I've still generally stayed un-confrontational about betrayal, essentially making it okay to betray me.
I wanted to approach this topic in a constructive manner, as often I do, but not be too subtle about the message.

If you're in a position where you are compromising your own happiness to keep your life less dramatic and your friends groups without schism; relationships without quarrel: don't keep doing it. Try to find common ground.
If they remain obstinate, they aren't worth your time.

/Life lesson

Betrayal is okay.

It's supposed to sound like that. Track art by THE yogurt200 (reading HEARTLOVEPOWERTEMPLE, Precious Theatre or **certified tumblr classic** 8eyes is highly reccomended)
https://zombaewalk.bandcamp.com/
https://yogurt200.com/

lyrics
(devi:)
looking away
counting up pay
we couldn't find out a way
we couldn't save-
we couldn't wait
we couldn't get on a plane
searching but nowhere is safe
who're we to blame?
we couldn't chill for a day
when you put food on a plate it doesn't stay

in the darkness of the night
could we make the image bright?
we could walk up to its edge
is it (solace/soulless) in our minds?
could you tell us about our lives
if we're casted to the side

i can't fuck with out drugs
i don't even want to fuck without drugs
x4

spend it down
i don't have the spirit in my life
i don't have the energy or time
wear me out
hear me out--
everything i get is alright
everything you get is alright
wipe us out

(zombAe:)
i ain't fuck since i got sober
no ice three years still my nose hurt
my skin gets older and the earth get hotter
and the guns get bigger and my cock gets smaller
i got bills to pay bitch its build or break
when i cracked the seal, guess i sealed my fate
i just want to grill, i got krill to make
hope brumhildas waiting after all this strife
use your jokers knife, make me stepfords wife
i'm not mesmerized, i guess sex is nice
im just crashing crashin losing attraction
not fit for leo, seinfeld or brad pitt
chinks got some armor
aint tryna crack it?
could be bad bitch
no time for that shit
i'm a christmas cake, got a list of dates
and a list of dicks i done pissed away

(devi:)
spend it down
i don't have the spirit in my life
i don't have the energy or time
wear me out
hear me out--
everything i get is alright
everything you get is alright
wipe us out

Exhaustion Economics ft. zombAe

This re-release is for the cassette physical. This album was originally released February 2014 through London’s Dred Collective.

Machine Girl is an astral body that transmits frequencies from the æther to your brain in order to take control of your mind's soul. She currently resides in a human body in New York City, and on weekends, enjoys dismantling the notion of 'self' within her host-body.

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