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Probably my favorite song on this album.
The "main loop" is from a rehearsal recording of my math-rock type band, Ultra Death Men, sped up and cut up.
The song is about a lot of things, as always, but was most heavily inspired by my first trip to San Diego. It was a pretty strange, negative, and intense part of my life, but the experiences I had there had profound effects on my outlook.
The first line of the lyrics references one night Bradlea and I were driving through the desert and the entire dusk sky was literally a full rainbow.
The reiteration of that part of the song the second time is about how I'd wake up every morning to a collection of four cats sleeping on me and they'd all scramble away from me when they realized I was awake, as if to hide the fact that they'd been sleeping on me.

Loud Noise In My Room

Seventh track on Bad Happy.

A bit of an "anthem" for those of you who have a propensity to compromise yourself and overlook unfair mistreatment by your friends and other loved ones for the sake of keeping the relationships intact... I'm quite prone to this.

Even after years of being hurt by people I know who have cheated on me, belittled my accomplishments and talent, ditched me, ignored my calls and emails, forgot to do important things they said they would for, broken promises, violated my trust, and whatever else, for the sake of nothing but themselves, I've still generally stayed un-confrontational about betrayal, essentially making it okay to betray me.
I wanted to approach this topic in a constructive manner, as often I do, but not be too subtle about the message.

If you're in a position where you are compromising your own happiness to keep your life less dramatic and your friends groups without schism; relationships without quarrel: don't keep doing it. Try to find common ground.
If they remain obstinate, they aren't worth your time.

/Life lesson

Betrayal is okay.

Premiered 2024-02-17 @ Golden Conejobeat
Drums ripped from Cam'ron 'Oh Boy' prod. Just Blaze

Receiver leaking brand new colours
Closest ER out of range
We put our hearts into eachother
We lose ourSelves but still don't change
I wanna touch the nothingnesses
I only ever had too much
My body: numb with all its data
Send all my numbers going off 

He's got a head like a- Like a boy- Like a-
He's got a head just like a boy
Look like a boy to me
It'll be ok
It'll be ok
x2

What could you ever want from me?
What good is that?
What good is knowing about it? All you did is nothing about it

What good is that?
What could you ever want from me?
What good is that?
What good is knowing about it? All you did is nothing about it

Receiver

Premiered 2024-02-17 at golden conejobeat
My edit of katies song from the album of the same name
https://katiedey.bandcamp.com/album/never-falter-hero-girl

a feather touch
wouldn’t take too much
for you to fuck my life up
and only once
did it feel this much
like my heart was dying

to leave my cavity
and jump back into yours
only an idiot would indulge that again
i wanna live my life
but there’s no time for that
never falter hero girl

you’re late to learn
what’s what aren’t you ?
you’re too sparkly to die
with a death flag cough
in ur guts and stuff
so obvious when you lie

but you’re so damn beautiful
when you don’t wanna talk
i never met someone who lacks like that before
all the mystery is embedded into you
never falter hero girl

i’m used to trying to change myself to please someone
but you make me wanna be the best girl in the world
i just realised it was in me all along

unleash yourself (while there’s still time for that)
you can be anything , anything at all
i care so much more than i ever knew
never falter hero girl

katie dey - never falter hero girl (girls rituals shitty drum edit)

CAROUSEL FROM HELL

EMPATHY RESERVED

Devi McCallion - I WANT THINGS TO BE BEAUTIFUL

All around the world people have heard about it
All around the world we're trained to leave our bodies
Ever since that day I hovered up above myself
Ever since that day it's like my spirit turned to stone
Couldn't tell if I'm alone

And I think there's hope for someone else
But not for us, but not for us
There's hope for someone else but not for us

All around the world duh-duh duh-duh duh-duh-duh
All around the world I think we just don't have the time
Ever since that day an image hanging overhead, moving in somebody's shadow
Ever since that day we couldn't spit the poison out
Still we chose it for ourselves

There's hope for someone else
But not for us, not for us 
There's hope for someone else but not for us
There's hope for someone else
for someone else, for someone else
There's hope for someone else but not for us

...
A call
A signal
A sound
An impulse
An echo
A call

Project 6

@rooksfeather & @neotenomie
the most 🔥🔥🔥 album about gay trash, chronic pain & dissociation you've heard all year 

help me do what i like if you like what i do: https://www.patreon.com/ESPer99

SUPEREGO ROYAL JELLY

👉👉👉 OWN IT

rook&nomie - SUPEREGO ROYAL JELLY - 04 YEARWOUNDS

Back on some faggy 2005 electro punk shit

2018

Kreayshawn x Girls Rituals - Gucci Gucci 2

imdeath4

(devi) 
i live in sickness 
i live in spinning 
the whole wide world is a carousel 
i stood in line 
and now the ride's beginning 
i could still do so much more if i dont kill myself 
i live in nausea 
eternal nausea 
in a spotlight shaped like a spiral 
im in the bible 
god's favorite idol 
cos the whole sick world loves to smile 

(devi+rook) 
i feel sick 
i still feel sick 
i still feel sick 

(devi) 
smile like a rainbow 
smile like a crescent moon 
just keep doing what ur doing 
just keep doing what ur doing 
smile like a crack in the earth 
like a curse 
like a corpse 
like a wound 
smile like a rainbow 
just keep doing what ur doing 

(rook) 
cum-stained black hoodie 
grey soul and static in my eyes 
try to see the future 
but i'm not sure if it applies 
by the water in a pissed-in miniskirt 
trying to see the world thru the anhedonia 
feels kinda like my soul is burnt 
too late, too late if only uhhh 
we're not like the other girls 
this shit's too evil to be stylish 
don't tell me this is too dramatic 
cause i LIVE INSIDE IT 

just fucking try it~ 

(devi+rook) 
i feel sick 
i still feel sick 
i still feel sick

DREAMS COME TRUE 2019

NAUSEA 2019

Track 4 from Perfect Life & Other Stuff, available on June 17th!
This album is a collaboration with my 17 year old self.
Pre-order digital or check lyrics here
http://bubblegumoctopus.bandcamp.com/album/perfect-life-other-stuff

The Group

from "f***ing sucks!"
the band is dead so there is sadly no way to support them
song obviously not mine, uploading it here for listening purposes
discography dl: archive.org/details/babygiraffesdiscography

baby giraffes - giraffe party

Bag Of Bombs

ACROBAT OVER A VAT OF ACID CRAP

Hello! I’m just an autistic kid on the internet who likes to make music sometimes! (I also go by He/Him or It/It’s pronouns. Call me Deer, Billy, Corbin or Irvin/Irving.
Some of my posts here are reposts of songs from really old obscure games, like dream emulator, which are mainly put on for archival purposes ^_^

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