i never knew how to fit in
i always feel myself shaking
i never really ever felt right
they all know somethings wrong with me

i never asked to even be here
so many years and what do i get?
theres no point in getting a career
i dont want to be here anymore

feeling
(feeling so strange)
feeling
(im like no one)
feeling
like an alien

alien

i feel so full of hatred
its killing me
the violent tendencies
i need to please

i freeze in place
your blood is on my face
i want to get out of this place
but your corpse is in the way
will i ever be forgiven

its all coming back to me
your scream, its so haunting
and it all felt so good at the time
but now i wanna die
please end my fucking life

please excuse me
your corpse is in my way
please excuse me
your always in my way

please excuse me

no one ever calls
and no one ever comes around
everything always hurts
and nothing ever makes a sound

no one would care if i died
my heart is hollow
and no one thinks of me now
feds surround all of the house
i wanna shoot em dowm
wanna cry every night
no one ever thinks of me now

no one ever calls
and no one ever comes around
everything always hurts
and nothing ever makes a sound

no one would care if i died
my heart is hollow
and no one thinks of me now
feds surround all of the house
i wanna shoot em dowm
wanna cry every night
no one ever thinks of me now

no one would care if i died

It's almost like there is nothing left
I can't believe you would cause such a mess
In the end I will always love you
Why did I do the shit that I do
I'm at the end of my own tether
Barely holding shit together
I want to kill myself
But I'm no longer overwhelmed

By sights and smells that remind me of you
Why have I been left alone
Was it something you thought, about who
didn't mean it, I miss your moans
I meant what I said I still feel it
Why did I have to be such a slut
Didn't think that you could grieve it
It didn't matter that you were adult

It's almost like there's nothing left
I want to kiss you across your chest
Why am I such mess
Why am I a fucking mess
It's almost like there's nothing left
I want to kiss you across your chest
Why am I such mess
Why am I a fucking mess

i can never forgive you (because i can never forgive myself)

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Incestcore vol. 1 6/2/25

We are not too different you and i
And i guess that's why i keep coming back to you
Maybe it's the color of your hair
Or how you genuinely seem to care

Maybe I'm just crazy for thinkin' time heals wounds
And i’m digging down for secrets from the past
That I’ve excluded from my head
And maybe i'm not in my head
Maybe i just miss your lips

We are not too different you and me
And now i see why i'm always craving you
Maybe it's the way that you smell
Or how you have me captured under your spell

Maybe I'm just crazy for thinkin' time heals wounds
And i’m digging down for secrets from the past
That I’ve excluded from my head
And maybe i'm not in my head
Maybe i just miss your lips

Gravity Bong (Meth Wax cover)

Incestcore vol. 1 6/2/25

I thought i only took a few
Now there's shadows in my room 
And i want them gone
Why are there whispers too
What the hell did i consume
I think i hear my mom

I think the shadow people bite
The end is nowhere in sight
They're really fucking up my night
Think i'm losing my mind

I can't stop nodding off
At least i don't have a cough
My fucking stomach hurts
When will this nightmare stop
Why do i hear the cops
There's vomit on my shirt

I think the shadow people bite
They're really giving me a fright
Why are they fucking up my night
Think i'm losing my mind

I think i might have died
But god makes me feel alright

rip watermark

i got a question 4 u
did u kill urself
cause ur instagrams been dry
since we last had that fight

and ive been feeling
like i dont care and i want there
to be a timeline where i never even
fucking saw you lucky that you
never pursued me like i stalked u

shes got it down with a nice guy and i
got shut right out by my self esteem
and i could have anything that i wanted
but shes got it down with a nice guy and i

when you saw me what did u think
was i pretty? or did ur eyes go right thru me
i got it down with a
i got it down with a

shes got it down with a nice guy and i
got shut right out and its all my fault

decache

Metal/Death Metal/Metalcore/Industrial-Tinged Metal.

Website: https://hauntshademusic.nl

You can find lyric videos to all my music on my official YouTube channel: www.youtube.com/@Hauntshade

Official Releases:
YouTube Music: https://music.youtube.com/channel/UCW9qc5B5KDyRQn5qZwvdcXw
Apple Music / iTunes: https://music.apple.com/nl/artist/hauntshade/1817374824
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/68cnPaXWK276LYnYQgBfOB
Bandcamp: https://hauntshade.bandcamp.com

Lyrics written by me.
Music created with the help of AI.

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Mongoose (Fu Manchu Cover)

Powerful Rock Album Produced by Dean Barrett, continues on from some of the earlier releases where we delve deeper into the darkness. 

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2 steps forward. 1 step back.

the very bottom of the barrel when it comes to both musical skill and social interaction. if SoundCloud recommended me to you, I am deeply sorry

i can never forgive you (because i can never forgive myself)

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