I can't take the days much longer Your face in the walls, it provokes me to slaughter Anyone in arm's length, jump until his neck break Ending it been on my mind, just not a set date

@rouri404

(maxime)
you left me open cut me open like a surgeon
cut so fucking deep now its got me hurting
yeah i didnt deserve this always lookin at it wrong
like did you deserve this?
yeah im uncertain get the money
then you know im fuckin splurgin
on a never ending cycle self destruction
blow it up escape this rut and then im running
now i fuckin run shit

(rouri404)
cut 2 deep blood puddled 2 my ankles
constant state of panic
Know id do it if u say so
anxious throwin up always say we goin up
know I used 2 give a fuck 
now I just want on that payroll 
clawing out my eyes at the sight of seein u with him
sun will never rise if I don’t admit 
2 myself that I need 2 get over this shit

self destruction w/ rouri404 (p. jolst)

i recorded this while i was hella sick

Mean more than you could ever know
Sittin by myself in an empty grove
Still the same kids know we never grown
Haven’t seen you since the day I left home

Relapse and crawl back to nothing
You took to long and now I’d really like to be alone
Still just singing all the same old songs
Really wish we’d get along 
But know I’m better on my own
Relapse and crawl back to nothing
You took to long and now I’d really like to be alone
Still just singing all the same old songs
Really wish we’d get along 
But know I’m better on my own

Every now and then I lose track of
What I want from life I’ve lost passion
Fall asleep I won’t see the sun up
Brain feels like it’s made of plastic
Burn the house and play in the ashes
Seen a ghost, do you believe in magic?
Mouth sewn shut, your face dunked in acid
Last thing you’ll hear is me striking the matches

Relapse and crawl back to nothing
You took to long and now I’d really like to be alone
Still just singing all the same old songs
Really wish we’d get along 
But know I’m better on my own
Relapse and crawl back to nothing
You took to long and now I’d really like to be alone
Still just singing all the same old songs
Really wish we’d get along 
But know I’m better on my own

(Every now and then I lose track of
What I want from life I’ve lost passion
Fall asleep I won’t see the sun up
Brain feels like it’s made of plastic
Burn the house and play in the ashes
Seen a ghost, do you believe in magic?
Mouth sewn shut, your face dunked in acid
Last thing you’ll hear is me striking the matches)

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nothing (weikoo + 02ashes)

@heylog
produced by @herskylin

(vil)
i stay in the moment i’m lost in
time fractures and i’m exhausted
serpent biting all on the cartridge
perfecting everything in my way
and it sucks to suck
in your world
i mean nothing to you, you say it sucks to be you
(cut me loose)

cut me loose from the ties i’m
holding on despite the
ruckus you’ve caused
i should abandon you but what would that fix
…nothing at all
this confrontation is just breaking us apart
i cant even find the start
and so i

break down (x4)
can’t find a way, need an escape
i’m left for dead blood spewin out
my pores are closing
i’m decomposing
show me what it’s like to be controlling

(heylog)
my life's so concerning
wait too long i need to hurry
my stomach's churning
decide if i need to worry
what am i here for
what is my goal
oh my god i'm so worn from climbing out this hole
abuse my body oh it's hurting
i'm so lost think that i'm worthless
pretty sure i don't have a purpose
make mistakes constantly learning
what not to do next time
too lazy to reply
but i don't even try
desert phone, it's so dry

(vil)
i’m bleeding out from my wrist
and i’m choked up, let me say my final wish
you act like what we had never existed
so i’m blaming you until death

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serpent +heylog (skylin ✧)

if words drew blood (grayskies)

Featuring @ihateshinigami
Produced by @horoshavibes
Art by Kat (artstation.com/katieimbro)

LYRICS
I've been living in a dream for far too long
Desperately in need of
Someone to wake me up
Stuck in a state of
Suspended animation
Can't escape this simulation
And it's getting harder just to fake it

Nothing seems to stimulate me
And all the while I'm deteriorating
Feel like everybody hates me
Can't get out of my head
 
I've seen the world for what it is and I'm not convinced
There's gotta be something more to all of this
If ignorance is bliss than I
Am living in a paradise

(Horosha)
If all of this is just a dream
Then what visions will we see
When we wake up
Do I even want to know

(shinigami)
I’ve been living in a dream
Everything feels so far from me
I can’t tell if I’m asleep
I just really need you here next to me

And I just wanna give you the best of me
Butterflies every time that you’re texting me
Sick and tired of turning in my sheets
Lately it’s been really hard to breathe

I can’t take this anymore
Hands to my chest I’m on the floor
Wanna live a good life ‘cause this shit’s short
That’s one thing I know for sure

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Suspended Animation w/ shinigami (Prod. Horosha)

I don't wanna get back into this
Tell me what you've been doing with him
Said it didn't mean anything, that he's just a friend

And now I'm feeling like I'm better off dead
Yeah we should have just stayed as friends
Some things better off left unsaid
But I still want you in my bed
And now I'm feeling like I'm better off dead
Yeah we should have just stayed as friends
Some things better off left unsaid
But I still want you in my bed
(And now I'm feeling like I'm better off dead)

Maybe it'd be better if we let things die
But I won't be mourning you
I already have a back full of thorns
Its true, romance favors no man
And it feels like he's left with no chance
At redemption
Maybe that's because he's still resenting you
(He's still resenting you)

Hope to read between the lines
You sent me
I know where he lives so don't tempt me
Really need you here when I'm empty
If I come around could we talk it out
Or is it better off left unsaid
Your apology would still be accepted
Because you're exceptional
It's hard to see you go

And now I'm feeling like I'm better off dead
Yeah we should have just stayed as friends
Some things better off left unsaid
But I still want you in my bed
And now I'm feeling like I'm better off dead
Yeah we should have just stayed as friends
Some things better off left unsaid
But I still want you in my bed

And now I'm feeling like I'm better off dead
Yeah we should have just stayed as friends
Some things better off left unsaid
But I still want you in my bed
And now I'm feeling like I'm better off dead

unsaid w/poptropicaslutz (frevel x mampitsu x orora x northeast lights)

Mastered by Hector Vega

I bite down and bite hard
Wake up at the crack of dawn
Don't notice, must've beat it over your head
Chew me up, spit me out before you can swallow
I peel my eyes open
Everyone knows and nobody cares
I know it's you, cause I know how it feels
When your hands' in my hair
I peel my eyes open
Everyone knows and nobody cares
I'm all dolled up for you, I'm not stupid
If you're not the hawk like you said
Say it again... just for me
And it always ends the same, I'm in your mouth again
I'll ride your coattails if I can't reach the rest of you
I know it's you, cause I know how it feels
When your hands' in my hair
I peel my eyes open
Everyone knows and nobody cares
Chew me up, spit me out before you can swallow
I peel my eyes open
Everyone knows and nobody cares
I peel my eyes open
Everyone knows and nobody cares
I peel my eyes open
Everyone knows and nobody cares

Cage Girl

cage girl (single ver)

~2300~

Lyrics:
[HOOK]
Fuck it I'm sick I'm bad at responding
Losing my grip what I had wasn't constant 
Watching your lips but I don't hear you talking 
Taking more risk 'cause I'm all out of options 
I can't fall for you right now
I don't mean that
Actually I get real scared you believe that 
Falling in love treat a girl like a relapse 
Breaking my trust like I don't really need that

[VERSE]
Finally feel something
I thought it all hurt
Where is the real substance
I felt like all her
Personality was just a fabrication
Out of desperation for validation
So don't walk in my shoes
I don't feel the same I am nothing like you 
There's nobody to blame for your lack of IQ 
You never feel shame when they talk about you 
You know what you do

[HOOK]
Fuck it I'm sick I'm bad at responding
Losing my grip what I had wasn't constant 
Watching your lips but I don't hear you talking 
Taking more risk 'cause I'm all out of options 
I can't fall for you right now
I don't mean that
Actually I get real scared you believe that 
Falling in love treat a girl like a relapse 
Breaking my trust like I don't really need that

Constant (prod. King Theta)

Dust bowl [ethel cain cover]

~ i hope wishes come true ~

i had thought these feelings were gone 
i guess i was wrong, and i won't stay in place
i've gotta try and be strong
the summer's gonna be long 
without your face
tiptoe around my heart in your heels
i hate when you're not around
i love how you make me feel 
and i just thought i'd put it in song 
hope you're singing along 
whenever i say 

you're living like you're a dandelion 
yeah you ease the pain when the stress is high 
yeah you bring the things that i missed in life 
with your country twang and your dreamy eyes 
your spirits like a whirling fire 
i'm a moth in flight, and i'm drawn to your light 
i don't care if i have no songs to write
everything's just fine when your by my side
dandelion

dandelion

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crawl (siemspark x heyrick)

'shredder' produced by heylog

lyrics:
at night i wanna end it all
in bed as tears begin to fall
water seeps through my pillow
i had to let it out
why won't u let me be
is it revenge you seek
too bad i cared for u
more than u could ever care for me

right now my only focus is on you
but if i die, i promise that i will warn you
but i cannot guarantee if i'll make it or not
so i'll cherish every moment with u
stay here, i gotta go i'll be right back
i head to war when voices causing this impact
but i cannot guarantee i'll make it out alive
so i'll try my best to stay intact
oh we out here alone with no one there by my side
i keep on hearing these screams and hearing people cry
but i don't know if it's real, don't know if it's a sign
i just know that i'm frightened and horrified
say where is log, i don't know where they went
i vanish into thin air and wait until i'm in
love for who i am
and love for within
u took that away now there's a shredder on my skin
if i were you i would hide
cus u don't know what u caused
u put on quite a show
let's give a round of applause
so are u done hurting me
and are u done w my head?
keep using it like a toy
you must forgot i'm human

don't wait for me now, i don't know how long i'll be
i'm too busy in the ground eating dirt u threw at me
oh u had your chance to let me go so i could breathe
now ur the one who's eating dust that i'm collecting on my feet
so how does it feel now that the roles finally swapped
i've been living too long feeling disgust inside this swamp
people love to talk but never wanna say a thing
when i be standing right there, c'mon and say it to my face
don't piss on my back and say it's raining from outside
i don't need no skin & bones for me to conjure every lie
i know i forgave but honestly i change my mind
cus i could not forgive a person who has stabbed me many times
say where is log, i don't know where i have been
i just stay as far as possible and locking every hinge
love for who i am and love for what i hold within
thanks for ruining what i had, this is where i shred my skin

you hurt..
you hurt
you hurt..
you hurt oh

don't look at me now, i feel so guilty in my chest
reflecting off the mirror is just a boy bout to collapse
i said i wanted peace, instead i got a giant war
and now i feel it slipping through as if this chapters gonna end
better start the next one bringing in new characters
maybe they'll respect me and everything will register
cus i don't need nobody who just screws behind my back
so tell me was it worth it throwing everything we had

shredder

produced by xona, ruevi, & oc

big thank you to all individuals who helped make this song possible <3

@ruevi @prod-oc
@heylog
@hiraethsry
@sleepywater
@sinxi
@caspywaspy
@vilsynth
@valerii
@deadfishh

the lyrics were over 4000 characters and that's the limit for soundcloud ♥

-lyrics-
https://genius.com/Xona-avoid-ii-lyrics

xona

avoid II w/ ruevi, heylog, hiraeth, sleepwater, sinxi, casperrr, vil, valerii & deadfish

prod logan

lyrics:
wait here for a minute
i'll be back in a moment
tie me to a rope
pull it back, cut me open
everything we did together
(god)
likes to haunt me
i take it with a grain of salt and everything you taught me
in the end i'm still a human but you hate that
cause you put me in a bottle when u face back
and i remember we were tight but i don't trace back
so ima move on with my life and never think "past"
cause i don't wanna get caught up in flames i've been in before
i see my problems and delete like i just been through a war
and i got 24 hours and 7 days filled with bored
but when someone asks me to hang i don't have time to afford
and by that i mean i just wanna hangout by myself
& i'm sorry but i'd rather work on music n melt
cause oh my god this heat has got me sweating hotter than hell
i haven't showered for a while and i'm starting to smell
now i look into the mirror, sensing anger in me
i wanna smash it into pieces, i don't wanna be weak
i wanna get me out this town and move somewhere overseas
i'm tryna get me to the top but i'm progressing with ease
and the last thing ima do is hang my head and give up
i think they're praying me to fall but so far they're outta luck
cause i continue steady work while they're hungover as f-
and on the weekends i be staying home cause it's just as fun

again

shotgun carousel

Prod ERXN & heylog

every photo, im not recognised
its always black and white, with some grain inside
you would think that i was tryna hide
im really not i just hate what i see

you wouldnt like it no doubt
ill force my hand over your mouth
youre half the size of me now
bruise on your knees start to sprout

look to my left, im in a forest where im tryna find 
a piece of you that just keeps falling down beside my side
i ran right through the forest path we did a thousand times
im scared that I wont make it back I might of lost my mind 
might of broke down for a minute but its cool 
image distorted in my vision when you call 
i know its just anxiety but if its more 

ima need a Prozac for this 
if you never loved me that's shit 
keep me out of line like im wearing high viz 
keep me outside like im never not in 
if you need me il die il tell you im in 
see me outside come around real quick 
baby I know the way to try and get your hate out 
click it back and put it to my face now

man i wish that she was close
hanging out, youre on the phone
think that i just found a home
hopefully we'll always grow
11 days until i board my flight
i just gotta know if youre worth my time
moving on to better things
she found me, shes in love w me
she always wants to say my name
yeah all she does is say my name
and i love her honesty
you really put my mind at ease
she wants to call me everyday
just so she can say my name

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BRUISE w/ hiraeth & heylog

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Rouri404@mskd.co

if words drew blood (grayskies)

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