shine

you always remember things i cant
im drawing conclusions about something i cant have
time isn't real because i said so
we're not allowed to feel because you said so
i wanna go to bed
i wanna rest my head
maybe on your chest (no)
just forget anything i said...

i feel so tired all the time, can barely open my eyes. i’m trying to make sense of what i want, or what i think i’d want.

"it is what it is" but what is it? 

i’d dig a hole in the ground for you, i’ll do whatever you want me to. i’ll dig a hole in the ground for you, just say if you want me to. oh, do you want me too?

do you want me like i want you?

dead

my hands shake when i think about all the things i have to do
 but all i wanna do is fall asleep with you
i cant grasp the meaning of my own existence but it feels alright
to get high with you
stuck in a haze for days but is okay and im happy and you're happy too

i wanna do every drug with you
i wanna see how you see
change my perspective, baby
help me be who i wanna be

i hope it never stops feeling like forever

i cant dream of anything but you

you're paper and i'm stuck to you like glue

you're crazy but i'm just as crazy too


no words for how i feel, it's too much. just look how far we've come

dogs up

I’ve been sitting on something, covering it completely…
Its completely meaningless to wake up and get dressed, but ill try again to exist

Is this a death sentence?
Am I winding up or winding down?

In Control

ill only be gone for the weekend
changing scenery as a method of self therapy, taking day trips to the coast is getting old...i dont know when ill be home

silly me, ive gone anc chose the wrong thing again
pining for you but minding all the while...im gone

but oh my god, i dont know what i want

Less Alone

please don't tell me what i already know...that "disembodied people die for love"

it's not what it looks like, it's not what it looks like...

man is a wolf (to man)

reduced to nothing in the light...but there's still a soft yellow light. pleasure seeker, chaos leaker.

like the last dying star, i'm red hot and i can't stop. thought i was something but i'm not

leaker

Dissolve

All of my official music can be listened to/downloaded here: http://royaphl.bandcamp.com/

Dissolve

Roya Jeanne Weidman

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