Eroskuso - So Sad (SONICREATIONS)

Lyrics

Dumb, yeah these pills make me numb
Fun, yeah these thrills really fun
Numb, yeah these pills make me numb
Dumb, all these thrills really fun

Dumb, yeah these pills make me numb
Fun, yeah these thrills really fun
Numb, yeah these pills make me numb
Dumb, all these thrills really fun

Fun, all these thrills really fun
Can’t catch my emotions, yeah baby they on the run 
And your love made me numb, just like my drugs
But I’m never sober, yeah baby I’m always dumb
But don’t get it wrong baby, I can feel the love 
And it was never there, I was never put above 
So I’m soaring high, yeah baby just like a dove 
Never staying sober, off the alc, the nic, the bud

Got emotions I can’t deal with 
Getting help, yeah tryna fix it 
Got emotions I can’t deal with 
Coping with drugs, hiding feelings

Dumb, yeah these pills make me numb
Fun, yeah these thrills really fun
Numb, yeah these pills make me numb
Dumb, all these thrills really fun

Dumb, yeah these pills make me numb
Fun, yeah these thrills really fun
Numb, yeah these pills make me numb
Dumb, all these thrills really fun

I been hurt and I been anxious
Off a pill, yeah I won't feel it
Acting dumb and acting crazy
Off a pill, yeah that shit save me

Hurt me, break me, just dont play me
If its real, yeah call me baby
Fake or real, yeah I can't feel it
Off these pills, yeah I can't feel shit
Lost my mind, yeah I can't feel it
Off these pills, yeah I won't feel shit, oh
I can't feel shit, oh

NUMB

NUMB (w/ dxseo) [Jean Parker]

the idea and meaning behind "Stellar misfortune"
is that it's a sequence of how my previous experiences were structured in a way by the universe to make me into the person I am today.
My love life is absolute trash at the time of writing this, the relationship between me and my parents are completely unstable and terrible and nothing to be envied, I'm more depressed and sadder than ever. the hormones in my brain makin me feel 7 things at once simultaneously. 
15 songs 10 features &15 years of experience put into one album
all self produced, mixed by me and written by me, I hope I can make u feel what I've felt in these songs, I love you thank you and safety<3

lyrics on genius :)

Xeno's resignment

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