hide my face behind my hair
always looking down at the ground
i act like im not there
dont make a sound
i dont make a sound
i remember long car rides
look at the trees as we go by
hand in the wind
i pretend its an airplane

i wanted to live
dont wanna die
i just remembered
i just remembered
i just remembered it's alright
it’s alright

[Alexandrites]
there is a phrase that i feel is commonly thrown around
and that saying is something along the lines of
"you just want to feel special"
and i would like to tell you today
that there is nothing wrong with wanting to feel special
because everyone wants to feel special
everyone wants to have their experiences validated
and deep down
everyone wants to know that they are unique in some way
that they bring something different to the table
and in fact
they do

that kid never left me
im done, done neglecting
i still see the beauty
cry at movies
the music moves me

for the kid i was

we used to laugh so much
but now we dont speak
i remember the sound of your voice still

inside my head
lives a version of you
you’re still with me in everything i do

i still keep a space for you
even after all this time
i never let you go
things will never be the same
i know

wake from bad deams
another bad year gone
with all this time im wasting
im alone now
i never dreamed how
i’d survive this long but here i am
i miss you more than i can even comprehend

i try to make it out
close my eyes forget about it
we’re only older now
obstacles are bigger but it’s
still the same thing
still the same pain
still remains
even when i try to run away

running away

Here is something I cooked up on my MPC while waiting for my red eye flight in Sacramento to catch Perc play back in the midwest at Crucible in Madison. I love what happens in airports. I love people watching and all the movements around me. Nothing better than banging out a beat while everyone is fretting about crap.

Codebreaker

Sacramento-Airport (Murder Kween)

Haze

act like a they/them

aywhat was meant to be on this song be he hated it so much he told me to remove his tag and credit from it LOLLL. this song is VVYELLOW era of stuff so yea

Jeepers Creepers

JEEPErrS CREEPrrS [prod. yoon + sebii] (Jeepers Creepers)

(VERSE 1)
we could always be just friends but you’ll always stop my breathing
all these insecurities i’m fighting with my demons 
I can’t stop but overthink wondering if i’ll be enough
i’m still wide awake cause you’re SO fucking DREAMY

(CHORUS)
you got me excited yea you make me feel so safe
you make me feel butterflies i’m all over the place
you make me feel okay even when I feel afraid
every time I see you got a smile on my face

(VERSE 2)
any time i’m smoking you should be here and partaking
hold me a little tighter Minnesota's fucking freezing
put u on repeat again but every time is different
take me to museums,  really wanna take you swimming

(CHORUS)

(BRIDGE)
don't care where this is going i don't care where we end up
feels good to have you by me, like i stumbled over luck
the world’s full of lies but I should  tell the truth
don't know what I'm doing, don't know what I'll fucking do
gorgeous ghostie gal with the perfect green eyes
I love the way you see me, I want you to always thrive
never needed anyone but i really like you
move a little closer gaze into my berry-blues

(CHORUS) x2

ghostie gal

Serenade For None - Piano Solo

This is some samples from the fourth kind chopped and spiced up with some strange brew. I'de love to know whhat you might think of this jazzy house tune

We Are Freinds (Dance Edit) Murder Kween

Straight Jay lib Single with some turntableism to match. Check it! It is the instrument

The Red (Jaylib) Murder Kween  Scratch session!

I got lost somewhere in the warehouse. Please guide me to the chillout room

Kush Trio (Murder Kween)

crunchy rhythm, cynical romance n optimistic nihilism

ghostie gal

R (_) B Y