locked in

produced by heylog

lyrics:
knew this was all a mistake
as soon as i gave u grace
no matter what i'll b here
she said to me "pls just stay"
i'm at my lowest i've been
don't think i could get lower
so let's share what we have
n fall deep low together
the bones rot in the grave
and they'll all think that he's insane
but i continue to hold me
i swear to god i'm ok

couldn't get lower than this, even if i try my best
don't wait for me in the end, cus i'm never coming back
are u lost, are u a stray
you look like u seem afraid
do u need somewhere to stay
don't worry i'll keep u safe
but promise you'll hold my hand 
cus this world is such a mess
and they will try to break us
so we can't fall for their tricks
i'm at my lowest i've been
don't think i could get lower
so let's share what we have
n fall deep low together
the bones rot in the grave
and they'll all think that he's insane
but i continue to hold me
i swear to god i'm ok

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keep u safe

prod xona <3

@heylog

-lyrics-
oh I might try
to end myself and neglect my health and I don’t need one more-
reason to live, I don’t need a friend
I could care less :/
for her help and I don’t need no pills to keep me held
but I’ve tried 2much,  2much right now..
but I can lie and that’s alright (:
but all my friends
push me on edge
and they do not sense
on why I feel dead..
oh I might try
to end myself and neglect my health and I don’t need one more-
reason to live!
I don’t need a friend
I could care less :/
for her help and I don’t need no pills to keep me held

oh i might cry :,(
when this blade touches my skin
i don't need remorse
for all the sins that i commit
i don't need a friend
to tell me what i'm doing wrong
you think i don't know this
i could tell you the exact same thing
you better watch your back
i see the folks you call your friends will try hurt you
don't be surprised when it happens
cause i was surprised when it happened 
hating on myself
makes the 2 of us
no i don't need help
or any pill
the story of my life
i gotta chill
feel like pennywise
giving me a thrill

care w/ heylog♡

produced by xona 

@heylog

-lyrics-
I wanna run but I can’t deny
feelin dread to our trust and I cry
and I would get everything for you
she loves him but I’m just that fool
I wanted us back, you didn’t want that
I’m pleading with this pain I held
and now I fall back
all on my prozac’s
and I just hope that I get your help

and now I’m washed up all alone
the little essence that you left long ago
the flowers wilt down to my floor
push me down like I’m nothing more

and I don’t wish the best for you
you wanted healing but I was see through
you wanted blood, now you got it on view
many voices telling me on what I knew
there’s reflections that portray all of us 
you’re sick of me and the things that I love 
I won’t forget what it meant for us
these 6 letters that stuck like a drug

stab me again i won't feel a thing
hold me down this some sentencing
taking my bliss, more apologies
i don't like this, just don't talk to me
wasting away i'm never calling you back
i'm stuck with memories i won't forget
with all this weight i carry on my back
you did this to me and i will never forgive

you
oh
i hate 
you
with
every little gut in my body

WALKING UP TO HEAVEN I CANNOT BELIEVE I'M HERE
BUT WHY AM I STILL RUNNING FROM THIS NEVER ENDING FEAR
I'M SHIFTING THROUGH LANES WHILE UR STILL STUCK IN 2ND GEAR
SURPRISING EVERYONE LIKE 2 HEADLIGHTS ON A DEER
WASTING AWAY I'M NEVER CALLING YOU BACK
I'M STUCK WITH MEMORIES I WON'T FORGET
(forget)
WITH ALL THIS WEIGHT I CARRY ON MY BACK 
YOU DID THIS TO ME AND I HATE YOU FOR THAT

you
oh
i hate you
with
every little gut in my body

i wont forget

i won't forget w/ heylog

prod kimj
https://www.instagram.com/2hollis
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Always questioned it, always questioned it
I always questioned it, I always questioned it
I always questioned it, questioned it

Racks on the doorway, she keep trying to escape from me
Put a pass on your old ways, You’ll make a mistake some day I promise
I put a scar on the bad past, scar on my right eye, put me in the sky man
Switchin’ up the climate, sit in ancient silence, can’t resort to violence
And when I cry, a thousand tears, and when I lie, a thousand years
And when I say goodbye it’s our last one (and when I say goodbye it’s our last one)

I always questioned, always, uhhhh
I always questioned it, I always questioned it, yeahhh

i always questioned it

butterfly [w/skylin and xona]

Self prod :) 

LYRICS 

Love stuck in my lonely ways
I gotta leave me its my only way
I cannot take it with the shit you say
I swear this town should burn in fire
And il run away

Break me take me leave a little more for me desire
Cannot tempt the fate of one that meddles with his heart
Iron melts like gold and I cant stand it when you're hot
Leave me on the phone for like hours til you're gone
I don't want this love I wanna break into your heart
Clearly nothings there all your empathy is gone
Maybe you're just scared and all this time im wrong
I don't really care I just wanna see you gone

Love stuck in my lonely ways
I gotta leave me its my only way
I cannot take it with the shit you say
I swear this town should burn in fire
And il run away

Love stuck in my lonely ways
I gotta leave me its my only way
I cannot take it with the shit you say
I swear this town should burn in fire
And il run away

Throwing nothing but stones
Oh why she tell me that she love me
When she hate me the most
I get im ugly I can't handle 10 degrees in the cold
thats why im always at home
Leave you with the best time that I ever had
Wish I had the best life that I ever had
Tripping in the next life what we never had
I don't really care I just wanna see you gone

Love stuck in my lonely ways
I gotta leave me its my only way
I cannot take it with the shit you say
I swear this town should burn in fire
And il run away

Love stuck in my lonely ways
I gotta leave me its my only way
I cannot take it with the shit you say
I swear this town should burn in fire
And il run away

THIS TOWN SHOULD BURN IN FIRE

tysm too @xona & @heylog
for jumping on the song, love ya kings <3

Lyrics.
xona -
by myself
I need your help
to leave this place and reach a realm 
where I’m safe from all of this
it’s raining and I don’t know when
this envy, this hatred will end
as long as you know it from then 
i cannot bleed for you longer
you got me locked in this somber-
state and it’s not even shocker 
you walked all way and just prospered
i can’t believe that i knew 
i would be here to rue
you’re gone without telling me too
so where do i go without you?

Heylog-
i'm almost home babe
sorry i'm a little late
i've traveled far and wide
i've seen some better days
i can't get enough
look in my eyes and tell me i look rough
here lies a soulless place
i just heard some cries that do not sound okay
heard shots coming far away
hard to misplace thoughts when they are insane
i'm here outside ur place
babe i've come home and now ur safe
i'm alright
i'm just fine
hide every cut from the fight
i'm alright
i see light
darkness gets lost from behind
i need something i can feel, something i can feel
somewhere i can hide
somewhere i can heal
u mean nothing to me now
i mean something to me now
send the warriors out to battle on the field
u know what's the deal
every enemy i fought is dead
now their families kneel
i'm sorry i had to kill ur friend and so now ur next
never saw it coming cause he's dumb
shit's a bloodybath 
i'm bleeding
they're grieving
sorry i had to kill them
i'm reaching
the ceiling
there's a new king since yours dead

enemy ft. xona & heylog

prod logan

lyrics:
hearing conversations that i don't know what they're talkin bout
give a little lip and bet you know that i'll be walking out
holding up the line like seriously what are you on about
stepping up to fight, do you think i'm afraid to knock u out
gloves up, round one
i can't wait to pounce ya
blood bath, get smacked
come on, can you hit back
no chance, throw hands
punch him in his throat glands
your boy is a pussy and i'd like to throw w you next

your excuse is blaming her being a hoe
if that was new to me i'd kill you on the low
but i was stupid then and brushed it off
i'm in the trees and my bow is drawn

it doesn't matter
i'm moving like better than ever
it's all been captured
you notice how there is a pattern
i take a weapon and turn it into an aesthetic
i take aggression out all on myself & accept it
she looks so fine
i won't let her know why
"i like your hair and your pretty blue eyes"
i'm a disaster, oh baby i'm a disaster
and does that matter
oh baby does that really matter

𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘢 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳

POSTED OUTSIDE
WAR IS COMPLETE
I FOUGHT FOR MY LIFE
IT GOT DEADLY
BLOOD ON MY FACE
STOP HOLDING ME
DODGING A M-
BUT I DON'T RETREAT
don't you ever talk a-
wake up & i'm winning
how does second feel when i'm first
my life might be lame-
least that i'm not lamer
cry
i gotta get going and i hope to see you never

disaster

cover of the song "fraulein" by tyler childers
re-produced by logan

lyrics:
far across the deep blue water
lives an old germans daughter
by the banks of the old river rhine
where i loved her and left her
now i can't forget her
i miss my pretty fraulein
fraulein
fraulein look up toward the heaven
each night, as them stars start to shine
by the same stars above you
i swear that i love you
you are my pretty fraulein

when my memories wander
away over yonder
to the sweetheart that i left behind
in a moment of glory 
her faces comes before me
the face of my pretty fraulein
fraulein
fraulein look up toward the heaven
each night as the stars start to shine
by the same stars above you
i swear that i love you
you are my pretty fraulein
you are my pretty fraulein

fraulein cover (tyler childers)

cover of the song "lady may" by tyler childers
re-produced by logan

lyrics:
i'm a stones throw from the mill
and i'm a good walk to the river
when my working day is over 
we'll go swim our cares away
put your toes down in the water
and a smile across your face
and tell me that you love me
lovely lady may
now i ain't the sharpest chisel
that your hands have ever held
well darling i could love you well
til the roll is called on high
i've seen my share of trouble
and i've held my weight in shame
but i'm baptized in your name
lovely lady may

lord the wind can leave you shivering
as it waltzes o'er the leaves
it's been rushin through my timber
til your love brought on the spring
now the mountains all are blushin
and they don't know what to say
except a good long line of praises
for my lovely lady may
now i ain't toughest hickory
that your ax has ever felt
but i'm a hickory just as well
i'm a hickory all the same
i came crashin through the forest
as you cut my roots away
and i felt a good long way
for my lovely lady may

lady may cover (tyler childers)

prod by me :>

you keep lying on my name like u kno how u did
and u could try but i promise u aint gettin us back
you just lost something worth so much more
you could've had everything you stupid whore

you stabbed me it wont happen again
all these bruises and cuts i wont forget 
lonely nights i was calling your name
no one answered i was in pain

i dont want u to leave me even if i say that i do 
every single night all the things that i think about is u
i was beggin on my knees for u please do not leave my life
all my tears are hitting the floor and i only see ur eyes

u aint gettin nothin related to my love
u can keep on wishin or something, get better luck
no 1 can touch this, my grind, i swear to God its up
n when i feel sad bout u my new girl she suck me up x2

you keep lying on my name like u kno how u did
and u could try but i promise u aint gettin us back
you just lost something worth so much more
you could've had everything you stupid whore

[[resentment - adaptation]]

convert

standing by the bedside
baby you know you’re picture perfect
lights off moving so slow as you undress
i’ll take time but promise i’m back before the sunset
you’re gone i should’ve known that i was worthless

why is everybody spiteful
like where’d the love go?
suddenly you hate me like i meant nothing despite all…
pushing every corner like i’m not walking on tight ropes
i know the truth is that you’d never care if i fall :/

go on
hold on
seems i made it home but it all seems
so wrong
so wrong…
there’s blood all on the floor leaking down from the walls :(
i just hate that you would never call
tell me that you care but don’t try at all
okay baby posing like a doll
i’ll clean all the blood of off the walls

i don’t serenade
i spit blood out my mouth
or all the thoughts will poison me :/
i love when it builds
and feels like i’m a walking tragedy
i romanticize the pain like it’s not fucking killing me :P
swear its fucking agony

say it’s a dream
wake me up i’ve had enough
cause i feel nothing
my
emotions
have
shut
the
fuck
up.

i'm home but the walls are bleeding [prodsecre]

prod by me :>

(skylin)
all the hatred that you're giving me is only poisoning
at least with my enemies i know what it is they seek
I rather judas instead of someone backstabbing me
oh you're pathetic askin me if I would forgive you

I never go out or talk to people like I know I should
it's easier not engaging and hiding inside my hood
sometimes I tend to fail myself and everyone around me
I guess it kinda scared me from socially interacting

on the darkest days I don't know who it is that I will call
but I am hoping you answer because im bout to fall
and I don't know where I am going but ik you know it all
so I am calling out to you please do not let me fall


(heylog)
catch me on the other end
what i said i really meant
what are all the thoughts your brain holds
what's inside that head
i think i finally figured you out
i think it's time to step out your life now
i don't know what i did for you to become untied to me
if you're gonna act like this then break it off entirely
and if i would've known your emotions would all start piling
then i would've kept it hush instead of you crying to me
i was there for you when no one else was
now i'm seeing the truth and exposing your bluffs
i was there for you at your lowest point
don't go and blame it on me, this wasn't my choice

[[anger - disconnect]]

traitor w/heylog

traitor w/ heylog (Now on Spotify)

prod by me

- lyrics -
my hearts gone out of place
please just let the rhythm follow pace
has my life gone cold
since i see my walls been filled with mold

has the world been whispering to me
"your life is done there's no repeating "
a change of seasons

my blood feels so potent
but your hate  had hid like a trojan
talking id notice
how your heart had turned in the ocean

but i made a mistake
your unconditioned love showing you were a fake
i trusted every word thinking you were made for me
-----------------------------------------

flower petals ✾

potent

Is this all that I am anymore ?
Can I call this a relapse or
Am I just stupid
I’m just stupid
No one cares when I say it as a joke
I look fine but inside I’m froze
I’m so stupid 
Aren’t I stupid ? 

I’m so deluded it feels like a burden now
Keep throwing money till I say I’m finally out
But I’m not
All that I’ve worked for immediately out my hands
Say I’m fine but it’s nothing that I could grasp
Isn’t that stupid ?

Is this all that I am anymore ?
Can I call this a relapse or
Am I just stupid
I’m just stupid
No one cared when I said it as a joke
I look fine but inside I’m froze
I’m so stupid 
I’m so stupid 

Eyes glued to my screen all night
Fall asleep without my high
You don’t get it and nor do I
I swear I only use it to pass my time
But what time is it now ?
I’m starting to feel better can you slow it down
I’ll stay awake till I go outside
And pretend it’s not ruined my life

Is this all that I am anymore ?
Can I call this a relapse or
Am I just stupid
I’m just stupid
No one cared when I said it as a joke
I look fine but inside I’m froze
I’m so stupid 
I’m so stupid

I’m so deluded it feels like a burden now
Keep throwing money till I say I’m finally out
But I’m not
All that I’ve worked for immediately out my hands
Say I’m fine but it’s nothing that I could grasp
Isn’t that stupid ?

stupid

kinda meh
produced by chalyre

(pull up chalyre)

(whoa whoa)
(whoa whoa)
(yeah yeah)

youre sowing doubts
run your mouth
little bitch what are you talking about
hoe reroute
don’t come around
the dogs will sniff you out
hear that sound
best get down
6 feet underground
why you frowning?
you too scared to duke it out?

your bloodline ends with you under a pyre
shame how you went and turned me into a liar
quit holding on youre fighting for survival
just let it go youre stuck in your denial

im seeing ghosts
took another hit to feel some more
pussy what you waiting for?

grip the steel
how’s it feel
9mm your meal
quit begging your fate is sealed

ill disappear
6 months from me you won’t hear
this clone looked into a mirror
ill turn into what you fear

butterfly [w/skylin and xona]

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