prod. by me

@xona

lyrics:

-du1-
fuck all your trust im so done
you always just left me behind
the palm of my hand filled with hope
why don't you just give me sign


sink stained with blood
too lame no trust
fuck all your trust im so done
you always just left me behind
the palm of my hand filled with hope
why don't you just give me sign


close my gates
fuck off i don't wanna play
its such a fucking shame for you to know me by my name
no i don't play your game
cut off just every vein
you're the one to blame
don't gaslight your mistakes
breaking every single bottle
i don't recall your fucking face no
watch me bleed on the floor do nothing
what you scared for?
fuck the promises you gave me right when i just met you
fuck the promises we gave us through a fucking phone yeah
tell me
why are you leaving just now
right when i need you
now i am always alone
why do i trust you
and thats my issue
its either kill or lose
i don't need us two
no i don't need us two

fuck all your trust im so done
you always just left me behind
the palm of my hand filled with hope
why don't you just give me sign
why cant you stay
sweet but too afraid
spit on your hands
all for a friend


sink stained with blood
too lame no trust
fuck all your trust im so done
you always just left me behind
the palm of my hand filled with hope
why don't you just give me sign


-xona-
falling all behind
write your life inside
down to your last line
break truths and deny 
oo~
so heaven sent 
dont lie to me
when you mess ahead 
oo~
you dont think the best 
but off the edge
you want to bridge
to rest this urge, cold shoulder of her curse
too much, too many learn
of my life and it hurts

behind [w/xona]


ik the the matter with your face
i promised you that I would change
guess i am the fucking same
but i don't think that i feel safe


tell me everything you know
don't keep on the low
don't waste my fucking time
im disappointment to you
nothing that i do
is good enough 


tell me everything you know
don't keep on the low
don't waste my fucking time
im disappointment to you
nothing that i do
is good enough 


~


staring at the ceiling
i don't wanna wake up
i don't think i can
feel exhausted as fuck
suicidal thoughts
and i wanna just run


keep your head up
thats what he told me
you can always try again
I'm dying slowly
not making progress
but can you help me?
i don't even wanna try
think i messed up


tell me everything you know
don't keep on the low
don't waste my fucking time
im disappointment to you
nothing that i do
is good enough


~


whats the meaning of my life
destroying everything i pass 
throw another fucking dice 
(sorry)


~

lyrics:

i swear i swear i wanna be like you
i wanna be so cool with the heart on my shoes
i wanna be so edgy with a cigarette too
you make lose my weight
you make lose my mind


2 am im bored
scrolling thru ig
seeing all the people
i dream to be
everyone like you
all your friends are cruel 
wanna be like her cause

she's a bad bitch
she's an addict
she's everything i wanted
but a pessimist
she's a conflict
she's a lillte prick
she's everything i wanna be


i swear i swear i wanna be like you
i wanna be so cool with the heart on my shoes
i wanna be so edgy with a cigarette too
you make lose my weight
you make lose my mind
i swear i swear i wanna be like you
i wanna be so cool with the heart on my shoes
i wanna be so edgy with a cigarette too
you make lose my weight
you make lose my mind

~

she don't give a fuck about drama no more
she don't give a fuck about boys in her path
she got black nails and pretty pretty eyes
and a pretty fucking smile

she's a bad bitch
she's an addict
she's everything i wanted
but a pessimist
she's a conflict
she's a lillte prick
she's everything i wanna be


i swear i swear i wanna be like you
i wanna be so cool with the heart on my shoes
i wanna be so edgy with a cigarette too
you make lose my weight
you make lose my mind
i swear i swear i wanna be like you
i wanna be so cool with the heart on my shoes
i wanna be so edgy with a cigarette too
you make lose my weight
you make lose my mind




like you

produced by ruevi 

what does the cat on the tin roof say?

-''ladi dadi da, rubby on me head. pass me some snack. pet me in the car.''

@t1gerstar
@1spooz

kittykitty w/tigerstar & spooz

𝘪𝘮𝘢 𝘳𝘶𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦
additional production by me
https://open.spotify.com/album/1Q2ggA8q5zizowN7b2AJat?si=_dkJHWDjSz6JXoDPz9XwNw
visualizer: https://youtu.be/ELC3oCwdewU

(I’ma say sorry then I do again)
(I’ma burn every bridge, till’ I’m stuck in the ends)
(Now you live in my head, now I play pretend)
(I don’t wanna die, but I think about it)
(Swear I wanna die when I think about it)
(Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded)
(And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded)

You’ve been outta touch for a minute, I know
You been outta reach, you’ve been trying to grow
And it’s hard to breathe when you think about it
Hard to say sorry when it don’t mean shit

I’ma ruin my life, I’ma fuck up my friends
I’ma say sorry, then I’ll do it again
I’ma burn every bridge, till’ I’m stuck in the ends
Now you live in my head, now I play pretend

I don’t wanna die, but I think about it
Swear I wanna die when I think about it
Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded
And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded

I’ma ruin my life, I’ma fuck up my friends
I’ma say sorry, then I’ll do it again
I’ma burn every bridge, till’ I’m stuck in the ends
Now you live in my head, now I play pretend

I don’t wanna die, but I think about it
Swear I wanna die when I think about it
Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded
And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded

I don’t wanna die, but I think about it
Swear I wanna die when I think about it
Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded
And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded

I don’t wanna die, but I think about it
Swear I wanna die when I think about it
Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded
And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded

spotify

ends (simon m)

with https://soundcloud.com/arr_eeh and https://soundcloud.com/kanashisadface

I’m passed out, I’m broken on all these dreams
Tell me you’re hoping I’ll break the seams
I can't hear a word you say, over these screams
It’s what I get
It’s what I get, it’s what I get

Feel the rot on the inside
Passing out on a train ride
Fill my veins up with fluoride
Tell you, “I ain’t got shit to hide”

Just to get you to want me
I'd commit every sin
the thought of heaven will haunt me
They’ll never let me in
I’ll paint my nails if you ask me to
Just tell me what shade
I’ll pierce my nose in the hopes you like to see me in pain

I’m passed out, I’m broken on all these dreams
Tell me you’re hoping I’ll break the seams
I’m choking, and hoping I find a way to breathe
It’s what I get, it’s what I get

Feel the rot on the inside
Passing out on a train ride
Fill my veins up with fluoride
Tell you, “I ain’t got shit to hide”

Feel the rot on the inside
Passing out on a train ride
Fill my veins up with fluoride
Tell you, “I ain’t got shit to hide”

I don't have shit to hide from you
but it seems like you could learn a lesson
In telling the truth
And I've been losing my mind
Tryin' to figure out why
You always leave me hangin' out to dry
You always leave me hangin' out to dry
Fill my veins with fluoride

fluoride w/ re: + kanashi (king theta)

produced by me

@h3nce
@vmdarius

lyrics:
~ruevi~
10 bucks Marlboro red
tell me what's wrong now
9 to 5 okay
i love the pay check
40 hours awake
not even tired
games you wanna play
i don't participate

now I'm fighting my head
it doesn't feel right
but it doesn't feel bad
i gotta kill time
changing lanes you say that im a fuck up
changing lanes still makes me fucking anxious 


but i feel like imma lose my mind
i light a cigarette to pass the time
a smoking boy don't sound this nice 
a smoking boy don't sound this nice
but i feel like imma lose my mind
i light a cigarette to pass the time
a smoking boy don't sound this nice 
a smoking boy don't sound this nice


~H3nce~
never felt like that after the first date
really thought i wouldnt be replaced
and all my friends are saying they didnt like you anyway
but i defended you said id take you to my grave
drown the pain in alcohol 
run the through the night ignore yours calls 
and i dont wanna be your friend at all 
cuz ur just such a fucking whore

~vmdarius~
you got me
tongue tied off your lies
im hypnotized
right place at the wrong time
girl i cant lie
you make it hard just to hold on
can we admit that we're both wrong
i cant write you no slow song
think its best if we move on
i cant seem to heal from words that you said
i cant seem to get your lies out my head
girl its hard for me to cope, you think I'm better off dead
i aint prepared for what u got coming next

~ruevi~
i feel like imma lose my mind
i light a cigarette to pass the time
a smoking boy don't sound this nice 
a smoking boy don't sound this nice


but i feel like imma lose my mind
i light a cigarette to pass the time
a smoking boy don't sound this nice 
a smoking boy don't sound this nice
but i feel like imma lose my mind
i light a cigarette to pass the time
a smoking boy don't sound this nice 
a smoking boy don't sound this nice

10 bucks Marlboro red
tell me what's wrong now
9 to 5 okay
i love the pay check
40 hours awake
not even tired
games you wanna play
i don't participate

sound w/h3nce & vmdarius

I don't really like this song that much, but I made it for my mom a little bit ago and just finished it up recently, it kind of just fits cause I'm leaving home soon, I don't even know if she's going to see this.

and yea I know, this sound like the glaive beat, shut up💀

Thanks to @wynko for making the cover art, you're dope <3
Collective- @dotcomgang
Lyrics-

Mama telling me, ill be fine with you out my mind
and she said, love is hard sometimes
you just gotta go learn how to get by, let it go
give it time, I know it hurts sometimes
you cant run, you cant hide, I know you're sad and tired

and my mommy told me move so slowly
if you don't, you might die so slowly
mama know your life's been hard, remember singing with you
8 years old, was playing guitar, remember driving to my dads
with just in the car, I miss the days when we had Jax when we played in the yard, if you want me, that's okay but, if you don't
I guess that's okay too, cause I'm so fucked

Mama I know I'm, not the best son
but there's a lot of things I got to get off my chest
I met a lot of people that made my life a mess 
from Florida to Missouri guess I made a couple of friends
I don't mind it, I've been fighting, all the good times come to an end
I don't mind it, I've been fighting, all the good lives just end in a death

Mama telling me, ill be fine, with you out my mind
and she said, love is hard sometimes
you just gotta go learn how to get by
let it go, give it time
I know it hurt sometimes, you cant run, you cant hide
I know you're sad and tired

Mama told me, better watch my back
cause there's good ones and fake ones everywhere you go
I know I don't say this enough, but I love you
say you love me more, told me I miss you
when you go so far, she said why you gotta go move so far
I'm your only son and your my only mom
I'm really gonna miss you just this time
I don't mind it, I've been fighting 
all the good times come to an end
I don't mind it, I'm misguided
all the good times come to an end

I don't wanna die, but sometimes I be a mess
and sometimes, I'm in my head
you say I'm gonna wind up dead

so I'm, laying down in bed, let head spin I don't rest
go and doze off in my LEDS, I'm thinking how I lost my friends
how the fuck do I know

Mama told me, better watch my back
cause there's good ones and fake ones everywhere you go
I know I don't say this enough, but I love you
say you love me more, told me I miss you
when you go so far, she said why you gotta go move so far
I'm your only son and your my only mom
I'm really gonna miss you just this time
I don't mind it, I've been fighting 
all the good times come to an end
I don't mind it, I'm misguided
all the good times come to an end

-Released With Dotcom-

home

https://open.spotify.com/track/6WWLS1y8aehkN2zjlrHpms?si=a9ef2f0517274b99

prod me
crazy guitar solo by @1sloan
additional prod by @2gaze
mastered by @1stevyn

verses in order
@1stevyn (hook)
@imohwell
@rans0m
@thrmls

carbon dioxide w/ stevyn + Oh well. + rans0m + thrml

produced by me

(first song with german lyrics yay)

Lyrics: 

sunset
don't panic
and don't stress
sweat down
run fast?
tear drop
mama died
papa left
and took my sister too

alle meine homies noch nüchtern
bin auf dem rücksitz.
sowie damals.
eigentlich bin ich gerne alleine
aber mit dir ist schon nice.
kann schon sein das ich dich hasse und vermisse oh god
(stupid kind of love)


feed me to the sharks
and kill me in the spotlight
feel like giving myself up
and show me that you don't care
(don't care don't care)
stupid kind of love

feed me to the sharks
and kill me in the spotlight
feel like giving myself up
and show me that you don't care 
(don't care don't care)
kill me in the spotlight
kill me in the spotlight


(wait, wait hold on)
ist schon irgendwie blöd du bist nicht da
ich erase diese zeit kleine gefahr
man ich komme zu spät ey
denn ich bin immer am pennen
und ja ich fick auf das abi
(you're tired aren't you?)
bruder frag nicht

die lügen waren wie gedruckt
die promises sowie staub
und ohne jeglichen grund
verschwindest du jetzt auch
aber i guess ich bin genau der selbe arschloch so wie du
ja ich hab alles falsch gemacht i guess mir geht es gut

sunset
don't panic
and don't stress
sweat down
run fast?
tear drop
mama died
papa left
and took my sister too


feed me to the sharks
and kill me in the spotlight
feel like giving myself up
and show me that you don't care
(don't care don't care)
stupid kind of love

feed me to the sharks
and kill me in the spotlight
feel like giving myself up
and show me that you don't care 
(don't care don't care)
kill me in the spotlight
kill me in the spotlight

kill me in the spotlight

s/o to biteki for this cool amv/lyric vid: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ATj8gL--S_Y

i dont rlly wanna talk like that in my head
girl u rlly got me so down bad what the heck 
i dont even wanna fuck i jus want u in my bed
when she left i could feel myself get upset

its the same ol situation
time is sprintin i cant escape it
we just avoid the topic
feels like were looping conversations
i jus cant be another npc
i dont think the norm is right for me
its getting hard for me to breathe
anxiety got the best of me

i think i was in psychosis
u stare at me feels like slow motion
i keep losin fuckin focus
forgot i could feel emotion
got off the sauce now im fiendin
i need someone to believe in me
ignore my cheesy sappiness
i hold myself from happiness

@luvkurtis
dont hide come take it all from me
intentions clear too see
know you wont give it back
so hold it tighter its yours too have now

come tear me down 
i wish that i was found 
by someone else, compassionate
its all i needed

you made my heart stop
heart complications
know that you caused
you caused a break in

my minds spinnin from the come down
psychosis settin in im numb
so you can tear me down too what you wanna take from me
its ruined now 
i cant believe that
its all gone

sound w/h3nce & vmdarius

ruevi

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