Jams

i once was so strong
how did i lose it all
they never said
i'd be my biggest downfall
watch from my screen of life
i put up quite the fight
i never thought i would dim my own light



overflow of thoughts in my head
most days i can't get out of bed
feels like a life sentence
i just want to know what happy is
can't mistake the ache in my chest
assume the worst never worked best
but then i can't help it
everything feels catastrophic 



I broke my heart in two
I would have followed you
through everything
I will never blame you
Some day I hope it's us
then again I know it's not
you'll never be
the person i call my only



overflow of thoughts in my head
most days i can't get out of bed
feels like a life sentence
i just want to know what happy is
can't mistake the ache in my chest
assume the worst never worked best
but then i can't help it
everything feels catastrophic 


feels catastrophic *yeah*
i hope one day that i can be
as happy as i pretend to be

overflow of thoughts in my head
most days i can't get out of bed
feels like a life sentence
i just want to know what happy is
can't mistake the ache in my chest
assume the worst never worked best
but then i can't help it
everything feels catastrophic

Catastrophizing -(prod. k1)

x2
you said we could never
we became so whatever 
i guess i could do better
yeah i could do so much better

took acouple shifts in hell's mines
found myself a menace to waste my time
unfortunate for her i still got mine
watch you walk away and thats totally fine

found myself seeking brighter light
did a couple laps try to clear my mind
made a few mistakes in overtime
now im left between blurred lines
x2
you said it'd be better
guess i didn't really matter
i guess i could do better
yeah i could do so much better

JALEEL:
Paragraphs coming to my phone 
Said I did this on my own 
This is something imma live with 
You crying alone 
Tearing up ya house 
The place we called a home 
Fuck It 
Im living 
I’m laughing bout the times 
We was really out here twining
Reminiscing bout how you never saw my vision 
That’s when I started acting distant 
Screening all yo calls 
All those hollow words 
I don’t miss em
Every time you tripped and falled
I was there to pick you up 
But now I’ll never get involved 
You gon get that you fucked up 
Complaining bout you missing all my time 
You ain’t deserving is you out ya mind 
I can do better I’ll be fine

x2
you said it'd be better
guess i didn't really matter
i guess i could do better
yeah i could do so much better

you said we could never
we became so whatever 
i guess i could do better
yeah i could do so much better

found myself seeking brighter light
did a couple laps try to clear my mind
made a few mistakes in overtime
now im left between blurred lines

someone once said "you'll be fine"
if im not mistaken that was you, right?
but what would you know when you left my side
i guess in the end you were still right.

Blurred Lines - ft. Jvleel (prod. choi)

I been doing good lately
dont let my mind take me
i guess i should be thankful
but why am i still so angry?

ive been eating daily
three meals, twice maybe
but i know i am getting there
so why does this feel so unfair?

just take me
hold me up to the flames
im only screaming my own name
cause the burn is my pain,  own pain

and i will stand shaking,
holding onto those day dreams
cause i caused my own pain
so i can only scream my own name

prescribed  3 pills daily
doctor said i might feel hazy
struggle to remember a to z
and if theres a god
the joke is on me


just take me
hold me up to the flame
im only screaming my own name
cause the burn is my pain, my own pain

and i will stand shaking,
holding onto those day dreams
because i caused my own pain
so i can only scream my name

Mania Day Dream (Prod. Choi)

Adrenaline Addict (prod. choi)

Value (prod. choi)

No beats are made by me.
Lyrics/vocals - Rae.

Value (prod. choi)

RAE