Music saved my life. Music is everything to me. I can’t think of anything else I’d rather do with my time. This new album (project sign language) is the most raw and detailed picture of my self that I’ve shared so far. I’ve never fully liked the face that I was born with, so I’ve always tried to mask that part of me my entire life. These songs have so much personal meaning to me. They get me through hard times, they make me feel comfort and not alone, they make me smile and they make me cry. Sometimes I can’t believe that I’m able to face my fears and share things so personal like this with the world. But if music is the one thing that feels right and brings me so much joy then I have to share that vulnerability. At the end of the day we are all just making it up as we go, so why not. I’m no one. Anyone and anything can be Crash Kuda. Crash Kuda isn’t a person. Crash Kuda is a message. A message to find and never hide from the inevitable. Everyone and everything is beautiful, and I’m just happy to be here locked in this world at the same time as you are, because I think that is so special and should never be overlooked. Love you all!

middle school

Touch Deprived

EMILYS SONG W/ ILYMIDNITE

produced by goldenhour
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=npqQpH9tkfY
@ayewannabe

wannabe:
uh uh uh, im skating over to your place
cause your only 3 minutes away
the girl across the street that i find to catch a feel
im getting Lost again, can you help me be found?

ah, ah, ah, im goin crazy
giving you my time im like your hour glass baby
ooooo, ah, ah, ah
breaking my neck doin' 180's.

(chorus)

aye, aye, yah, yah
you got me runnin and runnin', runnin' and runnin', runnin' and runnin' over to your place

you got me runnin and runnin', runnin' and runnin', runnin' to my dream girl, that's 3 minutes away.

you got me runnin and runnin', runnin' and runnin', runnin' and runnin' over to your place!

you got me runnin and runnin', runnin' and runnin', runnin' to my dream girl, that's 3 minutes away.

a-ooooo. nah, nah, nah (x4)

hold up i gotta catch myself from falling
into my hell im crawling. 
can you pick up the phone? 
(phone) (falling)

(audible hummimg)

goldenhour:
you remind me of days i wasnt upset
3 minutes away id rather be dead
rather be dead

i been lighting candles just too get your scent outside of my room, 
i would light myself on fire if it meant i could forget you
but we know thatll never become true
i been up for days thinkin' bout' you
i been up for days thinkin about you
thinkin about you, thinkin about 
want you in my arms
yea i wanna hold you
lets look at the stars while i hold

you stay, with me you stay, with me

wannabe:
aye, aye, yah, yah

aye, aye, yah, yah
you got me runnin and runnin', runnin' and runnin', runnin' and runnin' over to your place

you got me runnin and runnin', runnin' and runnin', runnin' to my dream girl, that's 3 minutes away.

you got me runnin and runnin', runnin' and runnin', runnin' and runnin' over to your place!

you got me runnin and runnin', runnin' and runnin', runnin' to my dream girl, that's 3 minutes away.

a-oooo nah nah nah
a-oooo nah nah nah
a-oooo nah nah nah
a-oooo nah nah nah

Hold up i gotta catch myself from falling
into my hell im crawling 
can you pick up the-

ghost

ryxen