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15 Seconds Of Glory

. rəˈpedədiv dəˈzastər

The Space Around Us (Is the Space In Us)

Breakups hurt, but still we don’t give up on the idea of finding our ideal love, it’s a prison we make for ourselves.  Written July 2020.


My Beautiful Prison 


Well I know how it feels to hurt,
Though I don’t claim to be an expert,
I’m not letting this make my heart inert,
So I will remain always alert.

I’ve not made disbelief my religion,
I can hope without condition,
This has been my own decision,
So here am I in my beautiful prison.

Maybe it’s better to tend
The flowers I’ve grown,
Keep up with all of the friends I’ve known,
That way I’ll never be on my own,
But I still feel like a man alone.

I don’t want to give up hope,
I’m not despairing, I can cope,
The idea of love is not 
Hanging from a rope,
It’s just sealed away in an envelope.


Image taken by CJW

My Beautiful Prison

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“is your figure less than Greek?
is your mouth a little weak?…”

The Great American Songbook re-imagined.
“My Funny Valentine” written by Richard Rodgers and Lorenz Hart in 1937

My Funny Valentine

Minimal Syntax

Introduction in English:

My uncle, who became a sort of surrogate father to me after my father's untimely death, celebrates his 91st birthday in July. His wife had passed away some time ago and he had been single ever since. 
About five years ago, he visibly harbored the intention of ending his life in Switzerland with active euthanasia. 
Then, surprisingly, an elderly lady (about five years younger than him) moved into the apartment next door. She had also been widowed for some time.
Both got to know each other and fell in love. 
And even today they seem to be freshly in love with each other when I visit and they are sitting snuggled up on my uncle's old sofa. 
A scene that gives me hope and shows me that love can "catch" you even in old age. 
And a scene that was the starting point for the creation of the song "I`m in Love" posted here.  

Lyrics (for those, who don`t speak German)

I`m in Love

First verse:

I had already counted the days one by one,
I struggled out of bed every morning
Went all crooked and awry 
Had long since lost my hair

In Switzerland I had already ordered my coffin
For my gradual departure from the world
My heart pacemaker gave me the last groove

But suddenly a neighbor moved in
As wrinkled as me
In her nature beautiful and fine
I put down my suitcase for Switzerland for now

Second verse:

The next day she knocked on my door
She imagined she was here forever now
In her old eyes I saw the young woman

How she walked, how she sat, how she read in the newspaper
Her décolleté behind folds shapely and delicate
Her grace, elegance, like a lustful silent dance

Before she left again she embraced me 
My dusty self was enchanted
Instead of abandonment and renunciation a love poem flowed through me





Introduction in German:

Mein Onkel, der nach dem frühen Tod meines Vaters eine Art Ersatzvater für mich geworden ist, feiert im Juli seinen 91. Geburtstag. Seine Frau war schon länger verstorben und er seitdem alleinstehend. 
Vor ca. fünf Jahren  hegte er zusehends die Absicht, seinem Leben in der Schweiz mit aktiver Sterbehilfe ein Ende zu setzen. 
Dann zog überraschend eine ältere Dame (etwa fünf Jahre jünger als er) in die Nachbarswohnung ein. Auch sie war schon längere Zeit verwitwet.
Beide lernten sich kennen und verliebten sich ineinander. 
Und auch heute noch wirken Sie wie frisch verliebt ineinander, wenn ich Sie besuche und sie eng aneinander geschmiegt auf dem alten Sofa meines Onkels sitzen. 
Eine Szene, die mir Hoffnung macht und mir zeigt, dass die Liebe einen auch noch im hohen Alter "erwischen" kann. 
Und eine Szene, die den Ausgangspunkt für die Entstehung des hier geposteten Songs "I`m in Love" bildete.

I`m in Love

I`m In Love

All the fun of the fair (?) with treated flute and clarinet meanderings around a drum and bass spattered field. Pablo Fanques may have been a subconscious inspiration.

Fairground Fantasy

Duchess

We all do it...Feeling empty, Procrastinating while seemingly searching for the right direction...a true direction.
When will you make the Move????

TH3 INN3R CONFLICT

When you desire to give something special, only to find your giving was too much.

Romantic Intrusion

Tideless

Memories

Von Ferne

Ferne

Funny Kind of Sad

Sixth variation on a theme by G.Fr.Handel, version for string quartet, composed and recorded in 2009.

sixth variation on a theme by G.Fr.Handel

Invitation

Future Travel

Words and Music by Jacques Brel
English Words by Rod McKuen

Performed by Yelena & bitzone
Yelena (vocals, acoustic guitars, MIDI programmed VSTs)
https://soundcloud.com/bitzone (mellotron and production)

Image: Fragment of the drawing by Charles Robinson for The Child World,  The Studio magazine, December 1896

If You Go Away (Ne me quitte pas)

If you go away on this summer day
Then you might as well take the sun away
All the birds that flew in the summer sky
When our love was new and our hearts were high
When the day was young and the night was long
And the moon stood still for the night bird’s song
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away

But if you stay I'll make you a day
Like no day has been or will be again
We'll sail on the sun, we'll ride on the rain
We'll talk to the trees and worship the wind
And if you go, I'll understand
Leave me just enough love 
To hold in my hand
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away

If you go away, as I know you will
You must tell the world to stop turning 'til
You return again, if you ever do
For what good is love without loving you?
Can I tell you now, as you turn to go
I'll be dying slowly 'til the next hello
Ne me quitte pas, ne me quitte pas, ne me quitte pas

But if you stay, I'll make you a night
Like no night has been or will be again
I'll ride on your smile, I'll sail on your touch
I'll talk to your eyes that I love so much
And if you go, I'll understand
Leave me just enough
To hold in my hand
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away

If you go away, as I know you must
There'll be nothing more in this world to trust
Just an empty room, full of empty space
Like the empty look I see on your face
Oh I would have been the shadow of your shadow
If it only kept me by your side
If you go away, if you go away, please don't go away

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Song trailer on Pinterest: https://www.pinterest.com/pin/858076535248764942/?nic_v2=1a6CMtY7u

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If You Go Away [bitzone production]

My new single 'Unity' is now available to listen to.

Thanks listening and for your continued support.
-Decan Usmic

Unity

Artist from Sweden with Icelandic roots,
now living in Copenhagen

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