The Human Condition

In Love With The Pain (Live for Sirius XM)

Be like that - Three Doors Down

I Was Drunk

I Was Drunk (25th Anniversary Version)

In the energy I devour to acquire

Stepping outside the static flowing 

The toxic death I consume to fuel the mach to the end of everything 

First step break every law I can 

To break the social normaily  

Fight the censors held like the prison of the media world



If life is so beautiful then why am I suffering

From the hands of ones so close to my blood  

Suffering breeds beauty 

These goddamn mental disorders

Given to me by the hands all around me 

In these environments built by suffering

Made from the trauma I endured while looking for the one 

Feeling I couldn't feel because of the life was given at birth



I explored the world at 19 to 30 but at 30

 I escaped the nightmare I made from the escape of living in another one in the home I called my hole where the monster brought me to see the demons where the ones with kind creeping teeth

itching at my soul,

Absorbing the world underground I found to escape the horror that crawled deep into my mind

Where they splintered into shattered self reflections

Who am I



 

As The drugs hit my mind like a apocalypse fucking me up like it's first time in love giving myself to a stranger hoping they will love me more than myself  

I crawl to the surface eating away 

Eating away at the barriers made to hold the memories I forgot without knowing I had even experienced the pain I felt by the search for myself  in a world full of so much death, fear, hate, hiding the truth, blending my truth to explore me and turn my illnesses against me. You always did I hate every word you spoke to me to this day I'm disgusted I was born into a life like this 

They misunderstand all I say





I tell them the truth 

They act like nothing ever happened

You call me a liar 

They seem so sure their right at the moments in time they had no Idea what I had been through 

You say no your just a pathological liar, 

The doctors never heard all the hell I was hiding

 In the bottomless holes I have inside my Fragmented guts to mind I watch the world die  

When I screaming the truth right in your face 

You played games to long with this sociopath 

I just got to get this off my chest 

I wasn't lying you just didn't want to hear the truth

So you denied what was right fucking in front of you

so now I'm here screaming it inside your deft emotional dulled 

I'm screaming to the world 

Since you don't believe a god damn world I say

Mother father you should have done better

Stop lying to yourself 

Believing the stories you made up so long ago 

I hope you know all the pain I can't even remember 

Now I have these alters clawing their way out of me 

Staind - Failing

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