4 my grandma and grandpa i miss you so much rest up..
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/03Nx63Qf5HnqGF3KkGIJ6l?si=f5dbae1f019a45b9

feat. @iriasona 
prod. @yuseiworld
mixed by @jooosuph

[lyrics]
my grandma died a couple days ago this shits been on my mind
life is beautiful until the people all around you die 
now youre tryna talk to ghosts standing to your left and right 
my grandfather died 2 weeks they told me he be fine 
i couldnt see her for the final time her funerals tonight
i hope that woman knows i love her and ill keep her soul alive 
ive been out my head so long im tryna find some peace of mind 
but when people die it gets hard to even realign 
crazy isnt it we lose people then appreciate we livin 
thtas the shit that makes you sit back n then realize life is twisted 
120 people die inside this life in a minute 
i was told appreciate the ones around me and i didnt 
now their bodys in a coffin n its where theyre always sittin 
i dont even know what i would say if to they graves i visit 
id apologize for everything i ever did n didnt 
with my arms around their tombstones i would tell em that i miss em 

everyone inside my life that loved me i just pushed away 
thats the reason i got stuck inside my ways and never changed 
 we tendto only miss the sun when were walkin through the rain 
mac is always callin me tellin me ill see better days 
i go manic and panic n ask if shit'll ever change 
he was fuckin with me when my distro checks were only change
hes my brother but hes like a father to me in the strangest ways 
the only one inside my life thats tryna help me find a way 
my houses is lookin haunted cause these walls is what i talk to 
everyone around me always dies or they want to 
it sucks when someone dies but even more when they haunt you 
but i dont need sympathy for the shit that ive gone through 
cause any situation presented ive always fought through 
me myself and i sometimes is all i got dude 
keep going life is beautiful youll see it soon you got to 
appreciate the ones around you cause we'll all be gone soon

Walking Through The Rain ft. iriasona (prod. Yusei)

Insecurities

Swappin oxygen with smoke in my chest
You can see it everytime i take a breath 
In the depths seein death to the right and the left 
In the night gettin High while I’m lightin up cess
Til the day that I die my mind ain’t findin rest 
You don’t know  shit bout the lives that I led 
If I died right here it’d be my 89th
death 
Ash in the path on the floor where I step 
gettin high passin time in the mourge with my dead 
Died and found death then was forced to forget 
Used to want a family got orphaned instead 
On the floor where I bled where the poor only tread 
Fuckin with me then that’s Russian roulette 
With a full fuckin clip and a gun to ya head 
 My girl says Im smokin too much again 
In the graveyard lightin blunts for my  friends 
Please don’t forget who inspired these kids 
They said I’m fallin off then all their numbers stopped what a bitch irony is 
This governments showin a perfect example of what fuckin modern day tyranny is 
Might Stick a knife in this kid he keep eyein me bitch 
No matter how much I run from demons they seem to just find me again 
In my room thinking I’m better dying again 

At 15 I stayed in my room all adepressed  takin pills that were pressed now I’m overly stressed 
I’m bleedin can’t feel my heart beatin doc said he might have to rip open chest 
If I die don’t you cry just know it’s for the best 
Tell my son that I love em and I tried my best 
I know suicide ain’t designed for the rest 
And they’ll probably think that I’m weak when I’m dead 
But there’s enough life in the lines that I’ve left 
And the people inside of this life that I’ve met
To be someone who they couldn’t ever forget 
Just know I’m findin rest when I’m finally dead 
My girl wouldn’t feel like she should be if I was the one who was dead 
Without me always makin her stressed 
If my brain continues to function I hope that our memories fill up my head 
Atleast it would be like I ain’t even left 
In the graveyard there’s blood to the right and the left 
Ain’t felt alright in my mind or my head 
My whole life alright fine let’s just cut to the end 
In my dreams I’ve seen death almost 5miñlion times so if we talkin honestly what’s one more death 
Cigarettes mixed with cess while I grab on her breast
4 thousands nights we’ve stayed dead in this bed

isho 遺書(prod. farver & pizzle)

SUICIDE LETTER 3 !!!!!https://soundcloud.com/michael-jones-316/suicide-letter-3

NIghtmare Hills

Suicide Letter 2 | Follow me on Instagram @trickjames36

Produced - AdotKdot

Mixed - K1yng3

やり直す

imagination

Lyrics:
[Hook]
sorry that im not enough
sorry that i just give up 
when the going gets tough
all i ever do is run
sorry that im not enough
im not enough
x2

4 am in my room and im high again
always treading cautious society's a lions den
feelin pain im just wishin that the shit would end
no one listens so im cryin on the internet
wont lie i dont know where should i go
got walls and a roof but this house aint home
rollin up dope ive been outta my zone
im drownin in issues im outta control
tell the reaper to take my life with a scythe quick
whi is the pain the only thing my brain can siphon
ive been on a journey tryna find some enlightment 
and why is death the only concept that gets me excited
so should i stay or should i go thats been on my mind
cause i feel like youll get bored of me ill be waste of time
and thoughts of you leaven been keepin me up at night
tell me we'll be alright 

[Hook]
sorry that im not enough
sorry that i just give up 
when the going gets tough
all i ever do is run
sorry that im not enough
im not enough
x2

Not Enough (prod. Ryini Beats)

Dear Momma (prod. tomcbumpz)

Suicide Letter 2

Produced by: M.E

Kam Michael:
Twitter: www.twitter.com/kammichael_
YouTube: www.youtube.com/channel/UCf69XIrEYLrqnHr8keB7bRw
Instagram: www.instagram.com/imkammichael
Snapchat: kamlewinsk

Lyrics:

[Hook]
Why did you have to go
Because now I feel so alone
Why did you have to go
Because now I feel so alone

[Verse 1: Kam Michael]
You know I hate it when you don't call back
now just tell me what you call that. Yeah
I'm not good, till I fall back, sippin on the hard black hit me like a heart attack, yeah
And I tried but I failed, couldn't stop you from leaving,
When you said you loved me that shit was misleading 
You play with emotions, I can't stop the bleeding
It's hot where I'm from but you're changing the seasons, yeah
And I don't ever wanna fight, nah
I don't wanna be alone when it's night time
I just wanna be in touch with the right mind
My god, used to be in love now you ain't mine
I've been all in my head 
Can't get out of my bed,
Overthinking everything, think I'm better off dead
I just roll up a blunt and get high off the meds
I don't got no one else, I just chill with my stress, yeah
Long nights and the day's cold,
Smoke all in my lungs but I'm still low
Steady waiting for the day where I'm not alone
Sad boy hours everyday, how my life goes
Now I'm missing them days we would text till the morning,
we talked about music, now my world is pouring
I'm stuck in a circle, it's you I'm adoring.
a hole in my chest and there is no restoring

[Hook]
Why did you have to go
Because now I feel so alone
Why did you have to go
Because now I feel so alone

[Verse 2: Kam Michael]
Yeah, 
And I don't ever wanna restart.
I could never re-track cuz you break hearts
Lost love,
It was found in the cold dark 
See we could never be in touch, cuz you're too far
You've been wasting my time 
I'm wasted and chasing something hard to find 
You broke me so much now it's hard to confide
I don't wanna make up I just want piece of mind
I've been all in my head 
Can't get out of my bed,
Overthinking everything, think I'm better off dead
You would never understand all the feelings I've kept
But you still are the reason my life is a mess
So give me a reason why this shouldn't hurt,
I'm losing myself when I'm writing a verse
So give me a reason why this shouldn't hurt,
I'm losing myself when I'm writing a verse

Kam Michael - Why did you leave me?

Rest In Peace Mr.A this ones for you.
produced by : @mental
mixed by :@kammichaelmusic

Gone But Not Forgotten... ft.Snøw (prod.mental)

@sadboyprolific
@le_play

lyrics:

SadBoyProlific:

i hate when im left on my own again
im just a broken kid hoping for someone to hold em quick
lost in emotions and potions this 
is me reaching and you cant even notice it 
you took my heart and then froze it quick
locked up the door and my chest and regret that i opened it 
vision is slow and cant focus i feel like my head is exploding 
shits getting old and my time is approaching 
this is a mindset i think that my minds fuckin broken 
just look at the way that im coping 
ounce nothing less what im smoking
this is the life that ive chosen 
and ive had regrets every step of the way 
puffed up my chest as i left through the flame 
left you for dead and in my head im insane
dead for a red as i bled out in pain

Le Play:
what do you want from me 
this is just honesty cuz honestly ill fall asleep
before it gets hard to breathe 
ill constantly just fall to piece 
you know its hard for me but still you pry so modernly
this is a tragedy or more just like a comedy
keep playing the victim i know all of the lies your tryna sell
im stuck in this room thats full of these mirros all i got is myself
you know i live for the pain 
you know im stuck in the rain 
i do it again and again and again 
and everythings broken and always in vein

boots (Le play X SadBoyProlific)

https://youtu.be/pK5iQpjySIs?si=vXUVLGzcDeRZOxCH

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