composed / produced / mixed / mastered by sadfem
additional composition / instrumental production by Foxxy Dekay, kindy x, and swørd
lyrics / vocals / additional vocal production by BL00DSLIDE, grbageman, SURFIE SPICE, Mirrors For Princes, and Aphir
cover art illustrated by Foxxy Dekay / recoloured by sadfem

i think of this album as a reflection on having essentially given up on life. knowing you'll never catch up to your peers. fantasising about ending yourself but knowing you'll continue to passively exist. trying to make peace with it and find comfort, gratitude, and beauty in this harsh world.

then again maybe that's pretentious and retroactively imposed. i didn't make most of the tracks thinking their musical elements have a specific meaning, beyond the general mood they evoke alongside the samples of media that resonated with me in one way or another.

i didn't initially see the project ending up as ambitious as it did. it started out with a couple of tracks where i tried dabbling in some new styles and exploring more of the tools my recently upgraded music software provided. at one point i thought, maybe i'll put out a sort of idm ep with a bunch of anime samples. then i kept having more ideas until it ended up being my longest, most diverse and accomplished release yet. funny how something i started off not taking as seriously as previous albums led to substantially more experimentation and growth as an artist, i guess that's often the way. i'm satisfied that i managed to branch out my sound and alternate between varying combinations of genres that interest me, while still having the album sound fairly cohesive. i'm also really glad i got to collaborate with all the featured artists. thank you all.

i hope you'll take the time to listen to this album and that it makes you feel something.

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learned helplessness

Fav me out g

Chorus : 

Smoke in the moonlight , ( yeah yeah )
Sit relax my blunt , ( yeah yeah )
Recline in my car , ( yeah yeah )
Feelin high tonight , 

Verse : 

Yeah ,
Roll up puff and pass 
Enjoy while it last
All in the moonlight 
Feels all good moods right 
Lazy eyes loose sight 
I'm third eye choose life 
Meditation meditation ,
Then I now connect 
Situation Situation ,
Now life shows reflects 

Bridge : 

Roll up
Roll up
Roll up 
Roll up 

Chorus : 

Smoke in the moonlight , ( moonlight )
Sit relax my blunt , ( my blunt )
Recline in my car ,
Feelin high tonight , 

Refrain : 

Feeling high tonight 
Feeling high tonight 
Feeling high tonight 
Feeling high to -

KINGJOECOOL - SMOKE IN THE MOONLIGHT

samples WataMote (Watashi ga Motenai no wa Dou Kangaetemo Omaera ga Warui! / No Matter How I Look at It, It's You Guys' Fault I'm Not Popular!) episode 12

nothing has changed

zoning out

menhera [+ Foxxy Dekay]

failing

lyrics/vocals by @7blood7slide7
produced by me

lyrics:

drowning, still gone
i'm lost, still gone
fall through, in too deep
in too deep, i can't breathe

know my place, feel my shame
know my place, can't escape
even if i wanted to
there's nowhere to run to
don't know how to deal with it
don't know how to feel
all the pain, embarrassment
never fucking heal

chances that i can't take back
even if i wanted to
scars and crosses on my back
never thought i'd feel like that

in my place, all shame
can't escape, can't relate
don't know how to deal with it
tell me what's the deal

crushing me in
crushing me slow
embarrassed to the core
tell me where to go

all the shame
embarrassment

know my place, feel my shame
know my place, can't escape
even if i wanted to
there's nowhere to run to
don't know how to deal with it
don't know how to feel
all the pain, embarrassment
never fucking heal

put me down and in my place
feel the weight i feel the shame
put me down and in my place
put me down
down down down
down down down

i feel shame
all i feel is hate
i'm embarrassed 'bout this shit
no you can't relate

embarrassment [+ BL00DSLIDE]

PIANO PAINS! ~ an interlude into sunset

collecting imperfections

if uswitch dont expect 2 get back in 

limited cassettes here . > https://yamlynn.bandcamp.com/album/midnight-ritual

yam lynn - midnight ritual

i want to be dead - pain edit/remix https://youtu.be/sqEWksSQRtE

the_suffering

⛤~素晴らしき日々

897sacred

VISUALIZER: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pbX3bnWBYYU

ART - NICK FELARIS/CODEX https://linktr.ee/nickfelaris

tinydeath

natural born loser who makes electronica that integrates varying amounts of ambient, wave, dnb, breakcore, bedroom pop, trip-hop, digicore, and whatever else it could be labelled, underpinned by a distinct ear for melody, melancholy, and dreamlike atmosphere.

i also offer affordable mixing/mastering! my prices:
£15/single
£45/EP
£75/album

embarrassment [+ BL00DSLIDE]

sadfem

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