self hatred

we went from each other’s respite from life
to each other’s intrusive thoughts
so easy to think of all the ways that i
could’ve better spent the time i bought
and showed the love i couldn’t even tell was really there
till all-consuming absence of reciprocation laid it bare
if only i had known how much i’d miss what seemed mundane
maybe i’d have kept you and my ignorance remained

my body’s a neglected empty home
where my ghost can’t clear the cobwebs or mute the drone
my bed may as well be an open grave
for the self neither of us could save
and i crave something that’s dead and rotten
decomposed but cannot be forgotten
i often wish i could say the same
for the corporeal being that bears my name

i’m still not quite sure
what happiness feels like
i only know that i was never closer
to learning than when i
was with you and deluded that it could last
but now that too is in the past
and as much as we wanted to have faith
i think we both knew i wouldn’t change
and now i can’t wash these scars off my arms
or my heart off of my sleeve
or you out of my mind or myself out of life
know i’d cause more hurt if i leave

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empty home [+ albert k]

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Touch

run to her

lights , kameras , aktion ! ~ prod. sincejon

Produced by me, vocals by me

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Lyrics:
I’m in a dreamworld where I was somewhere else
I woke up crying cause I thought I saw you die
I can’t be the one you want but I’ll try to be them in my second life
If you only knew what I would do if it meant I’d be with you
No, no self control, I’d sell my soul if it meant one day with you
If you only knew what I would do for you, you don’t have to ask
Addicted to you I overdosed, but there’s always one relapse

(Lately I’ve been…)
Thinking of us all day all the times we had
Overdose on thoughts of lying next to you
Why did we throw it away? Was it all just a waste
Left me with a question, does it really end this way?
Dreaming of us all day all the times we’ve had
Standing on the edge as our bridges collapse
But is it really too late? I know you feel the same
You’re the only answer, you’re the only one I trust
(Dreaming of you, thinking of us
Is it too soon, is it too late)

Relapse

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fall from grace

01. eleGG - 秒速 #breakcore2

natural born loser who makes electronica that integrates varying amounts of ambient, wave, dnb, breakcore, bedroom pop, trip-hop, digicore, and whatever else it could be labelled, underpinned by a distinct ear for melody, melancholy, and dreamlike atmosphere.

i also offer affordable mixing/mastering! my prices:
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empty home [+ albert k]

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