But its okay
pulling out the 9, i don't know what to say
i was in a bad place, moving in to bad days
i was feelin like a looser, you could see it in my face

its a waste just to say
that im feelin okay
but i know that time is healing me, each second of the day
feelin lost and astray, and i cant stay awake
ill be makin lots uh noise, till im stuck inside my grave

it gets cold in October
the air reminds me every year, the day that we got closer,
don't try to loose my mind
I been manic here at times
but the way the shit was goin, couldn't see me a surprise

thought that I would die
ima man in a disguise
i been hiding all my feelings, same to u, you didn't try
couldn't see the signs
you said i should die
sad to say i think i loved more each time you would disguise
you hated me at times

its a waste just to say
that im feelin okay
but i know that time is healing me, each second of the day
feelin lost and astray, and i cant stay awake
and ill be makin lots uh noise, till I'm stuck inside my grave

i got demons in my head, and they makin me feel dead
i don't wanna be upset, you could see it in my head
if you tried a little harder, youd be next to me in bed
i was feelin pretty led, led into distress

yeah this time you wanted me to leave you lone, but no one said
i was cheating in my head, i was finding ways to spread
cause ive known that you have hated me for years, with that said
ima leave you in the dirt, and think that we have never met.

GRAVE (prod. nvki)

and if these pills could drown my cries out, you know that I wouldnt make a sound...

lyrics:

tonight i dont make a sound [+jabarionthebeat]

Lyrics:

head high private
this time will pass
cannon fodder
how long will u last
soldier boy
come home to mama
soldier boy
come home to papa

he didn't even know what he had been fighting for
in conditions no human could take anymore
he met many empty husks created thru a war
waged from hypocritic passages 
centuries old
yet still we push on
for a reason we had never known
more than a few situations he'd probably've died there

i don't wanna talk anymore
i'm not alive dear

won't u hold his hand
as he passes from this world for good
won't u
won't u ease his conscience
that his efforts were not in their vain
and meet his eyes as you say

head high private
this time will pass
cannon fodder
how long will u last
soldier boy
come home to mama
soldier boy
come home to papa

come home to mama
come home to papa
come home to mama
come home to papa

soldier boy (ʎpoqou)

@noxious-nights - 1st
@navyxower - 2nd
@yoimn3ver - 3rd
@soulfadexo - 4th
@emptychest - 5th

(noxiousnights)
I lost it all 
But I act like i'm okay
Even life is dying
So how am I still there ?
I take control
I can't put up with that shit
I'll be doing my best
Lately that's how I live
If you believe what i say then you got it all wrong
Only truth that i talk is written in those damn songs
She's been coughing like she's dying when she hits the bong
I'm playing with her hair and i help her staying strong
No, I promise saying how i fucking feel never helped me at all
I have this burning pain so i'm never feelin cold
I gotta move up North, all year long i wanna be in the snow
my body's gonna rot, will my story be told?

(NAVYXOWER)
blatantly, suffering, daily
WAKING UP, TO DREAMS THAT FUCKIN SCARE ME
holding on to you can fuckin save me
MAKING UP UR MIND, I NEED SOME HELP PLEASE!

i just wanna do, somethin right in my life
dont want no broken dreams, just keep my memories in line!
CONTEMPLATING LIFE
MY VISIONS GONNA DIE
DONT LET GO OF MY HEART
DYING RIGHT INSIDE

(teddyboi)
i got scars on my arms, i got scars on my thighs
people call it a nightmare, i call it my life
ptsd and substances, they coincide
i met the devil, he told me go inside
he put me in a chair, and said "this fuckers gotta die"

im not good at answering texts
tell me you love me, i leave you on read
plug tells me these are strong
tell me when i should care
id rather be high & dead
than comprehend that you were there
its all abt the music
aint nobody care

(soulfade)
Snow White ate a poison apple
Losing all at a downfall
Not fair for losing control
Might be just a “be all, end all”
Like lost babes in the woods
Pale wolves come rushing on in
I know what could’ve gone worse
Time is strange, but I know it’ll last

(emptychest)
what else is there 2 say? 
im okay
u still stalk my stories every damn day
ay taking hits
take a hint, take a hint
youre acidic
i love the way the smoke burns in my throat
i love the way it hurts and the way i ignore it, ignore it 
do you like how i hurt? do you like how i hurt? yeah.
does he like how i try? does he like how i try? no..

Shattered Dreams w/ noxiousnights, NAVYXOWER, teddyboi, soulfade & emptychest [+ sogimura]

prod wisssery x yago
https://soundcloud.com/xweepings

TORVA
you just broke my stature
and all the stance i had
when you saw i was hurting
you said it was in my head
and you just broke my heart
and left me out for dead
i cant seem to follow
the path inside my head

yea, n u said im nothing special
break my heart and throw it away
so youll cause another breakup
another one but im not the same

n u said im nothing special
break my heart and throw it away
so youll cause another breakup
another one but im not the same

WEEPINGS
I've been waiting for you just to call
hard to focus think that I might need some adderall
ever since you left been near psychosis
watch the smoke just fall
hard for me to practice inner locus when I'm at her disposal

I've been staying to myself
patching up my brain
no I don't need no fucking help
calling out your name
I'm at the bottom of the well
wishing you were with me
to save my mental health

TORVA
n u said im nothing special
break my heart and throw it away
so youll cause another breakup
another one but im not the same

n u said im nothing special
break my heart and throw it away
so youll cause another breakup
another one but im not the same

WEEPINGS
Lost in my mind when the night time hits
it was the wrong time, wrong bitch
said that I'm fine
you know thats not true
I'm done wasting my time
on all her lies
put up my disguise until I feel fine
but dying inside
I can't remember that look in her eyes

said that you love me you don't
hand on my throat
cold as a ghost uh huh
and I know that you've read all I've wrote
you were the parasite, I was your host
x2

torva x weepings - anguish

prod iof <3

life's not fair :')

[lyrics:]
i dont get what i did wrong
i waste my time cant write a song
i wish you would communicate
but you dont you're not the same

i dont want to find another girl
cus you are everything i want
im living in a lonely world
i really thought that you're the one

i dont get why you do that
baby come back home
you were almost perfect
now you're fucking cold
dont be scared im not angry
i still love you so much
remember when you met me
i gave you all my trust 


you know i'd die for you
i would do everything
just to see you smile
im wondering if you think
about me that much too
i would do everything 
just to see you smile 
i would do everything

im not angry (iof)

prod. nevrfall






mix. ztope


lyrics-

swno-
Aye cup full of vodka
I’ma chase it down right
Nah nah yuh 
Aye cup full of vodka 
I’ma chase it down right
Nah nah yuh 
Aye weed in this blunt 
Gonna roll it up tight
Yuh frost on my finger
Tips call that frost bite 
Yuh running out of fucks
To give Ima be fine 
Ima die no life line
Aye fuck what I said
Bitch I’ve been up for
2 night drinking all night
Just to sorta feel right
Aye cup full of vodka
I’ma chase it down right
Nah nah yuh 
Aye cup full of vodka
I’ma chase it down right
Nah nah yuh 

Aye fuck what I said
Bitch I’ve been up For
2 nights drinking all night 
Just to sorta feel right
Aye fuck what I said 
Bitch I’ve been up for 
2 nights smoking all night
Just to sorta feel right


2nd verse-
swno-

Aye Putting my thoughts in my notes
Yuh Writing this shit help me cope 
Yuh making this shit while I float 
High for two nights yeah I know 
Aye I do not care what you wrote
Like Why do you still hit my phone


 shizukesa. -

i know that i should try
but i spend every second second guessing if i'm alive
that's why, i been gripping at the knife
cause at least i know myself, but myself wanting me to die
and i don't really wanna cry yet
fucking dissect
everything in my head
can i die yet?
tell me i'm a reject
let me bleed out
fell inside the trap now
just a rebound

2nites w/ shizukesa. (nevrfall)

2nites w/shizukesa.   (nevrfall)

cant you see im never right...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

-lyrics-
i think i saw you up, in my head last night
out with other men, cant you see im never right
trusting in myself is something i cannot get right
loading ur drugs in ur pipe while you cry

i know that you hate it, i always ask why
i sit in my room and just cut with the knife
you gave me last year, yeah its pretty that's why
i must fuck it up, cannot treat me right

sit on the phone on the bus in the night
collide with the reason that i am alive
get deep in my thought when alone, see the light
appear on my phone, that's a signal in time

you'll recognize me, yeah hope its not a lie
im cutting the line, ill cut out ur lies
ill stay on that grind, hope that life treat me right
dont know what to do, im nauseous not fine

i think i saw you up, in my head last night
out with other men, cant you see im never right
trusting in myself is something i cannot get right
loading ur drugs in ur pipe while you cry

gimme a reason that i shouldn't die
ill tell you a secret just help me confine
my demons inside, i fear what is life
you work all the time
dont see you at night

goodnight, goodbye (prod. reytee)

(chorus)

i will be
gone with the wind
you told me you’d never love again
so i have been
cryin myself to sleep
so will you take my hand
and guide me out of this again
just try to understand that
my shaky legs are weak

(MVØ)

finding it hard to speak
finding it hard to breathe
why can't I fall asleep
something inside of me choking me honestly
fuck an apology
why does it fall on me

drive home alone in silence
30 on the dash but my mind keeps racing
replaying
every moment, never lose track of the look you gave him

and I know that either way it's over
I thought I'd come out of this sober
lost touch now I'm filling my cup, yuh
yeah

(bridge)

this anxiety
has got its grip on me
oh cant you see
i’ve been drowning 
i need this please
oh cant you set me free
cause i have been falling 
to pieces

(EPITOME)

i’ll never see you again and i know that
and it’s been 5 years but you still never wrote back
i’ve been here all this time
i can’t seem to figure out why

(chorus)

gone with the wind
you told me you’d never love again
so i have been
cryin myself to sleep
so will you take my hand
and guide me out of this again
just try to understand that
my shaky legs are weak

i'll never see u again w/ MVØ (nevrfall)

10 seconds and im in
based
flipped visions got erased
faced
with the painful truth 
that i dont give a fuck
i dont know what works
but i know 
i was the first
and ill always be the worst
x2

in a different state 
fuckin blacked out
they dont know my name
huh, its how it stays now
yeh
id really
like it
if you kept my name in ur mouth
cus i wanna be talked about
fuck it if i roundabout
spent my life being kicked around
a to the m to the gay 
to the "what the fucks this kid sayin?"
i
dont
get around
i just wanna be grounded

10 seconds and im in
based
flipped visions got erased
faced
with the painful truth 
that i dont give a fuck
i dont know what works
but i know 
i was the first
and ill always be the-

worst.
but anyway,
im scared
that im not gonna make it farther than i am
right now
and i struggle more than i ever have
but now its different shit
and i guess i gotta write about it 
why u stayin in this life if u not really all about it?
im just an angsty teen with the same shit 
that you deal with,
so whats special bout it?
fucking nothing.
i dont deserve any of this shit,
so gimme nothing.
but they'll always be a side of me that wants somethin,
live a life,
maybe fuckin god damn be somethin.

0 seconds and im in
based
flipped visions got erased
faced
with the painful truth 
that i dont give a fuck
i dont know what works
but i know 
i was the first
and ill always be the worst
x2

Mccn - Sage - (slowed version)

mccn.

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