one person there
on the sidewalk
or the pier , i’m unsure
and it’s me , looks like it
i think , i’m unsure
and shes walking forever
or until she drowns
she hardly noticed the difference
slipping all the way down
unrequited oh god 
it all is

one person there
in their bedroom
laying down , i’m unsure
and its raining , it pours
i think , i’m unsure
and shes tossing and turning 
until she drowns
she hardly noticed the difference
cept there was finally no sound
unrequited oh god
it all is

it all is

i hope you know its all about you 
nearly every single song 
i hold my breath when talking to you
cuz i know it’d come out wrong 
you’re always the you i’m talking to 
always the you i’m waiting for 
always the you i hate the most 
always the you i will adore 

its always been you ‘ver since its been you

all about you

i dont know u but i wrote a song about u? weird. 

lyrics:
edgy teenage boi
spends his weekends getting high
dont know what it is
but theres something about the look in his eyes
but hes dressed up in all black
and hes making you laugh
this is an apocalypse 
of the edgy teenage boi
edgy teenage boi 
compares you to pretty girls in films
listens to good music
god i could get used to this
hopefully i will
because he makes me wanna
dress up in all black
and throw my head back when i laugh
there is no turning back
ive been asphyxiated by the edgy teenage boi

hope u like it xoxo

elyk

i wrote half of this song in april of last year and the other half in january of this year, can u tell? 

lyrics:
im kicking heads off of yellow flowers
im unmemorizing your voice
looking at the clock, 3am my least favorite hour
shoulda known you were just like all the other noise
youre just like a stupid overused metaphor
in a stupid overwatched film 
you werent different you were just pretending
you werent different you were just pretending

you broke my heart
1 2 3 times
but thats okay
bc you helped me realize
yellow flowers arent for me

but you arent a yellow flower
youre a parasite
withering away any chance of growth and light 
but thats okay 
because
because of you

im no longer kicking heads off of yellow flowers
when i look at the clock i dont think about our hours
together
my garden is blooming
daises daffodils marigolds yellow roses too
im flourishing 
without you

(im sorry yellow flowers)

i REALLLLY hope u like it, it took me almost a year to finish, teehee. 
xoxo

yellow flowers

i haven't uploaded in a hot minute oops. 
enjoy an interlude for the one i love. 

lyrics: 
things between us 
were rough
for a minute or two
but my love 
i'm glad i stuck it out with you
you are the one
the only one 

even if i'm mad
or jealous
you make my heart
beat out of my chest
w one glance 
please hold my hand
you are the one 
the only one 

your eyes
hold sunshine 
and your mind 
holds things that i 
wanna know
and wanna be
you're the only one
that makes me 

smile 
even when i don't want to
laugh out loud
at times i'm not supposed to 
i know its cliche to say
but you're the one the only one for me

hope u like it !!!
xoxoxo

the only one

helloo !! i decided to upload my first cover bc this song has been stuck in my head for days.
the song is "i like you" by dandelion hands
the lyrics are:
i am scared to say i miss you 
last time i had you i should have kissed you 
these feelings fester up inside 
but how could i deny these butterflies 
i hope i’m not stuck on your waiting list 
because i dream of you in colors that don’t exist 
and i think its high time for you to know 
i like you i like you i like you 
and i hope you like me too 
you’ve been there through all i’ve been through 
kept me sane and held my hand too 
the way you make me feel alright 
so how could i deny your lips on mine 
i hope i’m not stuck on your waiting list 
because i dream of you in colors that don’t exist 
and i think its high time for you to know 
i like you i like you i like you 
and i hope you like me too

new + original music coming sooooonnn
xoxoxo

i like you (cover)

hey-yo, i haven't had the drive to write in a while but i managed to stay focused long enough to write this crappy minute long song. i may extend it later, who knows. regardless, i hope you enjoy it !!
lyrics:
everyone comforts her
pretty dark eyed girl
but what about
what about me?

i'm expected to be okay
and happy and outgoing 
but what about 
what about me?

expectations
make a fool out of you and me 
expectations
leave me waiting for a sweet release
expectations expecting
nothing from anyone but me 
im drowning im starving
im asphyixiating 
these expectations are killing me

xo

expectations

another cover comin' at ya hot! 
this is one of my favorite songs off of billie's newest album, and i hope i did it justice. 
the lyrics are:
take me to the rooftop
i wanna see the world when i stop breathing, turning blue
tell me love is endless, don't be so pretentious
leave me like you do

if you need me, wanna see me
better hurry 'cause i'm leaving soon

sorry can't save me now
sorry i don't know how
sorry there's no way out 
but down
hmm, down

taste me, these salty tears on my cheeks
that's what a year-long headache does to you
i'm not okay, i feel so scattered
don't say i'm all that matters
leave me, déjà vu

if you need me, wanna see me
you better hurry, i'm leaving soon

sorry can't save me now 
sorry i don't know how 
sorry there's no way out 
but down
hmm, down

call my friends and tell them that i love them
and i'll miss them
but i'm not sorry
call my friends and tell them that i love them
and i'll miss them
sorry

i really REALLY REALLY hope u enjoyed it
xoxo

listen before i go (cover)

hello !! sorry it has been so long, times are moving very fast. fun fact: the ukulele part was played w a makeup brush instead of my hand because it sounded softer and i like it. hope u do too !!
lyrics:
i 
i cannot describe 
the way you make me feel
but i could try
i could try

sunshine and rainbows and all the cliches
our hearts tied in a knot you make me feel safe
i cannot describe 
i cannot but i suppose i could try 

you and i's love story is my favorite ever
cinderella sleeping beauty snow white whatever
i know you hate it when i go on and on 
but i hope i can convince you by the end of this song

because your eyes hold sunshine
and your heart holds warmth 
you're the one the only one
a callback to the song i wrote about you before
your hands are like electricity
they shock me to the touch 
i didnt think i could ever love again 
let alone love someone this much

i know i cannot describe the way you make me feel 
but i could try once and a while 
because this feeling is surreal 
i could try
i could try
i could try
god knows i have tried  

hope u enjoyed it !! share it w ur luvr hehe
xoxo

an indescribable love song

hellooo. i promised my good friend tori that i'd upload a cover of this tonight, so here i am! the original song is really good, if you'd like to look it up it's called feelings are fatal by mxmtoon. hope you like my lil rendition of it. 
lyrics:
i'm happy for you
i'm smiling for you
i'd do anything
for you for you
it's always for you
and never for me
i need it to stop
so let me tell you, please
i'm always sad
and i'm always lonely
but i can't tell you
that i'm breaking slowly
closed doors
locked in, no keys
keeping my feelings hidden
there is no ease
i need it to stop
and i want to be able
to open up but,
my feelings are fatal
(my feelings are fatal)
how many times
must i keep it inside
i need to let go
and i swear that i've tried
but opening up
means trusting others
and that's just too much
i don't want to bother
so i'll keep it inside
and bury it deep
i know it's not healthy
but you won't hear a peep
though i'm always sad
and i'm always lonely
i could never tell you
that i'm breaking slowly
closed doors
locked in, no keys
keeping my feelings hidden
there is no ease
i need it to stop
and i want to be able
to open up but
my feelings are fatal
my feelings are fatal
my feelings are fatal

love u xoxo

feelings are fatal (cover)

heyyo. here's a lil midnight original interlude. hope u like it <3

lyrics:
i don't miss you
not in the way that i used to

i still think of you
but not in the way 
that i grew used to 

and i hope that you're happy
i hope that you're strong
it's hard to hate somebody 
when you loved them for so long

i don't love you
not sure if i ever did

you still cross my mind
sometimes 
does that make me a piece of shit?

and i hope that you are happy 
and i hope that you are safe
you were mine and now you're not
and after a while i see that it's okay

god i hope that you're doing okay


pls stay tuned for bigger and better things coming 

xoxo

a song for my ex

heyya, haven't uploaded in a while, sorry. 
also sorry this one's so sad. 
hope u enjoy it. 

lyrics:
i 
desperately wish i 
could be your 
saving grace but
iiiiii
dont know how

i
desperately wish
i could put 
a smile on your face
but you took your past wounds
and you ripped the stitches out

(again)

iiiiii
iiiiiii wish
that iiiii
could be your oxygen
but youuuuuu
dont seem to want to breathe (anymore)
youuu seem so set 
on your false pessimisstic view in your own reality 

stay tuned, more is coming.
xoxo

god i wish

hello, here's a lil original. sorry it's sad, it's all i can write. i hope u enjoy it.:) 
lyrics:
no one's ever gonna look at me 
as though i'm life itself
it's a harsh fact of reality
and it doesn't do much for my mental health 
but i i i 
have never been much for avoiding the truth

my smile's never gonna bring 
someone's eyes to tears
my friends tell me just to wait out
give it, idunno, like 15 years
but i i i 
have never been much for optimism anyway

and soon that ship will sail
and my hair will turn to gray
i'll think back to my "glory years" 
if you could even call them by that name
and though i i i 
have never been much for regret

i'll regret this
i'll regret

not being the one who looks like life
or having a smile that makes someone cry
or just being so damn hard to fall in love with 

i'll regret
not sneaking out to kiss in parked cars
or not lying out under the stars 
but what i i i 
will regret most is
you

stay tuned for more
xo

regret

everyones gonna hate this but i guess i dont really care
____________________________________________

i can tell 
it’s getting bad again
because i was in the bath 
and i thought 
“what if i fell asleep 
and choked on the water
and they called it all an accident”
and so i
picked up my phone 
to give you a call
like i promised i would 
if it was getting all 
too much
and i thought
“why does it matter anyway”

because i’m
i’m secluding myself
from my body and the world
i hate being me and i hate being a girl
scrubbing my face
to try to remove all my skin
but my pores fill up with bone
wash rinse repeat again
i lay my hands out flat
leave them in partial light
water twice a week
one morning one night
flowers bloom into my veins 
crawl their way up my throat
and i pray that god’ll call you and let you know
that he finally let me
choke

choke_interlude

the angsty tiktok song all of my VERY aggressive followers have been waiting for. stay tuned on my socials for this to be available on every platform you could ever want

chords;
C Bmaj7 F Fm

lyrics;

Fuck you and fuck your mom
She called me a whore when I was way too young and
Fuck you and fuck your friends
I’d never heard half of those slurs until them
And fuck you and fuck him and fuck her and fuck them
And fuck this and fuck that
And fuck you for what you did
And even more fuck you for what you didn’t 

Fuck you and fuck your red light
That i slept under as you texted him all night and
Fuck you and fuck our last fight
And you said it was all my fault and 
Shiiiit you might be right but
Fuck you and fuck him and fuck her and fuck them 
And fuck this and that
And fuck you for stealing my heart
And fuck you the most for giving it back

And i dont care if you think
That I’m being crazy anymore
This is the last time that i’ll just sit here and take being ignored
And i know if you came back
I’d have trouble closing the door
But you’d deserve it
And you deserve this so

Fuck you and fuck your mom
Fuck you and your backstory
Fuck you and fuck your red light
Fuck you for almost killing me 

Fuck you and fuck her and fuck him and fuck them
Fuck you and fuck them and fuck her and fuck him
Fuck you and fuck him and fuck her and fuck them
And fuck this and that
And fuck you for entering my life
But thanks so much for leaving it 

did that make sense?

sadsarah

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