do u know (prod. me)

love is war

more than us

blame

happy birthday to me ig :/

so many days that my life turned out bad

so many nights that u been up in my head

its hard to not think about what u said

i cant forget that i used to take them meds

i hated waking up at 6am

when i could of been sleeping in

i didnt wanna go to school

but i went to see my friends

its my birthday in 9 days

but i dont really feel like my age

as a kid i didnt feel pain

like i do now


some people say when u get older

that your problems will fade away

its another birthday where i feel nothing

i know that it wont change into something

my birthday (ALL PLATS)

natalis (prod. lucille)#gothamendment

prod me

now that the party is over, you're in the wrong
cant forgive nor forget what you did since you're gone
now my world is revolving and its all your fault
or was it me? 
the one let you stray so far.

empty responses from you, and now you're washed out
you've got nothing to do
but maybe there's hope, beyond that rope
but for now, you are just something i used to know
i'm not a coward, ill bear all your weight on my back
was it me being selfish? no, it couldn't be that
there's nothing left for me to spare
cause i'm here and you're there
miss your smile, and your hair
i'm all alone in despair

so i'll say your goodbye's, and ill tell you goodnight
ill take what is wrong with me, cut off my eye
i deserve it, im so worthless
i'm so sorry for ruining you
you were perfect, fucking perfect

now that the party is over, you're in the wrong
cant forgive nor forget what you did since you're gone
now my world is revolving and its all your fault
or was it me? the one that let you stray so-

me fui pal infierno, y volvi pa buscarte
porque queria dejarte
confia en mi, lo que hago es pa ti
no te aleje de mi, cause i'll be the one
who will set you free

afterparty

this song is the first of many - negligence

prod. peril
lyrics;

@fuckfenix

"fuck you, you creep!"
(WANT ME TO DIE)
i know you really want me to die,
can you even hear me when i cry
watch me commit suicide
i can see the tears GOING DOWN YOUR EYES!
never made you deicide
everytime i see you i just get shy,
i cry myself to sleep almost everynight..

@9vn-455345866

i tired so hard.. but ill never get through to you
you live you so far.. but ill do what you tell me to
CAN YOU HEAR MY CRYS?
DID YOU TELL YOUR LIES?
I FANTASIZE.. when you were mine
back we were so in love
back when my hand was your glove
where did it go wrong my love? (where did it go wrong my love?)

@dazingoff

why cant you just.. listen to me?
you put me through so much i.. gave up on everything
what we had BETWEEN US WAS GREAT!
i hate the way we showed eachother LOVE IT WAS WAS FAKE!
and all that i do.. is bottled up
all my emotions yeah.. IM SO SCARED!
but all that you do.. its fucked me up
i cant keep going on.. its not a fair

@fuckfenix

"fuck you, you creep!"
(WANT ME TO DIE)
i know you really want me to die,
can you even hear me when i cry
watch me commit suicide
i can see the tears GOING DOWN YOUR EYES!
never made you deicide
everytime i see you i just get shy,
i cry myself to sleep almost everynight..

want me to die w/ fenix, dazingoff, 9vn

(prod. duskydemise)

[dusk]
[fuck you, you creep],

blow my brains out on the floor,
i wanna touch your face cause i know your skin is warm
leave my room a bloody massacre, blood on the door
leave my body cold, when you're dead i'll miss your corpse

(its you that i adore)

i'm just a druggie put my body on the porch
and get the lighter from the bag and light it like a torch
i'm such a creep i know you hate me "yeah of course"
fenix is a fucking loser i know soon he'll meet the lord

you can see my crimson rivers start to pour
arteries cascade, bloody red you shook me to my core
apparitions circle ‘round me whisper secrets of the war
lamentations in my chest until my lungs begin to sore

i'm such a shitty person yeah, i'm like before
maybe i think we should put it to an end and get divorced
i know i wasn't enough cause you clearly wanted more
and i'm shackled to this torment and i'm here forevermore.

trapped within the labyrinth inside my fractured mind
haunted by the twisted choices, and the sins i can't unwind
i reach for fleeting solace, but it's out my sight
put the rope around my neck and tie me up, i wanna die

(seen me i'm gone you would never know
put the pistol inside my mouth and it blow
hang me on a tree, i know you're watching like a crow
and i'm sorry that i care so much i wished it never showed
never show, don't die
i can't handle it, please take away my knife
i never should've fell in love but you were way too nice
shoot me in the head maybe i'll forget the times)

sore (adore)

Kingdoms Lost Away is about someone I met during the fall, my expectations when I get older, and the struggles along the way.
A thank you to Jimbo James (aka, the supreme leader of mushroom tweaker land) for the lil rap part in the beginning. 

blame

Sae Bryce