took a step away from the usual stuff for this one 
produced by dead yami
my first attempt at not using autotune for a song lol

you've got your headphones on
and he "loves" you (loves you)
what the fuck is that supposed to mean?

and it won't be long
til' he leaves you (leaves you)
and you'll come crawling right back to me

and I wrote you a song
its called "you liar"
I hope it gets stuck in your fucking head

and I bought you a bong, 
set it on fire
and go and lay down with him instead

you've got your headphones on
and he "loves" you (loves you)
what the fuck is that supposed to mean?

and it won't be long
til' he leaves you (leaves you)
and you'll come crawling right back to me

beats me, you're cool and im not
kiss me to stir up the pot
I cant think my brain is sideways
with love, you're killing my heart
feel it even when were apart
I cant think my brain is sideways

beats me, you're cool and i'm not (dead yami)

Untitled #2

remember where were supposed to meet ft. kennedyxoxo

i just wanna be on own, tonight 
is that alright, then i turn off the lights 
i kinda miss now now im all on my own 
the only thing thats bright is the screen on my phone

im walking past esso 
get flowers for you 
i'll pop it on your doorstep 
knock your door and go 

im slipping on the ice as i get through the snow 
my heart barely alive but i'll live on iknow 

what a way to find out 
you've been round his house 
when i was trecking to yours for hours 
was it all wasted x2 
i should of never bought the flowrs 

now im all embarressed 
looking like pushover 
how can i recover now 

i need a fucking bandage 
bitch im fucking wounded 
my hearts all in two bits 
try to calm down


I just bought some flowers and I put them in a bouquet 
Imma listen to you ever single word that you say
I know I’ve been dumb but I’m tryna start a new age
Everything you want from me starts here from today
I wish I could be up in the shop to buying your toothpaste
I don’t wanna see the day you  pack your suitcase
Not for all the holiday shit
Nothing is so simple 
Nothing is so basic
Nothing so simple but I try my best to dumb it down for us 
I wish I could say this shit in person I’m a mess 
Late night on my phone
Every time that I leave I feel cold
Cold feet like I’m walking in snow
Then you go and leave me on my own

esso w/ birdbay (viera x jolst)

lyrics:

Silence breaks clouds part for the symphony
Ya I never needed plause or your sympathy
Now im lying on the floor Where im supposed to be
I can finally rest my eyes sleep eternally
Fate Fell through
When you cut me loose
I’ve been Hanging by a thread but now im sprawled
Out On the pavement
So ill Take these words that you spoke to me
And ill place them all inside of my eulogy

Lacking a Purpose
Nothings for certain
Everything’s flawed
Broken and fraud
Counting down to the moment
On when ill be chosen
I'm through being a burden

You’ll be aright
That’s what they always be telling me
Look at the sky
Ya these angels been calling me
Like honestly you say im the one but I disagree
Won’t be saying that shit When im underneath
Swear they’ll all be Stuck In disbelief

eulogy (prod. 2001)

the first single off my new ep 'learning to lose'
featuring @oni_boy
produced by @wisssery & @pekarot_161
mixed and mastered by me
i hope you enjoy <3

lyrics:
i couldn’t capitalize
on what i’d seen in ur eyes
i’d match ur porcelain smile
all while i’m dead inside
stop looking, nothing’s there
those nights are gone, i swear
i always needed more time
then wasted yours and mine
i’m always on the bright side
i’ll always tell you i’m fine
stop looking, nothing’s there
those nights are gone, i swear.

[oni boy]
everything’s is gone and now it’s missing
i swear at first you went and only got distant 
those fake smiles hiding behind some dead eyes
the smell of rotting flesh and decaying insides
so where’s the insight
so where’s clairvoyance
soothsaying futures
prepared avoidance
where’s my allowance?
the things that i’m owed?
you took it all and left my heart broken and froze
so baby what can i get back?
the living undead crawled out of the ground for attack
i swear emotions resurrected, getting zombified 
we stay evicted and vacated from those distant nights

i couldn’t capitalize
on what i’d seen in ur eyes
i’d match ur porcelain smile
all while i’m dead inside
stop looking, nothing’s there
those nights are gone, i swear
i always needed more time
then wasted yours and mine
i’m always on the bright side
i’ll always tell you i’m fine
stop looking, nothing’s there
those nights are gone, i swear.

learning to lose

stop looking, nothing's there. (ft. oni boy) [wisssery x pekarot]

spotify & apple music!

As far as I can take
As long as I've been waiting
I know it goes away
When you're gone

Waking up on the east side
But I don't know what to feel
Thinking of when you'd hold me 
The safest I'd ever been
And you don't know that you fixed me
And I don't know if you care 
So I don't think that I'll tell you
To let you know that I'm here

Things hold and things decay
I've always felt the same 
My hand against your cheek
To see you face from under your hair
I hope you know that I listened 
I'm holding onto it still
And when I know that it's over
The only thing that I'll miss

So don't get close to me 
And don't say anything
Cause with your voice so clear
I know it's over here

Wait for a break in the morning
Ask me to stay it's important
I've had these feelings before it
Spoke out to me in the forest
I put a name to a context like
All of this time and we lost it
But I just retreat where the fog is
Just know that I loved you through all this

The last trace of my body's been gone now
The best days of your life I don't know how
The last chance I could tell you but I still can't
The lights dimming but its painless you should know that

Don't get close to me 
And don't say anything
Cause with your voice so clear
I know it's over here

If It Still Matters

old asf thing from the vault w/ @torvamia <3 

luv yall thank you so fkn much for the support lately. shit gives my life meaning

dnt wake up ft. torvamia (methboiswag)

numb in the senses since my adolescence 
cause home remedies never helped with the tension
headaches and nodules
infected tonsils
but all of it clears if i see you tomorrow

No im not coming home
dont know what im running from
afraid to love
afraid that you might give me up again
and no
dont tell me im wrong
we've been here like a thousand times
a thousand more
if dont leave now
out that door

Now
now
all the way from
now
now
all the way from you

numb in the senses since my adolescence 
cause home remedies never helped with the tension
headaches and nodules
infected tonsils
but all of it clears if i see you tomorrow

No im not coming home
dont know what im running from
afraid to love
afraid that you might give me up again
and no
dont tell me im wrong
we've been here like a thousand times
a thousand more
if i dont leave now
out that door

Now
now
all the way from
now
now
all the way from you

numb in the senses since my adolescence 
cause home remedies never helped with the tension
headaches and nodules
infected tonsils
but all of it clears if i see you tomorrow

adolescence

s/o @kiddamo
u signed my heart already
so u can stay here
take a pen out baby write ur name here
sitting at my desk fucked up right here
it feels like every other night i travel light years
and i dont wanna be alone
dont stop calling on my phone

frost bite covers my soul
i dont wanna be alone
it gets cold
when ur not at home
but i get so much warmer when u are close
yea it breaks me to pieces n i cant believe it
i dont kno why u always say that im tweaking
i hope im not right cuz then youll end up leaving
dont wanna put u in the past baby girl im speeding
monsters are creeping
i hear the floor boards creeking
tears dry no more weeping

u signed my heart already
so u can stay here
take a pen out baby write ur name here
sitting at my desk fucked up right here
it feels like every other night i travel light years
and i dont wanna be alone
dont stop calling on my phone

i really wouldve died for u tho
damn
i never should of cried for u hoe
so tell me why
why i wasted all of my time
i want to light up
see my past burn aways in the fire
no relief when i respire
thats all that i desire
i hate these people think id rather be a loner
im smoking weed until the end cuz im a stoner
like im saul silver

n she said u should call me when ur sober
but thats not in my plans baby girl
my words just getting slower
ill still be here when ur older
rhinestone love shining like the solar
dont wanna be sad anymore
i stopped smoking
dont hit the dab cart anymore
i dont got no friends anymore
i just drink alone
i dont wanna be here anymore

Untitled #2

Saint Tomorrow

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