whyyy did u delete some songs like ritual blade i loved them

this song was inspired/interpolated from a softheart type beat i found on youtube, please go give some love to w1nter/shy: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UChPhqiihr2QL0nMOr5FmlbQ

New Terrain

(prod sorrow bringer)
@sorrow_bringer

its a nightmare no its not a fairytale
im an alien 
not american
and im not ur fucking experiment
for you to discard
when the times up and youre sick of listening
its embarassing
you dont care a bit
grab my face and i scratch claw and tear at it
till i rip it off
i never liked it much when i was wearing it 
i know that they staring
i dont care a bit
and i know that i love to my own detriment 
can we just talk about something else instead
and every time i think about u i just drop dead
and now im just standing there holding my head
i dont wanna miss out if im not there
i dont wanna leave the house when your haunt it
i dont wanna leave the house when u ----
its a nightmare no its not a fairytale
im an alien 
not american
and im not ur fucking experiment
for you to discard
when the times up and youre sick of listening
its embarassing
you dont care a bit
grab my face and i scratch claw and tear at it
till i rip it off
i never liked it much when i was wearing it

drop dead

Sooo Um (mix 2)

mindless little conversations
i can see you hiding what youre thinking about 
im sick of you staring at me
like youre tryna figure something out 
i fucking hate grocery shopping
sometimes i cant tell if they wanna kill or fuck me
i left my keys at your apartment
and i think i forgot to pay for the parking
i feel so much its impossible
cant describe without sounding obnoxious 

but the world looks different from outside of the love
outside its rough
all scars and flaws
my heart shaped glasses they distract enough 
i saw the glow the light shines in dark 

they said someones gonna rip ur heart out if ur not careful
either if its someone else or it just gets dull
never cared that much about all of that pessimism
rather get the flood now then see how long the dam holds
lets go make ourselves whole
see how long we can hold
lets make something special 
keep it just for us two
i hate people so much
but i fuckin love u
because i just do

porcelain mask

prod. nevrfall and branwen  
@nevrfall 
@branwenmusic

i take this small one and bend 
its like this battle dont got a end
i can get so in my head but still fuck what they say 
i dont know you and you not my friend
i know that i said i wouldnt get fucked up today
but look at me here i am 
i always end up just going the opposite way
if they try to tell me that i cant 
ill do that shit just to spite you and laugh
fuck out my face bout that i give a damn
i dont know you i dont trust you thats facts 
that shit is just how it is 
i would change it if i could but i cant
i let the world try to make me abandon myself
just to be something for them 
just to be something for somebody else

i push away
everything because i need help
bleed out
on the tile i left a big puddle
i love something
and it gets me into big trouble 
do u need enough 
all these tests i hope i bleed enough 
i left that old part of me where 2016 was 
reasons 
i dont need to ever speak of
leave me 
in a big clump
ima big cluts 
bleeding 
from these thick cuts
i can get rid of 

when i stretch
and this conflict eats me to my bone
cant this toxic world leave me alone 
its ingrown 
if its wrong 
let me reap what i sow

dont go closing your eyes
you never know whats gonna wanna come n hurt you right
and when your outside keep some sort of weapon close to your side
im so sick of hearing bad news somebody died 
and it goes like 
dont go closing your eyes
you never know whats gonna wanna come n hurt you right
and when your outside keep some sort of weapon close to your side
im so sick of hearing bad news somebody died

dont go, closing your eyes

i dont wanna hesitate
wanna go with what i feel
and i look at both my hands
just to make sure im still here
and i check my pulse heartbeat
just to make sure i can hear it 
and i find the closest mirror
just to make sure im still real 
so i force myself outside
and i crawl out from my cave 
and i hear whoosh of tires
and i feel wind on my face
and i zone out for a sec
cause i was thinkin of you
i was in this nice daydream
it was only just us two
and everything was so good 
and we lived a simple life
in a little house in the woods
with the birds and butterflies

cautious and delicate 
only if its right
only if its right
let me know if

if you wanna hang sometime
on the roof of your old house
we can sit and watch the sky
n find pictures in the clouds 
when im bored i think about
how wed sit and talk for hours
but it doesnt feel that long
wasnt even keeping count 
and we held our bodies close
and you said that i was warm
and i think about it sometimes
and how i want it more
and everything is so good
and everything feels just right
like ill wake up from this dream
and its only just one night

cautious and delicate

carousel

well im still alive so i guess thats a plus/.
prod by me

ghost flying out
hoes smiling up
money pilin up yup
i put estradiol in my blunt im high as fuck what
now i feel like dying just because
in this haunted house these ghosts lurk
they hate on me now but so what
its none of ur business
u dont know what goes on

wait
just moving away
just moving away
its not goin away
im just moving the weight
it moves in waves
pack up my things
and move away
its always the same

im dodging bad omens police and texts from my parents that i get
they said maddy were proud of you
i had a disconnect and couldnt reply to it
i gotta vouch for myself cause i know that im worth more than i get
i talk outloud to myself its the way i fill up all this silence
sometimes times i wonder what would have have happend if those pills woulda taken me
but now i feel blessed cause i still remember all those days i was aching
he had hit me again so i threw a brick through the window in the basement
now he says hes proud of his daughter and says hes concerned for my safety

and
thats why im always reminded that everythings meaningless
sometimes i slip
a bit
but u held me body and pressed
when i go somewhere outside in the city i feel like the walking dead
the way that they all on my d-

(just movin away, movin the weight, ect.)
if u missed out
or rainchecked
or if u missed me
gone like it just was a fleeting passing glance
oh and isnt it obvious
its obvious where i went
where i dont go
u should proably go soul search
ur girl she had me so soul sucked
we can both go but ill go first
it might be cringy but so what

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thank u so much for listening. lifes been a lot lately and making music is rly the only thing that i look foreword to sometimes

hallowed ||| Caverned

i will lead u to ur doom!

Sourface

Recently my internet went out, and in the hours that followed I tried to capture the essense of rage, boredom, and hunger I felt. It turns out there is one thing I can do when the internet goes out. Huzzah!

Disconnected

its fun to forget
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i will lead u to ur doom!

salemjournl

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