why am i here ft fenix

produced by caspers pishogue 
mixed by spawncamped
cover art by nosir

@spawncamped
only time will tell
if you even care
i know you don't but i pretend
i'll take these memories back
waiting for the day you text back
i don't think i even deserve my ex back
just put an end to my ways
and my twisted games
i'm the one to blame
and its not okay
@samcatcher
(and i hear you inside my head)
(laying in my bed but not getting rest)
(doctors on the phone saying i'm depressed)
(i just wanna get this off my chest)
kill me if you want, i'd rather die in your arms
i'm swerving and shit, i think i might crash the car
don't know where i'm going, but i'm tryna go far
watch you leave the house while i'm hiding in the dark
feeling stuck in my ways, i think i might blow my brains
i know i said i would change, but i'm just too fucking lame
feeling stuck in my ways, i think i might blow my brains
i know i said i would change, but i'm just too fucking lame

stuck in my ways (with spawncamped)

https://open.spotify.com/track/6EG0Hy52H7mSGaP65DHnRA?si=fa939e1f30014aa4

prod me ft @revivle

@requiem-for-you
i just want u to know
that i love u the most
remember when i found u out in the snow 
out in ur coat
snowflakes on ur nose
we locked eyes n ur body froze 

i know too many people
its hard to treat u equal
i know that ur a dreamer
its from all of the nyquil
walk in the night will u
come save me
oohoohoooh

@revivle
i dont wanna let u down
so gimme a sign
cus lately uve been on my mind
tell me can u hear me now

am i over my head
can you love me again :p
you know that im a dreamer 
i dream that we can keep us
so keep me close to you

and ill keep getting hurt
its just what i do
you say what you want 
i dont care, i got nothing to lose
i went too far
it was so cold
u found me,
u gave me a hand to hold

@requiem-for-you + @revivle
i just want u to know
that i love u the most
remember when i found u out in the snow 
out in ur coat
snowflakes on ur nose
we locked eyes n ur body froze
x2

snowflakes w/ revivle

fields

“memories” - (secretadmirer x zombie) 🧟 

this feeling I get 
I cannot replace
the way you made me feel
that day it feel surreal
but now I cant relate
can we go back in time
and rewrite our story
it cant end this way

I loved you that day
you felt the same
but I cant… take it anymoree (feel this way anymore)
I want you more than ever

memories w/ ilyzombie

w/ @visaluvsu
cover by vera

the weather is changing the color of the flowers
when im on my death bed nd its my final hour
will i go to heaven or will i end up lower
when u say im awesome it gives me such a boner
when u say
im awesome (x3)
when u say
im awesome (x3)
my heart breaks a little ur pretty a blossom
my boat sank im washed up im washed up
im fucked up
im sorry my baby i fucked up
I messed up
n no one can save me im out here im lost bruh

@visaluvsu
the weather started freezing
and i think i know the reason of
why u left me here
my heart is really beating
and i wanna know the reason of
why u gave me a scare
but ur lips were super sharp
u tore me right apart
while u smiling from ear to ear

im awesome with visa

prod. @realprezmeow

blackout, might blackout
and you're losing me
open my body
and reach into me
i feel uneasy
in your company
feel like
im drowning
with your hands on me

let me fucking go
jus let me fucking goooo
come and give me what you owe
i dont feel it anymore

nah i dont feel nothing
with all these pills in my body
i dont like who im becoming
split your brain into two
so i can have a part of you
all to myself
all to myself

i aint letting go (im not fuckin letting go of u)
i aint letting go of you (im not fuckin letting go)
cus ur all i fuckin need to function (all i fuckin neeeeedddd)
i dont need to hear your fuckin assumptions
(im so fuckin tired of it)
(i dont wanna hear u speak)
(all u do is put me down)
(why am i putting up with u?)
(i dont really fuckin know)
(so attached to you tho)
(freezing cold up in the snow)

blackout

prod. sickboi

I thought you had no words for me
(Oooooooooo)
But please don't worry cuz I'll be okay again.
sometimes I feel like I'm all down
so listen to the words that I sing you now
all that bad stuff just never wish a pond yourself
girl don't worry I know you'll make it out
(My last song)

TheresBloodFromMyOwnAccident

why do you need this many features on one song

never goodbye - i hait it ft (all features/verses)

IDKhow2askyouout (prod. wixxy)

lyrics:

it doesnt matter, like anyway
i went outside today, i smoked a couple joints
i got high by myself and i couldnt even think
why, why did i wait for you to slow down my pace
why did i wait when you spat in my face
its getting longer now
im feeling down and out
write me a letter, i might feel a little better
make me feel lesser, learn a couple lessons
maybe always hate her but im still gonna miss her
fuck i hate her
i fuckin hate her guts
it doesnt really matter cuz i got my loaded gun
or a sharpened knife, i think i hate my life
hate it so much, its like a 9 to 5
i wanna x4

i wanna move away from everything you gave me
its like im tryna escape a never ending tragedy
its like when im alone youre still haunting me
always something wrong but i wonder what itll be
its like im stuck high up somewhere, vibrating like a bee
it doesnt matter, like anyway
i went outside today, i smoked a couple joints
i got high by myself and i couldnt even think
why, why did i wait for you to slow down my pace

why did i wait

transgender tunes from san diego, ca
@wiibrew