nice man, sounds kinda like ur from the uk

ok google, how do i keep going

this one took a lot out of me to make. i love you guys, and i hope you liked the ep <3

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worst case scenarios get painted in my head 
clocks shine in early light, i just can't get no rest 
stare at an open project file, i'm filled with dread
and i can't fight, my life's a mess 
i hope one day i make it 
it's been too long, i feel myself getting inpatient 
inside my mind i'm keeping up, but im complacent 
my friends don't ever say a thing, my thoughts are racing, 
my inner demons i've been facing 
i feel 

colder than the winter snow, 
i would give it up but i don't know 
summer nights alone are making me go crazy
life it feels monotonous lately
downers never ease the pain 
i'm still standing in the falling rain 
spring into a time where i would i have a reason 
i'm defeated, just going through the seasons

this inconsistency 
i swear will never pass 
try to impress friends 
with all these shitty drafts
feel incomparable, this pain is so unbearable 
i wanna run away from everything
and few anything at all 
i hope they know i'm faking 
i try so hard to keep intact i know i'm breaking 
i know it's bad but i keep seeking validation 
and i can't help the fact that i wanna be just like them 
but it feels like every day i fight them 
cause they've felt
colder than the winter snow, 
they would give me up but i don't know 
summer nights alone are making me go crazy
life it feels monotonous lately
downers never ease the pain 
they've still left me in the falling rain 
spring into a time where i would i have a reason 
i'm defeated, just going through the seasons

rumination

seasons

prod me<3
@byjaimejaime
OUT NOW ON ALL PLATS

werewolf (w/ jaime jaime)

shoutout https://soundcloud.com/rouri404 for the open i def stole the acapella from :)
shoutout @reesooo for the inspiration on the melody :)

the tweet said i could do anything i wanted with it so here it is

concrete (ft. rouri404) [prod. austyn & reesoo]

prod me

shoutout silent swag for the cover art 
sum slight
 <3333


I Was on the line, when i saw u there
Always left behind, would u stop instead?

Or would u count me out like the rest
Dirt in my hands and my friends dont really care
Oh baby please admit ur a mess, 
friends dont really like u and ur parents try their best

U dont know why u lie to me
Even though i heard ur plea
Never saw the inbetween 
Never felt it in me


(xona)
and I can’t decide if I ever feel safe
you mock my words in front of me it’s kind of strange
these flowers blossom but they heavily decay 
every moment that you step my way
it’s different cities, I’d do anything for you
I’m wasting time just waiting for you
and my heart has been off tune 
can you call back me real soon?

do you see what I write ?
for you
violent scenes in my room
do you know what I see?
do you know what I mean?
everything I’d leave 
is he better than the last guy?
maybe I’m the bad guy x2
and I’m stuck up I, 
don’t try for you

I dont wanna call again
U dont pick up anyways
Tell me whos my friend?
In this theres no end

Couldve sworn it was raining
In these eyes theres no
Draining

I dont wanna smell his scent on ur skin
I dont wanna read the texts that u sent
U could never tell the truth i admit
And i never see it through in the end

But that dont mean im not
Trying hard enough
Its all insanity
Could u please lay with me?

skin w/ xona

blvnkface + 5head

hey <3 ty for listening 
lyrics
ive been living all my life in my bed
in need of reassurance 
cuz im fucked up in the head
all i think about is u
and all i smell is your scent 
you dont care ab me
itd be better if i was dead
im not in your head
not in your bed 
i saw u out with him
had on your favorite dress
and the way u look at me is confusing 
i dont wanna try again ill end up losing

im a fuckin nuisance 
im so fuckin stupid 
and everytime i try i end up losin

im a fuckin nuisance 
im so fuckin stupid 
and everytime i try i end up losin

i could throw my life away 
i wouldnt care at all
im so sick of the constant pain
and the burning withdrawals 
and i would throw it all away
to see you fall
cuz ur everytime i needed you
you didnt care at all
fuck. 

im fucked up my lifes a mess
and my wounds get deeper with every step
constant feeling of anger in my chest
i dont want you happy
i want you dead
wakeup at 2am cant feel my head 
i try my best but i cant go back to bed 
im shaking 
heart beating through my chest
even tho i need to im not getting any rest 
shes a fuckin devil
shes a fuckin liar 
look at what u did my whole worlds on fire
gimme reassurance 
baby ik ur tired 
but i think tonight ill get a little bit higher 

it never works out for me 
ill never be who they want me to be
fuck

i could throw my life away 
i wouldnt care at all
im so sick of the constant pain
and the burning withdrawals 
and i would throw it all away
to see you fall
cuz ur everytime i needed you
you didnt care at all
fuck.

nuisance

all the things i could never say


Sorry i can never tell the truth :(
But honestly its somethings thats kinda scary to do
Emotions are never clear to me, its true
So sorry if it seems like i cant stand u

U dont even notice all youve mended
All the problems that i cause in a panic
Swear im sorry for the way that i treat u
But i swear that im tryna be brand new 

Sorry i can never tell the truth :(
But honestly its somethings thats kinda scary to do
Emotions are never clear to me, its true
So sorry if it seems like i cant stand u

I know its hard, playing a part, that u never even wanted
And i know ur far, from where they departed, i know ur not the same person
But could they realize what i did?
When i was by ur side and
Saw what u became when everybody u needed left u

U dont even notice all youve mended
All the problems that i cause in a panic
Swear im sorry for the way that i treat u
But i swear that im tryna be brand new 

Sorry i can never tell the truth :(
But honestly its somethings thats kinda scary to do
Emotions are never clear to me, its true
So sorry if it seems like i cant stand u

All the things i could never say
Like how i hate it when ur away 
Or when i cant hear what u gotta say
Or when i know that ive always been in ur way
But honestly ive figured it out
Im not gonna argue with the words in ur mouth
So please dont u ever doubt
Im always gonna stick around from now on

U dont even notice all youve mended
All the problems that i cause in a panic
Swear im sorry for the way that i treat u
But i swear that im tryna be brand new 

Sorry i can never tell the truth :(
But honestly its somethings thats kinda scary to do
Emotions are never clear to me, its true
So sorry if it seems like i cant stand u
X2

“And if u cant take no more, call on me”

jan 4th

@55depths

me:
baby girl can you see me
cause i've been bleeding and lonely
rewind the time
to when you are mine
you're gone and it's fine
i'll be alright
i've been thinking bout it
thinking how we lost it
now you're out of pocket
heart stuck in a locket


fernn:
We used to spend days locked up in my room
Now my bedsheets feel more like a tomb
Empty liquor bottles & substance abuse
I just want to erase all thoughts of you
Now you don’t see me
As I fade into the back of the party
Blacked out again, I can’t forget
My head spinning
Why’d it all go so wrong
Empty juul pods & my hearts all gone
Sitting on the stairs outside
Hating this life
Trying not to cry
I told you I’d be alright
You went & walked away though you knew I lied
Laying on ground
In a place that looks familiar
But it feels so far away

love lost w/ 1fern (softbite)

w/ @x1fern & @traxee
prod by yasuo! + @expulsing

deadweight w/ 1fern & traxee (yasuo! + expulsing)

produced by @p-guda

soundcloud only <3

lyrics:
wore off
i don't wanna breathe no more
tore off
every feature u adore
so what am i left with?
a body i cant look at anymore
u will not find me where i been residing
at this point they all gon think im in hiding
always unstable but im never minding

i keep my door locked and my notebook blank
want no tension and no restrains
not sure when i turned to fresh air to feel alive
it's hard to breathe in with ur mouth when ur tongue stays tied
treated like i don't know what i'm talking about i fucking doubt it
oh u really thought u figured me out?
now i'm surrounded by the ones i love so how come it don't feel like they love me
love isn't more than a ceiling above me
i am not keeping a record but i've been ahead of the game for a minute
seep in the gutter i'm pulling u under i said would stop but i didn't
nowhere left to live u can take me out
will u make songs about me even when i'm not around?
all the stars look at me asking why i'm never keeping count

darker days.(prod. blade901)

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