lyrics:

why do i keep coming back to this?
it's like a book I can't quite figure out
so I read it in pieces
sometimes it hurts
gotta set it down for a bit
but I always come back to this

why do I keep running into this?
every time I make a wrong turn
I end up on your doorstep
sometimes it hurts
gotta step away for a bit
but I always come back to this

I always come back to this

and maybe I'm stupid
for thinking the world might end
and maybe I'm stupid
for thinking you'd be with me when it did
and maybe you'd be better off
if you never saw me again
again

but god damn I keep coming back to this
I've tried to understand
but I can't make it make sense
maybe its time to just
kind of go with it

cause even if it's not now
I will end up here somehow
it's physics or it's fate and I can't stop it
I always come back to this
I always come back to this

physics or fate (voice memo)

lyrics:

it's not a competition
but maybe it is
and I think I'll win when you least expect it
slip off your socks and then
take her to bed
I will show up when you least expect it

I always do

but I think I found someone to buffer the pain
I think I found what you have in your veins
so I'll never lose
and it's never true
I lie every day
but I will always hate losing to you

it's not a competition
but I moved on first
and you must have something to say about it
tell all your friends that I hurt you worse
cause you know I'll have something to say about it

I always do

but I think I found someone to buffer the pain
I think I found what you have in your veins
so I'll never lose
and it's never true
I lie every day
but I will always hate losing to you

I thought I found someone to buffer the pain
but it didn't last and it wasn't the same
still I'll never lose
but he's never you
I lie every day

I thought I found someone, or that's just what I say
to help keep the devil and his dogs away
it's an ego thing, true
but it's time you knew
I die every day
cause I will always wait for you

it's not a competition (voice memo)

idea kava

Finish Line

Lyrics:
I’ve been missing appointments
And birthdays and sun sets
I’ve been watching too many movies
That do not pass the Bechdel test
And that makes me feel
Like I am a bad feminist
But I pirate them
So that makes it better, I guess

I’ve been trying to soul-search
And write more and destress
I’ve been clinging to hope
Like a guard rail, like a life vest
And I’ve been asking everyone,
“How long do you think the ache will last?”
They don’t know yet

Can something be prescribed to me?
I don’t like getting high but there’s
A game of operation in my skull
The bittersweet, the apathy
The backup plans, and stolen dreams
I’m trying to see the genius of it all

I’ve been losing my balance
My cellphone, and good sleep
I’ve been googling
“The best manifestation techniques”
And I’ve been taking quizzes
Based in pop psychology
And they’re always a letdown
But I’ve never been easy to please

I’m steeping in anxiety
I’m teetering on the tightrope
And I’m waiting for the moment when I’ll fall
The bittersweet, the apathy
The backup plans, and stolen dreams
I’m trying to see the genius of it all
I’m trying to see the genius of it all
I’m trying to see the genius of it all

But I’ve been missing appointments
And birthdays and sun sets
I’ve been watching too many movies

Bechdel Test

Down 1

This song is about communication and all of it being one-sided asking for basic wants  and wanting to meet in the middle. Feeling stuck, feeling angry, but still feeling in love.

Tell me

Come home

piano by Taylor Mackall
mixed & mastered by Eric Ruscinski
photo by Neema Sadeghi

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