wilting in vain

I add tracks everyday,
enjoy the late night sad vibes </3

POV: I Wish My Life Stopped

🌧⚡🌌storm clouds n blue skys🌌⚡🌧

The Upload

Scarlet Spider Lilies

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Underground

prod. me

lyrics

im like whered u go
i see footprints in the snow
i do not know what to do
to prevent me from being alone

every word that i say
just seems to drive you away
ignoring my texts on your phone
so i guess ill just rot in my home

drinking away my feelings
directing my eyes to the ceiling
as they roll back in my head
hear you utter some words so revealing

you say you never loved me
thats okay neither did i
you look at me, starting to cry
i look down, i cant meet your eyes

dont take it so personally

where'd u go? (sampleix)

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Addictions/Nothing +Cypression (Metlast)

@qawikamri
@psychoticprophet

Lyrics:-
QAWI KAMRI
imma laz' round, lets kick back
imma beat it off on my big mac
i'd be aiming forward no zigzag
she gon' steal my heart imma take it back

send a text, she ignored
imma die all alone
how dafuq 
u threw it all
i dont want it
anymore 

'i' come first, you'd be after like carly
where's the type of bro thats loyal like marley
2 face bih they'd be thinking they miley
she just wants to blow up my brain riley

sleeping with the lights on
a text with no reply oh
happens all the time thou
shit gon' make me psycho

SWANZ
she gon' make my psycho, shoot me with a  malfoy
got me writing haiku, feels like in hokkaido
got no baked cheese tart, i guess that's okay
take it all off now, bae is that okay?

radio is stereo like house aint even called a home
push me like i'm dominos, cos you're lactose intolerant
u said "wont you let it go?", i said "you're a frozen hoe"
i cant deal with you, got my hands i'm going solo 

she be sending K's with the dot, high power
used to wanna hang, but you're now a wallflower
you were such a saccharine, i might just go diabetic
risked my life for you, damn, i feel so pathetic

BIG MAC (feat. Swanz)

Wanted (Prod Splashgvng)
Key A Major
Bpm 100

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Wanted

btw i know the cover doesn't show a blue moon

blue moon ブルームーン

u make me happy like no one else can

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suffer in silence w/hazenova (prod. smokerose & iof)

all I had left 

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all i had left (feat. kais)

Maxed Out

boiscry - Maxed Out(prod.starboyrob)

BLIND

She Likes Girls (Prod Splashgvng & King Theta)
Key F Major
Bpm 170

Guitar written & performed by King Theta 🎸
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She Likes Girls

blackout

Thank you Hk <3
Cover art: @pytn.d on instagram

Lyrics- 

I don't really care
you were never there
Said you had my back
you just never cared
Said I never loved but that shit ain't fair

claiming that you love me but you don't mean shit 
Claiming that you had me but you never did yeah x2
Always wanted somewhere there but you pushed me away
You want me in your bed but I don't want to stay x2

pretty heartbroken


You hit my line,
We're just wasting time
Always on your phone, 
You were never mine
Talking bout your ex almost all the time,
Yeah talking bout your ex he was on your mind

ON SPOTIFY <3

I waited on you, you never came. (Prod. HKfiftyone)

Prod: @d_e_a_t_h
Sample from @man_huh
Art: @sleepyboyhomeless
_____________________________
LYRICS
[HOOK]
I got a problem
I don't even know if I can solve it 
Sleepin through the weekend 
Passing out unconscious 
Pop it then I'm off it 
On another planet 
Take me from reality coz 
I can barely stand it 

[VERSE]
Fire pits and ash trays, feelings of inadequacy 
Burn up all the furniture coz none of that shit mattered to me 
None of that shit matters in the end
When you're living in the moment you don't think about regret 

You don't think of consequences when your life's a fucking pity party. 
I could pick apart the fucking fact I had a shitty heart
Shitty start to life, a broken family with a shitty car
I guess you took my mind off all my problems

I would sit and talk, and turn the minutes into hours 
You'd just sit and smile at me like all we had was time 
I regret the fact I never understood the concept 
Wish I had your picture coz you're fading from my mind. 

Look at what this pain can do to us(x2)

[HOOK](x2)
I got a problem
I don't even know if I can solve it 
Sleepin through the weekend 
Passing out unconscious 
Pop it then I'm off it 
On another planet 
Take me from reality coz 
I can barely stand it

Look at what this pain can do to us

IN LOVING MEMORY

COPING MECHANISMS

coping mechanisms (Prod. lildeath)

#respectwomen

My New Track Called "Selfish" Featuring Shiloh Produced by Beatz Era.

Selfish Feat. Shiloh Dynasty (Prod. Beatz Era)

thank you @cozyboycries for letting me remix this already amazing song <333 had a lot of fun making this :) btw kid friendly title haha

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cøzybøy - i swear this søng is abøut eating my best friend’s cøøkie (hateful remix)

Lyrics: 
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends

wipe my tears cause I gotta get the cash now
no more fears but I feel it when the lights out 
world so cold it’s like I’m living in the arctic
so unknown sometimes I feel like I’m arson
tell me that you hate me tell me that you loathe me
tell me that I ain’t shit tell me that I’m nothing
heart filled with emotions can't share em with no one
yeah that's why I numb the pain with all these drugs and potions 
tell me that you hate me tell me that you loathe me
tell me that I ain’t shit tell me that I’m nothing
heart filled with emotions can't share em with no one
yeah that's why I numb the pain with all these drugs and potions

I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends

all the shit I done and all the things I seen
made me build a wall to block my memories
yeah, these drugs they got me falling like some leaves
need some novocaine but it ain’t for my teeth
I been fighting all these demons in my sleep
yeah, I’m faded yeah, I’m faded off the lean
don't give a fuck if I don't wake up from this dream
pass me a rope so I can leave reality

I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends

The Pain That Never Ends

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finding it hard to smile

maybe, i'm afraid

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i think i'm done with you.

Baby all up in my face like what/
Wanna pick a fight I dont even wanna start/
Taking all the shots and Im feeling like whats up/ 
You dont know the half of it you never hear me out/

And I-I-I/
Never feel ali-i-ive/
And you always hi-i-igh/
Taken to the si-i-ide/

Rollin on keep rollin on keep figuring it out/
Feeling like im peaking but its really just enough/
You be all up in my mind just lingering it up/
Talking to myself about these feelings and this love/

And I know you feel alone and you’ve been it all day/ hate it like that so you call me like ey/
Prolly gon die if I feel this everyday/ 
Baby why you sad cause Im feeling what you say like/

Loooow life I know you feeling bad/ 
you dont gotta die cause you never take it back/
I dont want a funeral and no one ever had/
Baby keep on struggling and shit will always pass/

I-I dont want to be alone/
Can you please just try/
Cause I need you in my zone/

Baby all up in my face like what/
Wanna pick a fight I dont even wanna start/
Taking all the shots and Im feeling like whats up/ 
You dont know the half of it you never hear me out/

And I-I-I/
Never feel ali-i-ive/
And you always hi-i-igh/
Taken to the si-i-ide/

Why you on my mind like never been before/
I just need some time, I really need to know/
Really wanna play, fucking with my soul/
Tired of this game and everything you know like/

Why you never wanna ride with me/
All you wanna do is getting high with me/
Feeling like you never wanna set me free/
Baby why you making it so hard to breathe/

Im falling down/
And I cant really help it/
No I cant really help it/

You’re all I want/
But I cant really save you/
No I cant really save you/

Baby all up in my face like what/
Wanna pick a fight I dont even wanna start/
Taking all the shots and Im feeling like whats up/ 
You dont know the half of it you never hear me out/

And I-I-I/
Never feel ali-i-ive/
And you always hi-i-igh/
Taken to the si-i-ide/

alive

this song hurts a lot for me, but i hope you guys can find something beautiful in it.

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well I've got a ghost
running through my head
that used to be a girl
laying in my bed

don't want the ones that want me
and the ones I want 
leave my heart a mess

so I'm all alone
feeling cold as hell
asking why oh why
I do this to myself

I just wan feel something
but if feels like I don't have much left

I've got a mind full of bad things
but good intentions like an angel with some bat wings

and I'm fine if you ask me
but I'm still running from my problems like a track meet

and I don't know why
I don't want you
or why I want her 
when she don't want me to

and they say love hurts
I guess that much true
cause now we both choked up
lips are turning blue

tell me what is coming next
I can't handle all this stress
got me always second guess - in

what's been running through your head
all I know is your upset
from the tension when we texting

I can never rest in
peace
I can never rest in
peace
I can never rest in
peace
I can never rest in, I can never rest in
x2

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r.i.p

my mind is clear and i know what i wanna do <3

✨ Polar ✨
💎 @polar333 💎
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lyrics:
i dont wanna fight no more
i dont wanna lie no more
i dont wanna hide no more
i dont wanna try no more
i dont wanna fight, i dont wanna lie
i dont wanna hide, i dont wanna try
i dont wanna fight, i dont wanna lie
i dont wanna hide, we do this all the time

i dont wanna fight no more
i dont wanna lie no more
i dont wanna hide no more
i dont wanna try no more
saw you in the rain it pours
called you on the phone ignored
keep on coming back for more
i dont wanna do this anymore

i dont wanna fight with you 
you ride with me 
i lie to you you lie to me
its hard for you its hard for me
i dont see how we could be dont talk to me
all that you tell me is lies
wasting my time sipping white whine
crushing up lines thats out of line
dont hit my line
love you for life but i wanna die

i dont wanna fight, i dont wanna lie
i dont wanna hide, i dont wanna try
i dont wanna fight, i dont wanna lie
i dont wanna hide, we do this all the time

i dont wanna fight no more
i dont wanna lie no more
i dont wanna hide no more
i dont wanna try no more
saw you in the rain it pours
called you on the phone ignored
keep on coming back for more
i dont wanna do this anymore

why cant i trust no one close to you
lies spread on your doorstep enough for 2
come back when you want have no heart in you
i took the abuse getting over the truth

stream ❄️

i jumped head first into evil (prod. charlie shuffler)

Teenage Rage

TEENAGE RAGE

lyrics:

we should get together not no coffee
I guess I jus gotta say im sorry
I could see I know u getting salty
all the shit im thinkin sort of harm me
all this shit I know n im still comin to the party

I pop out emotion n u rob me
lay me down n do not do it softly
we should get together not no coffee
I guess I jus gotta say im sorry
I could see I know u getting salty
all the shit im thinkin sort of harm me
all this shit I know n im still comin to the party

she got the lime out with bacardi
fail to put it down she sip it up like it was barley
I know he don't like me I know he about to mark me
I could barely care n when I do I stress it hardly
I walk in the door I got the bands out
gucci louis fendi I wont hesitate to ball out
came thru in a foreign glossy brown that bitch in park now
ion like attention only comin if its dark out

only comin if its dark out
I jus killed the roach I hit the snow n put the spark out
when im on my own it seem that non this shit is hard now
I jus put some percs inside my drink n now im far out

took a lot to recharge me
I pop out emotion n u rob me
lay me down n do not do it softly
we should get together not no coffee
I guess I jus gotta say im sorry
I could see I know u getting salty
all the shit im thinkin sort of harm me
all this shit I know n im still comin to the party

took a lot to recharge me
I pop out emotion n u rob me
lay me down n do not do it softly
we should get together not no coffee
I guess I jus gotta say im sorry
I could see I know u getting salty
all the shit im thinkin sort of harm me
all this shit I know n im still comin to the party

she got the lime out with bacardi
fail to put it down she sip it up like it was barley
I know he don't like me I know he about to mark me
I could barely care n when I do I stress it hardly
I walk in the door I got the bands out
gucci louis fendi I wont hesitate to ball out
came thru in a foreign glossy brown that bitch in park now
ion like attention only comin if its dark out

rsvp (jabarionthebeat)

lyrics:

ok got a vixen in the backseat
220 on the dash like can u catch me
if she post a picture dont attach me
dis shit gon turn right into a taxi
mix the drank up wit the kush and now im sideways
i poke her on the velvet down at my space
think i smoke too much my mouth had had a dry taste
baby take a sip of this and tell me how the lime taste

can u feel it when i press up on ur body
feel the pills had resurrect me like a zombie
shopping tom ford from shopping abercrombie
flying private shit from flying in economy
i put all the petty shit behind me
if u got a problem then u know jus where to find me
in the y in the king street lobby
ion got a puck but i been icing like its hockey

one bloor in a penthouse room
i just look out onto yonge and see the view
i guess all these wishes coming true
i just hope this life had come with u girl
diamonds on my neck look like a pool
got so many cards in here this shit look like a duel
got so many cars in here this shit look like a dealership
i been burnin rubber u would think i work at michelin

i see the fireworks lightning up the back of my house
i look like a pipe burst dripped up right to the mouth
she can see im on and now she always tryna up and go out
ion think the line work i hang up the phone and put it down
i cant find the right words i think im too faded for the evening
ion even like percs still i take a half and now im cheesing
pale matte lime vert i just hit my exit and im speeding
u aint even die first how u tellin me what to believe in

ok got a vixen in the backseat
220 on the dash like can u catch me
if she post a picture dont attach me
dis shit gon turn right into a taxi
mix the drank up wit the kush and now im sideways
i poke her on the velvet down at my space
think i smoke too much my mouth had had a dry taste
baby take a sip of this and tell me how the lime taste

ok got a vixen in the backseat
220 on the dash like can u catch me
if she post a picture dont attach me
dis shit gon turn right into a taxi
mix the drank up wit the kush and now im sideways
i poke her on the velvet down at my space
think i smoke too much my mouth had had a dry taste
baby take a sip of this and tell me how the lime taste

220 (vitals x jabarionthebeat)

lyrics:

xo got me loosened 
baby watchu doin
i got some opps thats viewing
i gotta keep it movin
drop a blue in
and now my vision zoomin
when she going thru it
i gotta keep it movin

im too cold in this bitch
i set the tone in this bitch
i got a 750 special of patrón in this bitch
im poppin percs in this shit
whats going on in this bitch
she started singing 40 minutes going long in this bitch
im blowin bands on my shit
its green and red on the stitch
i got a royal oak piguet with two tones on my wrist
designer boxers tom ford leopard printed silk on my dick
i worked too hard to go ahead with staying humble bout this shit

im in the back of the party baby im barely alive
i know i shouldve of made it but fuck it im loving the vibe
trashin the back of the lamb im takin this shit for a ride
i did u wrong and im sorry but i cant let go of my pride
its tragic
im pullin up and the doors open up when they fly up the side
its magic
ion like photos but she takin these shots of my shit when i drive
its candid
dont try to play my baby i know it the second u lie
its tactics
ill never be gone and my shit gon live on from the second i die

im too cold in this bitch
i set the tone in this bitch
i got a 750 special of patrón in this bitch
im poppin percs in this shit
whats going on in this bitch
she started singing 40 minutes going long in this bitch
im blowin bands on my shit
its green and red on the stitch
i got a royal oak piguet with two tones on my wrist
designer boxers tom ford leopard printed silk on my dick
i worked too hard to go ahead with staying humble bout this shit

humble (vitals x jabarionthebeat)

listen now on spotify!
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BVG - i'm still in love with you (feat. joshua Grey)(NOW ON SPOTIFY!)

"𝕤𝕒𝕨 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕘𝕣𝕖𝕖𝕟 𝕚𝕣𝕚𝕤 𝕞𝕪 𝕗𝕖𝕒𝕣𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕪 𝕝𝕒𝕪 𝕕𝕣𝕠𝕨𝕟𝕖𝕕"

[chorus]
baby I want you I know that 
I cannot keep my composure 
I really hope there's no closure
i'm anxious as fuck
and i'm falling in love for the first time
lips pursed up against mine
I really want you girl searched all around 
saw that green iris my fears they lay drowned
happiness up in your arms I have found

[verse 1]
I knew from the start
shes like a fine piece of art
staring for hours my heart blossoms.  
flowers them tulips I miss its the truth that
fate has decided our two paths
collide I decide that no matter the weather
i'll be there forever them bad storms ahead 
baby ill be your shelter

[bridge]
I would of never thought that 
I would of find a love that
fits me well and just keeps me distracted
don't wanna fall out when
anxious when shes around him
but i shouldn't worry my mind is abstracted

[chorus]
baby I want you I know that 
I cannot keep my composure 
I really hope there's no closure
i'm anxious as fuck
and falling in love for the first time
lips pursed up against mine
I really want you girl searched all around 
saw that green iris my fears they lay drowned
happiness up in your arms I have found

[verse 2]
up on my phone again i'm missing the sound of your tone again
i'm deathly afraid of attachment
but baby you're perfect i'm latching onto you attracted
no doubt that this ain't just lust
my heart feels like it will combust
if i do not see you I really do need you
I'm sorry if you cannot trust that
baby im wanting your love that
makes me feel some sort of rush 
if this is so perfect it makes me feel worth it
im missing you baby come back fast

Shelter [prod. CapsCtrl]

prod. @swainbeats

i am pretty sure that you dont know what is best for me
i been lying in my bed until my muscles atrophy
im so stressed that im calm like im on benzodiazepines
and feeling like im rolling what comes from the trees

i dont know if i know what for
i been lying on my bed, then im sleeping on the floor
like im passed out on my brothers back porch
like you gotta drag me in through the back door

(im feeling better than ive ever felt before)

spending money that i dont have for the fucking rush
i cant help but get this feeling that im always fucking up
i know its wrong i know that i am good enough
can someone please just tell my brain to shut up

my head hurts please get me acetaminophen
i wake up look outside my window hear the birds sing
its kind of warm out, maybe 24 out 
im feeling better with the weather maybe its spring

im feeling better than ive ever felt before
im feeling better than ive ever felt before
im feeling better than ive ever felt before
im feeling better than ive ever felt before

i'm feeling better

i'm feeling better (swain)

(prod. reytee)
https://soundcloud.com/reytee

Lifes not fair,
I drawn the short straw.
Goodbye then,
Wtf am I crying.

Going on a lonely walk 
Cause I don't wanna talk 
Got my pumpkin spiced latte
Just got it from Starbucks

Comfy in my coat and my gloves 
Comfy in my coat and my gloves 

Comfy in my coat and my gloves
With my thoughts.
Tricking me, and my own feelings 
Hurting me, seems quite appealing

But I know that's fuck'ed up.

Lifes not fair,
I drawn the short straw.
Goodbye then,
Wtf am I crying.

comfy [reytee]

prod. capsctrl

sorry that it's so poorly mixed 

lyrics:

i'm fucking ugly
sit in blurry nights now
i hate my mirror so i shower with the lights out
i hate the view when i open my eyelids
it's raining out i'll just go and listen to the sky spit

idk why you want me
i look like a monster or something ungodly
without a filter a filter on my face i wanna throw up
screaming in a mic think i'm gonna get my throat fucked


i think you should hate me
idk why you wanna date me
you're crazy i've been feeling kinda shitty lately
baby i know you don't wanna be my baby
maybe if i were you i know that i would hate me

i'm fucking ugly
sit in blurry nights now
i hate my mirror so i shower with the lights out
i hate the view when i open my eyelids
it's raining out i'll just go and listen to the sky spit

ugly

ugly (capsctrl)

produced by 
hisohkah (https://soundcloud.com/hisohkah), 
ahnboi (https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCp4CBKvTGOkL0tGxl67-QUg), 
and myself