Hate Me

H3LLO

made this like 5 mins ago lolo

I feel embarrassed 
so I’m gonna share it
cause I’m a coward
of course the troll won’t go down alone 
can I watch your dog today 
helps me not overdose 


all the cashiers in town 
know my government name
it’s a sign of times
ive lived here too long to change 
wish i could go awat
find a new place to rain 
Sink into my couch
eat pizza and complain 

—-
made my mom a promise 
I’ll finish what I started 
but bpd and ad/hd
keep me from that Mantra 

they said to write your songs 
as if no one would will see
while better versions of myself
Invade my privacy//

I wish I wasn’t scared to kill myself
or go to hell.
the best day ever might of passed me by but I couldn’t tell.
If I’m gonna be a victim 
I wanna make sure that I bleed.
If I’m gonna spread my wisdom 
then I wanna eat the seeds//

the worst song ever

orphan//

Light in the sky I see the wings shimmer down
Stay for a moment please i need your touch right now
im sorry you can leave 
im sorry if i flinch it stings
I asked the void if what you said meant something

Am I wrong cause you can tell me right 
I know at night baby ill cross your mind
Kiss him with an open eye
But baby I promise you can take your time
Open source fantasize
I hope The city always treats you right
I know you’re paralyzed to see me 
cause you've always been scared to fly

Wings in the night time
A shadow
That night we ran away from fire
You told me it's all right
I smiled
When I went in for the kiss that night
I was terrified
When I saw you come into my sight
I'm terrified


Am I wrong cause you can tell me right 
I know at night baby ill cross your mind
Kiss him with an open eye
But baby I promise you can take your time
You’re welcome to fantasize about it
I hope The city always treats you right
I know you’re paralyzed to see me 
Cause you've always been scared to fly

produced by kimJ ++ 2

super soon

i've gotta go (prod. samsdiary)

i hate the music community but i love her

Lyrics -

Some say its worth it
But I know I’m fucked up inside

(I would like to pretend baby)
(You and me in the end baby)

Some think they’re perfect
Bur fuck ‘em all cuz everybody dies

(I would like to pretend baby)

And we pretend we wont die at all

October nights
You and I
We don’t have to fantasize
My love for you never dies
The obsession only multiplies

I would kill to keep you alive girl
I would kill to just see your eyes tonight

(I would like to pretend baby)
(You and me in the end baby)

Find your substance
Call your friends
Feel alone
When the party ends

I don’t party enough
I should start again
In the studio
I’m goin’ hard again

I feel a thousand miles away from my baby
I feel like I just might go crazy girl

That’s how you make me girl,
I love you.

Some say were fuck ups
And I agree with ‘em
I hate everyone around
But when I leave I’m gon miss ‘em
Some of us got habits
One day we gon kick ‘em
Your problems are my problems
So baby I’m gon fix ‘em

Some say they’ll never change,
Watched them all fade away.

I lost it all.
Baby I lost it all, hope you stay.

(I would like to pretend baby)
(You and me in the end baby)

Some say its worth it
But I know I’m fucked up inside

(I would like to pretend baby)
(You and me in the end baby)

Some think they’re perfect
Bur fuck ‘em all cuz everybody dies

(I would like to pretend baby)

And we pretend we wont die at all

October nights
You and I
We don’t have to fantasize
My love for you never dies
The obsession only multiplies

I would kill to keep you alive girl
I would kill to just see your eyes tonight

(I would like to pretend baby)
(You and me in the end baby)

to pretend // october nights (p. matt bartkus)

Vacant [Feat. IKTL]

prod. alvx

i feel like she tryna tease me
i been on them drugs, i get more biweekly
she loving the crew, wanna stay for the week but
i might have to go i got a flight overseas and
i got me a brand new bitch, new season
codeine in the vitamin water, hydrate, leanin
tight bitch, tight fit, slim waist, gleaming
doing 100 i'm on E driving and i'm swerving
we been popping bottles give a fuck if we deserve it
she look like a model that's the bitch i might devour
i just popped a percocet i'm fuckin for an hour
purple in the cup i feel like representing texas
i'm knowing the hoe a slut and i aint even press it
i'm knowing that she a slut and i aint learn my lesson
and yo hoe up on my body tryna fuckn stretch it
she on xanny she think xanny saving her depression

she on xanny she think xanny saving her depression
she on xanny 
she on xanny she think xanny-

i do it all for you i do it all
i'd do it all for you
i'll do it all

and i'm always on the drugs i get more biweekly
i got me a brand new bitch, new season
i got me a brand new heartbreak reason
love not what you think it is i know love nothing but a game
all i do is reminisce all i ever do is think about you baby
do you think about me and you do you think about me and you i wonder
think about me and you are you thinking about me and you i wonder

(tight fit, tight bitch, slim waist, gleaming
doing 100 i'm on E driving and i'm swerving
tight fit, tight bitch, slim waist, gleaming
doing 100 i'm on E driving and i'm swerving

i feel like she tryna tease me
i been on them drugs, i get more biweekly
she loving the crew, wanna stay for the week but
i might have to go i got a flight overseas and
i got me a brand new bitch, new season
codeine in the vitamin water, hydrate, leanin
tight bitch, tight fit, slim waist, gleaming
doing 100 i'm on E driving and i'm swerving
we been popping bottles give a fuck if we deserve it
she look like a model that's the bitch i might devour
i just popped a percocet i'm fuckin for an hour
purple in the cup i feel like representing texas
i'm knowing the hoe a slut and i aint even press it
i'm knowing that she a slut and i aint learn my lesson
and yo hoe up on my body tryna fuckn stretch it
she on xanny she think xanny saving her depression

texas

PIXELATED KISSES

PIXELATED KISSES (Remix)

i dont wanna waste my time

Mgmt: samsdiaryofficialmusic@gmail.com
Self produced 

if I left what would you say out now!!

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