back to square one

thanks to @ryanbeatsnvibes for letting me record over his track, Away
( which you can find here: https://soundcloud.com/ryanbeatsnvibes/away )
and hella love for the ever amazing @furino, who mixed and mastered this.

--- update & lyrics ---

I'm back and I'm better (mentally, hoping it lasts!)
Just a heads up you guys, I'm not agreeing to any new collabs until after my EP release next month. I'm in the process of applying to universities and preparing documentation as well as getting back into the swing of coursework and such. Basically, it's a busy time, and I need to focus on myself and my education, which is at the forefront of my mind until I graduate. I want to go to some high up places, and that means hard work. I will still be making music throughout - it's something I love and something I could never stop doing, even if I tried, but I'm being very selective with things I am committed to. Thank you for understanding and all the continued support and love these days. I really need it. x

--- lyrics ---

I wake up
you’re not here
not a sound in the house
but my fear 
it lingers on the staircase
it looms where you were once there
my room is but a cold space
there’s liquor in my hair 

I thought I had you figured out 
I’m hoping that I’m smarter now
I thought I had you

the night comes burning
afterthoughts and visions blurring
oh how the tables are turning now

broken bottles all around
your mouth moves but there's no sound
you said you wanted me around 
but now you’re nowhere to be found 

you said you wanted me

I thought I had you figured out 
I’m hoping that I’m smarter now
I thought I had you 

I know it’s for the best
you never give me rest 
you live inside my chest 
you live inside my chest

you live inside my chest [prod. not.me]

original song by the god joji @chloeburbank

i got the instrumental from here check it out !!!
www.youtube.com/watch?v=wQDmQWcyQYc

Will He Cover

angsty tunes from your friendly neighbourhood recluse
prod. @sadstaction

buy on bandcamp

ghosting

find something to do (prod. tomppaisnothere)

the only exception

Summer Ends

Was very torn about how to classify this. I recorded it on my laptop, so is it lofi? Is it singer-songwriter? Whatever it may be, I hope you enjoy it. <3 Coming to Spotify and other platforms soon~

vocals, lyrics, & piano: me

lyrics ~
i wrote about a ghost
shes walking through me now
oh she's free
in a way i long to be

i want to hold the stars
i want to dive through the earth
i wanna feel God
but watch Him from afar

i wrote about a ghost
she's amazed by every angel
but she's free
in a way they long to be

shes not divine but 
she has an easy heart
so danger follows her
but shes never not in love

i wrote about a ghost
she's found every secret galaxy
oh she's free
in a way i long to be

cos i'm stuck trying to learn
to love again
i'm open but there's no warm feeling 
is coming in

i must be a ghost
I haunt my empty home
i'm imprisoned
by my body, soul, and spirit

so I wrote about a ghost
who is free and can be anything she wants to be

my sweet loving ghost

loving ghost

i didn't make the piano loop (i wish)i made the rest tho
heres the piano: https://www.looperman.com/loops/detail/131157/rainy-days-60bpm-hip-hop-piano-loop

stormy_nights (ALBUM APRIL 3RD)

it's you.

･ﾟ✧ first single of the summer ･ﾟ✧
produced, mixed and mastered by @hakaisu ❀

the only exception

sam the psychic