i keep going back to that moment in the icu

Diane are you there i need you

Gospel of John Chapter 8

my best friend Michael his dad was a big drinker so he hated all that stuff

"what if the only way not to feel bad is to stop feeling anything at all forever."

i wanna stop please please please

so the thing i keep thinking about is

which way does the tree fall?

there's nothing to talk about come on you must have something to say to me

"you told me to go away"

I dont wanna live in a hole anymore