Hyperpop Antidepressant 💊

✱ track 6

mastered by @dossyx
backing vocals by @t0rr, @daywaiter, & @can-of-bliss
shoutout renner for the audio clips & cooper for the voicemail at the end

~~lyrics~~
to a better half:
(are those the words we used?)
you want a better start
but you know i love to lose
through the bitterness
you know you always win
you want a better part
but it's just like you said -

i wanna be just like you
i wanna be just like you
i wanna dress like you
i wanna act like you do

i see you in my dreams now
but usually you're just hanging around
a couple of times i think we made out
but we've never been in this house

"if it feels good, it doesn't mean that it's good"
is a lesson i learned and then misunderstood
so if it feels good, it doesn't mean that it's good
i heard it, i heard it, i wanna be just like you

i wanna be just like you
i wanna be just like you
i wanna trust like you
i wanna love like you do

i wanna be just like you
i wanna be just like you
i wanna trust like you
i wanna love like you do

i wanna be just like, just like, just like
i wanna be just like, just like, just like
i wanna be just like, just like, just like
i wanna be just like, just like, just like

everything✱

just like you

✱ track 2

~~lyrics~~
(i'm somewhere else)
find the portal, make an entrance
scratch the surface of something different
decide you hate it, know it hates you
let it bury, let it break you

life's an empty hallway
lungs feel empty always
stuff it in the crawlspace
treat it like a mistake

crush the pieces even smaller
cut the loose ends, block the caller
love the horror, burn the altar
wake up six feet underwater

"you're just fucked up like your father
you can't focus any longer"
discomposure ever present
it'll kill you if you let it

find the portal, make an entrance
scratch the surface of something different
decide you hate it, know it hates you
let it bury, let it break you

portal

✱ track 9

coprod @can-of-bliss

~~lyrics~~
everything you said, everything you did
brought the shit back up from when we were kids
brush it off i guess, said "it's not that bad.
can't we be best friends? cmon, don't be sad
for yourself or mad at yourself
don't think too hard cause it's bad for your health"
but you said "it's different now"
cause you got a new crowd
and they're all too young to be calling shit out

i don't wanna freak out again
i live in the real world, i guess
i live in the real world, i guess

honestly i'm disappointed
but i'm not tryna shut you down
you didn't hear a thing that i said
not that it really matters now
we're all adults, i guess
i don't wanna hear you cry again
i don't wanna hear you cry again

oh our words hurt?
how does it feel on the other side?
don't you hear yourself talk?
don't you hear yourself lie?

but you said "it's different now"
cause you got a new crowd
and they're all too young to be calling shit out
yeah it's pretty different now
cause we made a new crowd
and we all found out you were bringing us down

no more, i wanna see you at the front door
no more, i wanna see you at the front door
no more, i wanna see you at the front door
no more, i wanna see you at the front door

you're fucked up if you think i wanna do this
i mean, i know we had to, but it feels like shit
i'm not the one you wanna hurt so bad
i'm not just "them", i'm not "some fag"
i had your back, didn't have to do that
when it comes down to it i don't owe you shit
brush it off i guess, said "it's not that bad
can't we be best friends, cmon, don't be sad"

no more, i wanna see you at the front door
no more, i wanna see you at the front door

no more, i wanna see you at the front door
no more, i wanna see you at the front door

honestly i'm disappointed
but i'm not tryna shut you down
you didn't hear a thing that i said
not that it really matters now

no more, i wanna see you at the front door
no more, i wanna see you at the front door

nomore

9 of 10

cowritten by & featuring @cmten
mastered by Ryan Schwabe
art designed + edited by @daywaiter
original photo + concept by mars whitlock & me

~~lyrics~~

(sd)
Acting out of malice
Circle pain on the diagram
Keep it steady, cut precision from my shaky hands
I'm so caught up between what I want and who I am
You only reach out at your weakest

And I do it right back back back back back
And I do it right back back back back back
Let it circle in my head head head head head
Burn a hole into my bed bed bed bed bed
And I do it right back back back back back
And I do it right back back back back back
Let it circle in my head head head head head
Burn a hole into my bed bed bed bed bed

I think I found what you were looking for
I won't give it back until you learn to use the magic word
If you're fucking with me then I just gotta be sure
And if it's really honesty then stop faking concern
Water down the drain until I'm clean
I create the image of myself I let you see
The things that make you pretty never look as good on me
Me my eyes and eyelids are all different shades of green

And I do it right back back back back back
And I do it right back back back back back
Let it circle in my head head head head head
Burn a hole into my bed bed bed bed bed

And I do it right back
And I do it right back
Let it circle in my head (Let it circle in my, and it circles in my head)
Burn a hole into my bed (And it circles in my head head head head head yeah)

(cmten)
Downing the drink that you made for me
Carve a space in the walls so that I can see
I can barely breathe, I can barely breathe
When you’re not with me, when you’re not with me
Sometimes takes a little more to come apart
Waiting for you to come back in the dark now
Sometimes waiting all alone at the bus stop
I don’t really give a fuck about what you want now
Bout what you want now
Bout what you need now
Bout what we had, 2am and I’m homebound
Kissing your neck, I forget all the past
Til I stand up too fast and I do it right back

(sd)
And I do it right back back back back back
And I do it right back back back back back
Let it circle in my head head head head head
Burn a hole into my bed bed bed bed bed
And I do it right

star★☆

doitrightback

log 4;
I've been active online lately! I have been on discord and a couple of people were confused about my living space. I live under a small makeshift tent. I have a solar bank that I use to charge a laptop but I do not have wifi or any other utilities. I found an abandoned upright piano and set up my base around that. I post whenever I go into town, which is more or less whenever I get hungry or need to mail something. Lately, there have been more industrial projects venturing into the natural beauty of the woods so I've been sending more letters than usual. Also from discord, some of you seem to think I've been displaced. While I appreciate the concern, this is how I choose to live my life and I do not intend to move into a more modern way of living at any point. I love reading your questions though! Please feel free to contact me at woodlands#1302. It gets lonely out here!
Vox by Underscores and 8485

this could go two ways

rise up! o mother of all pains

lyrics:

~ verse 1 ~
pressure building spitting steam from the vents
you caught me in the middle of a fix of the lens
the portrait on the wall will show you what you protect
ironically you are the very lord you resent
tell me again about your mountain of men
i heard a little rumor you belittle your friends
i heard that every soul can lose a chance to repent
admonish me again and ill make war for the spent

~ chorus ~
my head is spinning
im moving sideways 
no chance of winning
its just like always 
the sky is all grey 
torment of all days
cant eat cant sleep cant just stop thinking bout it

my heart is lost now
so much for trying
given up hope now
reign on you tyrant
rusted my lifeline
no use in crying 
cant bleed cant sleep cant just stop thinking bout it

~ verse 2 ~
Rise up! 
O mother of all pains 
to the altar of my verses!
no god 
or hell can make up 
the pitiful misery you wrought thee 

[chorus]

~ verse 3 ~

pressure spent look at the mess you created
when all is said and done theyll only groan at your name 
no pride behind a legend full of nothing but shame
100 years of silence broken only in vain 

[chorus x2]

wand of tens

just getting started

featuring:
@st1cksyea
@trndytrndy
@can-of-bliss

produced by:
@can-of-bliss

are you mad

production & vocals by me

made in one day for the shell corpus hq "sample this sunday" beat battle, prompt was to use the amen break

lyrics:
Yeah, so.. i don't know
I was just, like, walking outside and someone just came up to me and said that shit
I don't know, it was just so weird
Like, i don't know, i think my music’s okay
Like, what the fuck was that about? like..

I was walking out today, someone came right up to me
They said “how’s it going jane? yeah, your music sounds like shit” (the fuck?)
I said “what i need to do?”, they said i need to add this break
So i walked all the way home and went straight to my pc

I wanna make some music that sounds like me
I can’t think of what i need to add to it
I wanna make it groovier and sound pretty
I can’t think of what i need to add to-

So i walked all the way home and i talked to my best friend
She said this:
“You should put that one break on the mix”
(I need to use that sound!)

I was feeling all alone and i had this master plan
She said this:
“You should put an amen on the mix”
(I need to use that sound!)

God, i don’t know what to do, what to do anymore
If everything i make, it sounds like such a bore
What if i try my best, but i can’t up the score?
Feel like i’m 'bout to break, i feel it in my core

I feel it in my core
I feel it in my core

I don’t know what you’re tryna say
I can’t hear you over this amen break
Can't tell if you’re feeling okay
Can i reach out or is that a mistake?
Am i eating enough protein?
The doctor says i spend too long awake
Should i stay here or go away?
I can do whatever you want me to

I don’t know what you’re tryna say
I can’t hear you over this amen break
Can't tell if you’re feeling okay
Can i reach out or is that a mistake?
Am i eating enough protein?
The doctor says i spend too long awake
Should i stay here or go away?
I can do whatever you want me to

I can do whatever you want me to
I can do whatever you want me to
I don't know what you're tryna say
I don't know what you're tryna (amen break)
I can do whatever you want me to
I can do whatever you want me to

nobody knows i sampled the amen break

(Let's go!)

I couldn’t name the place I’m going
Even though I’ve been there six or seven different times
I can tell the sky is getting darker
I might fuck around and walk back home alone tonight
And even though I came here just to nurse a bottle, to the mouth or to the face, my mom says not to talk to guys
But if a stranger looks me in the eyes and orders me into the restroom, I’m just not the type to put up too much of a fight

You know I’m not like all the othеr girls around the function
He could have gonе and chosen any single one of them
I know it’s not my voice, it’s not my looks, he wants to rush in
When you’re a rarity, you end up shackled to a bed
The music’s way too loud and I don’t care if he don’t love me
It’s just a number, what’s a couple drinks around some friends?
And for some reason I don’t mind it when he interrupts me
He looks me in the eyes and I can tell i might be dead

Put me in your pocket, baby, let’s go for a drive
Let me tell a little secret, I’ve lived way too many lives
I know that you want it, baby, let me be your little crime
I don’t know where i would end up if i make it past tonight
Put me in your pocket, baby, let’s go for a drive
Let me tell a little secret, I’ve lived way too many lives
I know that you want it, baby, let me be your little crime
I don’t know where i would end up if i make it past tonight

(The devil inside of you says to listen to secret girlfriend)
(Secret girlfriend 2036 world domination)
(My lifelong dream has finally come true)
(Of course i’m not in love with him, It’s just a convenience)

I see it coming for me six or seven miles away
I greet it standing in the road, a smile on my face
He treats me like a million bucks when he wants something i can give, i wake up in the hospital along with bruises on my face

I see it coming for me, I’m convinced i love the pain
I greet it standing in the road, a smile on my face
He treats me like a million dollars, give him everything
I wake up in the hospital alone with the new-

Never thought I’d make it this far off the path
Got a smoke in hand like I’m a man
Then he gives a smile, spits a laugh
“You know pretty things like you aren’t meant to throw-“ (ugh)
Got a funny feeling in my chest
Got a smoke in hand like I’m a man
Then he flicks the lighter, takes a drag
“You know pretty things like you aren’t meant to throw tantrums”

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Tantrums

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