Yoo Saph this is amazing,  hope this blows up.

i cant love anyone back 
cuz i'm in love with someone else in my head
how fucked up is that?
how fucked up is that?
i cant love anyone back 
cuz i'm in love with someone else in my head
how fucked up is that?
tell me, how fucked up is that?

lately i feel like i'm an idiot 
and i keep forgetting things
things that mattered to me last fall 
threw my heart into the asphalt
so i feel nothing when i see you've called

i swear on my life that its not personal 
i might've ghosted you twice 
you're not the only one 
im tryna save my own life, im at my last straw 
give up forever
hear from me never 
not in control of my mind 
i hear the reaper's call
way too late in the night 
i start to see his claws 
someone turn on the lights 
im stuck in comatose 
the darkest night of my life 
was when you overdosed 

i cant love anyone back 
cuz i'm in love with someone else in my head
how fucked up is that?
how fucked up is that?
i cant love anyone back 
cuz i'm in love with someone else in my head
how fucked up is that?
tell me, how fucked up is that? 

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how fucked up is that? [+splashgvng & pekarot]

prod. flesh

sample: artist vs poet - like kids

lyrics:
from the moment that I woke up
I've been tryna see the sun
gotta wait a bit it's not up yet whoa
I've been throwing bricks into the pond
I'm just tryna skip all of the upset yea
I don't get a say in what I want
but I don't wanna end up on the doorstep uh
cuz then I get stepped all on
nah n I don't wanna stress too long

I remember it like it's yesterday
I'm still in it in the memories
swear to god I'll give them everything
but they'll never take the rest away
so I'll keep chasing notes I dreamed I wrote

I take my card and receipt
pack all my things into my bag then I step out in the heat
it takes longer than I want
and though it's hard as it seems
it's only everything I wanted
everything I wanted to be

Not up yet

produced by cxrter & tahtx

lyrics:
(notahero)
heavy snow is pouring outside the window
u know exactly what u want in life
but i don’t know
but i’ll carry on
and i’ll love u if you're here or you're gone
i’ll find u thru the crowd
she don’t know i’m hurting cuz i barely make a sound
this hole i’ve dug so deep
i can’t see through out the ground
u can find me in the lost and found
christmas was never this cold
christmas was never this cold

(backyard beetle)
yeah
as the candle burns real low
the light begins to show
you may be gone but your presence still glows
feasting on fragments and memories of old
i live in a wasteland i ain't never seen the snow 
even then I can't help but feel it's so cold
cause all of my warmth came from you
what am i supposed to do 
when my systems shut down

(notahero)
christmas was never this cold
christmas was never this cold

cxrter, notahero, & backyard beetle - christmas was never this cold (prod. cxrter x tahtx)

this track is from 2022
I've decided today is the day I finally release merry xmas xoxo

pic credits: Moo from Pinterest

[lyrics]

Blondie I know you're bad for me
Blondie I know you're bad for me

not long ago I lost my mind
not long ago I entered a deep paralysis
deep paralysis
Blondie I know you're bad for me
you're forbidden from my realm
realm my home

nothings ever felt this good

they say leave it in the past
leave it in the past forget about that
I know that you don't really care
leave it in the past forget about that
I know that you don't really care

I once thought about it
I once thought about it
I once thought about it yeah
I once thought about it

know you're bad for me
Blondie I know you're bad for me

not long ago I lost my mind
not long ago I entered a deep paralysis
deep paralysis

I don't know where my mind is going lately
round and round we go go

[meat computer]

I should have known your bad
known I never wanted to deal with that
I know that you don't really care
Blondie I know you're bad for me
you're forbidden from my realm
realm my home



sleep paralysis (drma)

@pekarot_161

lyrix

break down the fences
erase all the tension
we had when we were kids
just to lose all that we had again

i miss that moment of friendship

days go by
the time flies away from us
and i wont try
to water the dead garden

we're all trying

we're all trying to

make a name and break away
think less about the passing days
smoke our dreams and hopes away
and hope that something comes of it
im done with it

whats the point of all of this

Dead garden prod. pekarot

prod @ilyertu x @jolst
special thx to jane for voicing the outro <33

she’s reaching for my vitals n her fingertips are void touched
fighting for survival cause of course i still can’t get enough
wagering my will to love for one more spin i’ll test my luck
the house edge is massive, know i’ll never win but let it run

out, the silence is unsettling
now, trapped with my thoughts and the memories
shout, if there’s a chance that you’ll remember me
how, am i supposed to just let her leave

4 blank walls blood splattered on em all
picking up my phone pretending like u called
tell me it’s not finished tell me everything’s on pause
or else i’d rather lay down n wait till i dissolve

everything that i ever wanted was just out of my reach
but now the only thing i want is some peace
but now the only thing i want is some sleep
but now the only thing i want is u n me

tear stained cheeks on my face when i walk thru
sometimes i wish that i never woulda caught u
smile on my face feels like i’m wearing a costume
photos of the past are like an artifact, a fossil

she’s reaching for my vitals n her fingertips are void touched
fighting for survival cause of course i still can’t get enough
wagering my will to love for one more spin i’ll test my luck
the house edge is massive, know i’ll never win but let it run

out, the silence is unsettling
now, trapped with my thoughts and the memories
shout, if there’s a chance that you’ll remember me
how, am i supposed to just let her leave

“””
The San Francisco therapist kept telling me I shouldn't be terrified of creative experimentation.
"I don't know what's going to come out of me," I told her. "It has to be perfect. It has to be irreproachable in every way.
"Why?" she said.
"To make up for it," I said. "To make up for the fact that it's me."
“””

tear stained cheeks (ertu x jolst)

shinigami - maxxd out prod ginseng x warren

prod. flesh x chris6lair x taurs

lyrics:
i don't like to stand out
i don't understand how
i keep moving on
running circles in the madhouse
treading when it's shallow
scared of my shadow
roam into the fog
no i don't know where 

i've been going
and i know i get lost a lot
but i'm on my way home
if it all goes wrong
would you wanna be safe from harm?
would you lock up
give it all up?

i know i'm not what you thought i'd
be at this point i've become
more myself than i had ever dreamed
so why don't you fuck off
i remember everything you said
i've been screaming at myself to give it up and let it rest
i've been at it so long
when i redirect it won't last long
i reflect what i couldn't get
what i'll pass on

so much on my plate
gotta finish what i started up
throw it all away
if what i made ain't what i wanted to
think i need a break
then i'm lying wide awake
i don't wait, i won't hesitate
i can't pull the brakes

yea i'm stuck
i'm in go mode
i do not know what to do
should i slow down?
not my tempo, let go
but i hold on when it's ice cold
i can't wait to warm up
what a nice goal

redirect (flesh x chris6lair x taurs)

follow angel diary, capoxxo, branwen & ikitos

ponder w/ angel diary & capoxxo (prod. branwen x ikitos)

lyrics:
i just lit a fire underneath my feet and i'm not slowing down
i was stuck up on the ceiling, but i found my way back to the ground
you don't know a thing about me
why you acting like you know me now?
you don't know a thing about me
why you acting like you know me now?

i'll be walking on the water, everybody gonna wonder how
i might have poison in my mouth, but in a second i'ma spit it out
you don't know a thing about me
why you acting like you know me now? 
you don't know a thing about me
why you acting like you know me now?

living every day like my last
everything could slip through the cracks
wear a smile, it's just an act
you pretend you know who i am
you hear things said behind my back
i'll defend, but i won't attack
words, they wash away like the sand
tide will take us all in the end

udkatam

novacane, cocaine
overdose on lemonade
vampire-codeine
drinking blood straight from ur vein
kitchen blade, norman bates
slasher boy meets psycho babe
can’t a feel a thing, just numb the pain
put a bullet in my brain

x2

i’m sick and tired of the fucking rain
i’m sick and tired of these fucking games
wash my feelings down the fucking drain
i kiss ur lips and let u feel my blade

lately, i don’t even know “why i’m alive still”
should’ve died last year: benadryl and nine pills
should’ve chased after u, but, babe, u are no final girl
i think i got too vulnerable, shouldn’t let u in my world
shred my heart to pieces, like my wrist when i’ve been missing u
tell me that ur different, cause i’d hate to waste my time on u
i been thinking, lately, might be good to have some space from u
but see, i hate myself for that, cause i can’t get my mind off u <3

prod. @m-i-s-e-r-y
written by @lightninglogan

sample from When A Stranger Calls (2006)

novacane cocaine [prod. misery]

@gemstonegang
@internetstains
#22cb
yungsapphire@gmail.com

Dead garden prod. pekarot

sapphire2001

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