beat & vocals done by me

mixed by @menthol100s aka the new dj bonecrusher

i wanna slit his throat
and laugh my way home
i wanted you to know this
wanted you to notice
that i drew a heart with mine and his blood
can u tell the difference in the two
mine is filled with more love

laughing my way home

why do u choose to break me so often, often
u know u dont have to remind me so often so often
how am i still even holding on

aches so bad
i know it hurts so bad

stop reminding me so much

october lies with u - whatever it takes

im just gonna start posting songs on this acc cause i wont ever finish these

if i was perfect - cry like velvet

i see you everywhere i go 
i swear you wont fade away
take the knife then i let 
my wrist play with the blade
ill soon forget your face 
and then ill forget ur name 
u wont infect my brain 
with pretty words that u love to say

i see you everywhere i go 
why wont you just fade away
everything turns out the same
what is there to say

why wont you fade away

dont cry when im gone
when i seethe pictures i cant help but smile

if the stars align
and i met u again 
will u be waiting my friend
everyday in my head all there is is war 
or maybe im jsut too paranoid 
and i think about it everyday
the time u left me went away
and the hill im climbing is too steep
and when i think tears roll right down my cheek

i wanna be a jack-o-lantern - song for a friend

i wanna be a jack-o-lantern - im bored dario lets vc

thesamethingafterall
november 26th
.
woke up this morning and i drove around in my car
i heard a Christmas song on the radio and i almost blew my head off
why do they play this in November and im barely holdin on
i cant wait till December i pray i finally grow up
why do they rub it all in my face you see im barely movin on
why does it only ever get worse
why cant i ever seem to make up
why dont these songs ever come out
and they say Newport why you dont drop?
and i cant answer that without hearing it
its that hum again that dont stop
another sad song in my ear again
and i know you hate when i call
another white pill on my tongue again
and i pray i dont wake up

november

she said one day we should have a baby :/

i pray for you (one last song)

«دلِ یامان» (Dle Yaman) ترانه‌ای فولکلور ارمنی‌ست که در طول قرن‌ها اجرا شده و می‌توان آن را به معنای «آه، دلم...» یا «دلم سوخت...» تعبیر کرد. این قطعه را کومیتاس وارداپت (Komitas Vardapet) - آهنگساز، موسیقی‌شناس، و بنیان‌گذار موسیقی کلاسیک مدرن ارمنی، جمع‌آوری و حفظ کرد.
این ترانه از زبان مرد جوانی روایت می‌شود که در اشتیاق معشوق از دست‌رفته‌اش است. پس از نسل‌کشی ارامنه، Dle Yaman برای مردم ارمنستان معنا و مفهوم جدیدی پیدا کرد و بیانگر حسرت و #دلتنگی آن‌ها برای سرزمین مادری و تمام آن چیزهایی شد که از دست رفتند.

if i was perfect - cry like velvet

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