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NOVEMBER 1ST

youll come back and see, that i'm long gone and forgotten
,
greaf

nobody is worth any time anymore

was it something i said? my minds not right
was it something i did? you wont be the same
everything’s going bad, it’s probably mine x2
its probably mine its probably mine

its probably my fault anyways

i didnt even try

turning 18 sucks when everybodys in your way
my girlfriends such a slut but i dont like her anyway
i know that im fucked up but can you get out of my face
my lifes in such a rutt i wish i could just die today

and i wanna kill myself i wanna end my life forever
cus the way that things are looking we will never be together
and you will say you hate my friends and i will say that its whatever
cause im so obsessed with death and you just think that youre so clever

i hate myself

oh darling now your gone 
ik u feel complete and im no fun
im no fun 
but darling now ur gone 
i look at all the photos feeling dumb 
im so dumb 


remember was the first time i saw you 
your face glowed bright and i couldnt aproach u 
i still feel numb from the words that u told boo
and i dont know how i really still love u 

the things u said to me girl they hurt

now you're gone

entry seven

https://open.spotify.com/track/6WFPRaJMy2l1SsFqzCXpan?si=42be3dcda73347ac

aeter - lost girl ramona

mixed by @six-days-after-christmas

dreaming of the winter
on a warm sunny day
dreaming of the summer
when its to cold to go out and play 
dont forget her face 
cus she'll go for once and for good 
dont forget her smile 
cus she was just misunderstood 
soo dooont
please dont leave me alone 

dreaming of her touch 
when shes out and away 
when shes here for you brother 
you say you need space

don't forget her

i wanna be a jack-o-lantern - more than any

every time u leave 
girl i feel like an asshole 
i see ur smile 
and i cannot relax girl 
i love ur hair i love ur eyes 
but i dont think im alright 
i saw u walking down the hall 
and noone else was there but u 
it felt like a movie when i saw u walking through 

i told you i said i was okay 
i know that its your way or no way 
i still think bout past times that we had 
now ur gone i cant help but feel sad 
i told you i said i was okay 
come with me ill show u what i think
i need you now more than ever 
could you  please stay with me forever

but you made me feel so blue
i dont know what to do 
i still feel this burning pain inside my chest

i told you i said i was okay

w/ @six-days-after-christmas

like a deer in headlights 
when i saw your face i froze in fear 
ran back home in hopes that 
all the thoughts i had would dissapear 
thinking bout ur face while sitting sippin on some shitty beer
lay in bed dreaming that maybe one day 
youd be near 

monday wasnt good at all 
walking past you in the hall 
i saw you with your friends 
laughing and joking  at someones expense i 
didnt know them 
but im glad it wasnt me 
cus im hoping 
maybe i can talk to you at least

i cant get any closer 
my friends told me walk up but i dont even know her
i havent had this feeling in a while itold her
i know how it endsmaybe try when we're older 

cuz its i hate you and you hate me
your lifes a little more private but i'll still see 
cuz if ur all i need you're all i'd be
but i cant see that much from here i'll just see u in my sleep

deer in headlights

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WH11_lxkwh0

could u see me
if not maybe
i could leave u dead in a second
if you wanted to i could make a move
baby im a fucking coward u guessed it

spotify

coward

if u fw the old version of the song More im sorry That shit had some tts Wit my ex name so i jus cut it out and extended this to a minute

STREAM ON SPOTIFY INSTEDA BRO
https://open.spotify.com/album/1Jqcaa6uhspHNEVw9cEg1y?si=yC4DSd_IRH-oyhIoE6W8mQ

prod mac demarco
lyrics:
im sorry to my mom and dad u raised a fucking failure
now i bloody up my wrist and i feel like a fucking hater
think its time to kms ill kms see all u l8r
its a joke i thought she liked me now i mf hate her
now im fucked up takin pills and ion think im gettin better
i hope u fucking kys i hope u jump into a river
blood carved in my wrist its a mf s
now im lookin at that shit wishing i was fucking dead
im so tired im so stupid ion think i wanna do this shit
i hate the way i look my nose is big i need a facelift
i dont know how to think or who i even wanna be with
i fucking miss my ex i love her ass up on some rs

u did this 2 me :/

prod @mbrksht
@muertemuerte
I creep through ur window
I can’t leave you alone
Do you even see me
I’m outside of your door
You watch me tumble down, leave me in the dirt
There’s scars on my back and blood on my shirt
You ran outta town and left me to rot
I fucking hate u

@novemblur
i want in (lemme in)
the fucking house
open up the window, why'd u lock me out?
out
i only wanna talk
thats all this is about
cant stomach the fact
that u dont want me around
ig ill disappear w/o a shadow of a doubt
im just a guy nobody cares about how much i whine or pout
or how much i ever struggle or how much i ever go without

i creep thru ur window f muerte

all by me

lyrics:

my memory fades
i wish that i changed
pls don't go away
pls don't go away
in the bush she lay
all it happened same day
i think that i'm fake
i think that i'm fake
i'm so fake
i'm so fake

if i was perfect - think i'm fake

5/18/2024 3:38 AM

i dont wanna let u down
in this vacuum theres no sound
feed my self into the hounds
can we kiss and make it 
loud?

stab me with ur knife
stomache bleeds all night
take my life just twice
velvet tears and
why?

and white

if i was perfect - cry like velvet

https://soundcloud.com/keshibeats/bandaids not prod me

made this cuz im sad

u shouldve told me...
idk what to say
why are u sorry ?
how did things get this way ?
my heart is broken
down to the core
this is not what i wanted...
idk what i want anymore

im afraid the bandaids
are no good
for heartache

not okay...
so tell me
when ur world comes crashing down

if i was perfect - why are you sorry?

prod ratatooulie or however u spell it im not french

i just want you to me
nobody else

let go my secrets
i loved you since 12

look at my face
and show me ur hate

say it for once
and i'll leave u away

if i was perfect - from me, to you </3

ive been thinking bout u 
and all the things that we would do 
and it gets lonely without u 
i swear sometimes i hate u 

cus when i lay my head to sleep
its only u thats in my dreams 
and i cant get u out 
i tried so hard 
but i dont know how

i cant get you out

1. ruben ~ as long as its you

out of the mental hospital

prod me

why is she blocking the hallway?
guess i will never know
thought we could both go our own way
but it seems that you just
keep showing interest
stalking my pinterest
like all my photos after you said we were finished
whats wrong?
baby whats wrong?

why is she blocking the hallway

prod me

surfs uppppp
woaahhoho (x4)


i really tried to actually make you fucking happy
but this shitty feeling always tends make me trashy
and i realize everyone and you are just the same
so ill waterboard ur ass into a hydroplane

so

surfs uppppp
woaahhoho (x4)

surfs up

prod me

bash your skull
cave it in
i wont tell nobody
you can kill yourself
slit your wrist
i can hide the body
steal ur parents car
and drive it to
another fucking party
that nobody even wants you in
oh god you're so retarded

nobody loves you like i do
you suck at life but i do too

bash your skull
cave it in
i wont tell nobody
you can kill yourself
slit your wrist
i can hide the body
steal ur parents car
and drive it to
another fucking party
that nobody even wants you in
oh god you're so retarded

nobody hates you like i do
you suck at life but i do too

bash your skull
cave it in
i wont tell nobody
you can kill yourself
slit your wrist
i can hide the body
steal ur parents car
and drive it to
another fucking party
that nobody even wants you in
oh god you're so retarded (x2)

kill yourself stupid

prod me

you suck
and ill never stop saying it
cause you never wanna cough it up
you suck
i know one day your gonna OD on those drugs
you suck
you're a junkie bitch
but still somehow i suck
more than you
worse than you
more than you

i dont feel like anyone else
not even myself
i hate this feeling that comes by
every other week
i feel so damn week
is this whats its like to be you all the time

take your life
but let me take mine
i wanna persuade you
better than the thoughts inside your head

you suck
and ill never stop saying it
cause you never wanna cough it up
you suck
i know one day your gonna OD on those drugs
you suck
you're a junkie bitch
but still somehow i suck
more than you
worse than you
more than you

i wanna be a jack-o-lantern - more than any

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