tears in the eyes-list

There are so many things I’d like to tell ya
Thoughts trapped in my lungs 
Didn’t mean to fail you
Years passed, I had the time
But my tongue got tied 

I’ve been saving up the things
That we can talk about 
Remember when you’d sing 
Still wanna make you proud

Remember in those days
When it chilled you out 
Had a big old smile 
In that little white rag top

Held your on the side of the bed
The day a knot unraveled inside your head 
So many things 
That I’d like to tell ya 

I’ve been saving up the things
That we can talk about

Remember when you’d sing
Still wanna make you proud 
Thoughts trapped in my lungs 
I didn’t mean to fail ya
There are so many things that I want to tell you 

————-
Song was written for my late father

Saving Up The Things

Sie versuchte, wie immer, zu lächeln, doch es war kein ehrliches Lächeln. Ihre Mundwinkel hoben sich, doch der Ausdruck ihrer Augen blieb leer, gleichgültig. Sie tat es nur, um den lästigen Nachfragen nach ihrem Befinden zu entgehen. Eine Antwort darauf hätte sie auch gar nicht geben können. Etwas beschäftigte sie; nagte an ihr; stahl ihr die Freude am Leben. Schon seit vielen Monaten begleitete sie das Gefühl, nicht mehr sie selbst zu sein. Ihre Gedanken rasten, drehten sich um Alles und Nichts. Gedanken, bei denen sie sich nicht sicher war, ob es überhaupt ihre eigenen waren. Es machte sie wahnsinnig. Ihre Hände verkrampften, als sie sah, wie er zurücklächelte. Innerlich begann sie vor Wut zu kochen, denn sie wusste, sein Lächeln war ebenso falsch wie ihres.  An manchen Tagen war es so schlimm, dass sie ihm am liebsten komplett aus dem Weg gegangen wäre. Seine Nähe wurde ihr immer unangenehmer. Manchmal hätte sie ihm einfach gerne für dieses Lächeln ins Gesicht geschlagen. Wie sehr sie es hasste, von ihm bemitleidet zu werden...
Doch noch viel mehr hasste sie sich selbst für diesen Hass. Woher kam er? Seit wann ist er da? Warum ist sie so leicht reizbar? Weshalb waren ihre Emotionen so unberechenbar geworden? Ihr Kopf war kurz davor zu platzen.

So konnte es nicht weitergehen. Etwas musste sich ändern. Es müsste sofort geschehen, bevor sie vollständig die Kontrolle über sich verliert. 

Doch sollte sich das als schwierig erweisen, denn ihr Verstand gehörte schon lange nicht mehr ihr allein...

Everything Is Falling Apart

Catharsis (For four guitars)

Lost Souls (For three guitars & synth)

A time ago I discovered the soundcloud page of multi-genre composer, guitarist, keyboard & bass player Neno and his other proJect/page, Danen II (covers and support). 
I knew he sounds like he ‘s born with a guitar in his hands, but I discovered this cover (of Peter Hammill), where Neno sings! His voice at the same time fragile and strong, the lyrics deep emotional: I instantly liked it: his vision and mine in one combined! Enjoy.

Lyrics 

I have a vision of you, locked inside my head;
It creeps upon my mind and warms me in my bed
A vision shimering, shifting
Moving in false firelight;
A vision of a vision
Protecting me from fear at night

[Refrain]
As the seasons roll on, and my love stays strong

[Verse 2]
I don't know where you end, and where it is that I begin
I simply open my mind and the memories flood on in
I have a vision of you, locked inside my head;
It creeps upon my mind and warms me in my bed
A vision shimering, shifting
Moving in false firelight;
A vision of a vision
Protecting me from fear at night

[Verse 2]
I don't know where you end, and where it is that I begin
I simply open my mind and the memories flood on in
I remember waking up with your arms around me;
I remember losing myself
And finding that you'd found me

[Refrain]
As the seasons rolled on, and my love stayed strong

[Verse 3]
Be my child, be my lover, swallow me up in your fire-glow
Take my tongue, take my torment, take my hand and don't let go
Let me live in your life
For you make it all seem to matter
Let me die in your arms
So the vision may never shatter

VISION  collab  x NENO  (cover peter Hammill)

A time ago I discovered the soundcloud page of multi-genre composer, guitarist, keyboard & bass player Neno and his other project/page, Danen II (covers and support). His music is deep emotional. He sent to me his "in the clouds"... 

On my cloud (collab: music composed and played bij Neno)

When i put my hand on my heart, and i try to feel
I try to feel what i want, what i want
I feel nothing, nothing

I wanna know do i belong, do i belong, i feel nothing

When i am sitting with my music on my cloud my feet don’t touch the ground, 
when i’m sitting on my cloud
Surrounded surrounded with the sounds

on my cloud i’m perfectly happy, i feel nothing , i feel my music


I don’t want to climb mountains, i don’t have a bucketlist

I don’t wanna feel my body, don’t want to hear myself thinking
More and more i live on my cloud, it’s difficult to come back from my cloud.

on my cloud - Collab Neno

Lost Son 

So how could I know
The things you didn’t tell me were making you 
so unbelievably lonely and sad 

So why couldn’t you show me
the thoughts you kept inside 
your fortress of gold held by a legion of wardens


My son, my son, where did you go?
I miss you more than you could ever know
I pray for your safety every day
Hoping you'll find your way back to me someday


So I should have known
The path you had to choose was the one of your own 
be guided by angels on all your ways


My son, my son, where did you go?
I miss you more than you could ever know
I pray for your safety every day
Hoping you'll find your way back to me someday



Cover Artwork: M. Besinger 06.07.1955 (dad)

Lost Son

Stars (slowed & reverb)

"Lotus grow only in wetlands and thus symbolize the idea of ​​rising from ugliness and unrest." "The lotus is considered a symbol of purity and transcendence, as well as spiritual purification and liberation".

Lotus (For three guitars)

Artist Picture. Shyntwirl 
Art Cover Editor. Shyntwirl 
Programmer. Shyntwirl 
Composer. Shyntwirl 
Produccer. Shyntwirl 
Synthesizer. Shyntwirl 
Keyboard. Shyntwirl 
Synth. Shyntwirl 
Sound Exhaust. Shyntwirl 
Atmosphere Soundtrack. Shyntwirl 
Ambient / Electronic / Alternative / Atmosphere 
PROD. Shyntwirl 


Shyntwirl - Forgotten (PROD. Shyntwirl)

DISSOLUTION.  (French)

Songteksten cover  

If you, if you could return
Don't let it burn
Don't let it fade
I'm sure I'm not being rude
But it's just your attitude
It's tearing me apart
It's ruining every day
I swore, I swore I would be true
And honey so did you
So why were you holding her hand?
Is that the way we stand?
Were you lying all the time?
Was it just a game to you?
But I'm in so deep
You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger?
Do you have to, do you have to, do you have to let it linger?
Oh, I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong, I was wrong
If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldn't be so confused
And I wouldn't feel so used
But you always really knew
I just want to be with you
And I'm in so deep
You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger?
Do you have to, do you have to, do you have to let it linger?
And I'm in so deep
You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger?
Do you have to, do you have to, do you have to let it linger?
You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger?
Do you have to, do you have to, do you have to let it linger?

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