can I ask you a question. is the person that you express your feelings through music a person you have really lost in your life? you play with very real feelings and expressions. you are very good artist.

Some times words aren’t enough..
So i’ll just sit back and play this over and over again
Bravo
👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏😊

Not herself,  Her eyes not lying, they are empty,  Avoiding contact, just pretending As if nothing changed His smile, his pitie, She don’t need, Screems: Who I was, remember me But hold who I became In warm embrace,  For I’m falling in pieces

This smile was hiding seeds of anger Impredictable emotions, couldn’t hide no longer Imploding, exploding, not controling

Avoiding questions About her health Her own smile stolen, Life joy gone,  She learned to use a fake one

Sorry that i claimed it to made my poem on it...

tears in the eyes-list

Sie versuchte, wie immer, zu lächeln, doch es war kein ehrliches Lächeln. Ihre Mundwinkel hoben sich, doch der Ausdruck ihrer Augen blieb leer, gleichgültig. Sie tat es nur, um den lästigen Nachfragen nach ihrem Befinden zu entgehen. Eine Antwort darauf hätte sie auch gar nicht geben können. Etwas beschäftigte sie; nagte an ihr; stahl ihr die Freude am Leben. Schon seit vielen Monaten begleitete sie das Gefühl, nicht mehr sie selbst zu sein. Ihre Gedanken rasten, drehten sich um Alles und Nichts. Gedanken, bei denen sie sich nicht sicher war, ob es überhaupt ihre eigenen waren. Es machte sie wahnsinnig. Ihre Hände verkrampften, als sie sah, wie er zurücklächelte. Innerlich begann sie vor Wut zu kochen, denn sie wusste, sein Lächeln war ebenso falsch wie ihres.  An manchen Tagen war es so schlimm, dass sie ihm am liebsten komplett aus dem Weg gegangen wäre. Seine Nähe wurde ihr immer unangenehmer. Manchmal hätte sie ihm einfach gerne für dieses Lächeln ins Gesicht geschlagen. Wie sehr sie es hasste, von ihm bemitleidet zu werden...
Doch noch viel mehr hasste sie sich selbst für diesen Hass. Woher kam er? Seit wann ist er da? Warum ist sie so leicht reizbar? Weshalb waren ihre Emotionen so unberechenbar geworden? Ihr Kopf war kurz davor zu platzen.

So konnte es nicht weitergehen. Etwas musste sich ändern. Es müsste sofort geschehen, bevor sie vollständig die Kontrolle über sich verliert. 

Doch sollte sich das als schwierig erweisen, denn ihr Verstand gehörte schon lange nicht mehr ihr allein...

Everything Is Falling Apart

Original
Music made in Garageband

Lyrics:

Sitting here, searching my mind in the dark
Trying to find a dignified way out...

I am trying to leave you
But its harder than i thought
I feel so sorry for you..
You say you need me
Beg me not to go
But i have to find out who i am....

But its hard
I feel so bad
I will not hurt you, or make you sad...

I am trying to leave you
But its harder than i thought
I feel so sorry for you
You say you need me
Beg me not to go
But i have to find out who i am...

I must be strong
Decide what i want to do
Even if it might end in me hurting you...

I am trying to leave you
But its harder than i thought
I feel so sorry for you...
You say you need me
Beg me not to go
But i have to find out who i am...

I need to find my way
I need to heal my heart
I know i have to take this fight...

I am trying to leave you
But its harder than i thought
I feel so sorry for you...
You say you need me
Beg me not to go
But i have to find out who i am...

I am trying to leave you
But its harder than i thought
I feel so sorry for you...
You say you need me
Beg me not to go
But i have to find out who i am....

Ohhhhh..........

Trying To Leave You (original)

Are You Waiting? (Original Live)

Composed & produced by Mirjam Keijnemans

Korg LP-380
Keylab 49
Samplitude Music Studio 2020

Enlightened

Collaboration with Aedificium & myself featuring a scubadiving video.
Video - https://youtu.be/DBMVA2SFzeQ?si=AWRjvZLsiei_kB-2
Arranged and produced by, Mike Hllton &, Aedificium © 10/04/2024
Thanks for listening.

Mike Hilton - Electric, Acoustic & Bass Guitars
Aedificium - Percussion & further arrangement. 
Cover Art - Victor Harbour, South Australia.

Reef

Reef (collaboration with Aedificium)

Lost Souls (For three guitars & synth)

A time ago I discovered the soundcloud page of multi-genre composer, guitarist, keyboard & bass player Neno and his other proJect/page, Danen II (covers and support). 
I knew he sounds like he ‘s born with a guitar in his hands, but I discovered this cover (of Peter Hammill), where Neno sings! His voice at the same time fragile and strong, the lyrics deep emotional: I instantly liked it: his vision and mine in one combined! Enjoy.

Lyrics 

I have a vision of you, locked inside my head;
It creeps upon my mind and warms me in my bed
A vision shimering, shifting
Moving in false firelight;
A vision of a vision
Protecting me from fear at night

[Refrain]
As the seasons roll on, and my love stays strong

[Verse 2]
I don't know where you end, and where it is that I begin
I simply open my mind and the memories flood on in
I have a vision of you, locked inside my head;
It creeps upon my mind and warms me in my bed
A vision shimering, shifting
Moving in false firelight;
A vision of a vision
Protecting me from fear at night

[Verse 2]
I don't know where you end, and where it is that I begin
I simply open my mind and the memories flood on in
I remember waking up with your arms around me;
I remember losing myself
And finding that you'd found me

[Refrain]
As the seasons rolled on, and my love stayed strong

[Verse 3]
Be my child, be my lover, swallow me up in your fire-glow
Take my tongue, take my torment, take my hand and don't let go
Let me live in your life
For you make it all seem to matter
Let me die in your arms
So the vision may never shatter

VISION  collab  x NENO  (cover peter Hammill)

A time ago I discovered the soundcloud page of multi-genre composer, guitarist, keyboard & bass player Neno and his other project/page, Danen II (covers and support). His music is deep emotional. He sent to me his "in the clouds"... 

On my cloud (collab: music composed and played bij Neno)

When i put my hand on my heart, and i try to feel
I try to feel what i want, what i want
I feel nothing, nothing

I wanna know do i belong, do i belong, i feel nothing

When i am sitting with my music on my cloud my feet don’t touch the ground, 
when i’m sitting on my cloud
Surrounded surrounded with the sounds

on my cloud i’m perfectly happy, i feel nothing , i feel my music


I don’t want to climb mountains, i don’t have a bucketlist

I don’t wanna feel my body, don’t want to hear myself thinking
More and more i live on my cloud, it’s difficult to come back from my cloud.

on my cloud - Collab Neno

'darlin''

Scratch Kelly: beats and backing vocals
Scotty: lyrics, vocals, guitars, art

Darlin'. You did leave me.
You set me free
from the chains you placed upon me.
And now I'm better off without ya.
Darlin'. I tried to plead.
Got down on my knees.
Still, you made my poor heart bleed
with your projections placed upon me. 

Oh, darlin'. I gave you everything
that you could need.
Yet in actuality
nothin' from me you were wantin'.
Now, darlin', I see through your screen
after smokin' the green
and it makes me believe 
that I'm better off now without ya.

darlin' (with Scratch Kelly)

Montage et photographies : 
© 2024, Chartrand Saint-Louis
Lien vers la vidéo : https://youtu.be/1fOBwvlB7CM 

Musique :
© 2024, composition et orchestration, titre : "Apogée solaire", par Albert, 1:06 min.

Mixage, révision et sonorisation par Albert

Apogée solaire

"Apogée solaire", par Albert; Mixage, révision et sonorisation par Albert [lien vidéo]

Base photo for cover art by Paul-berthelon-bravo on unsplash

Anywhere

Stars (slowed & reverb)

"Lotus grow only in wetlands and thus symbolize the idea of ​​rising from ugliness and unrest." "The lotus is considered a symbol of purity and transcendence, as well as spiritual purification and liberation".

Lotus (For three guitars)

Mister Stichs
Release Date: August 24, 2016
© 2016 Keith Richie

An Original 'N'otion Picture Soundtrack by Keith Richie

When a family moves from the quiet suburbs of Downey, California to a remote farmhouse in Texas, they hope for peace and renewal. What they find instead is something far older and more sinister—an unseen force tethered to the land, festering in the silence, unraveling their sanity one thread at a time.

As unease gives way to full-blown horror, they are pulled into a waking nightmare where perception fractures, trust dissolves, and reality becomes twisted beyond recognition. At the center of it all is a malevolent entity—Mister Stichs—a presence that doesn’t merely haunt but hunts.

This cinematic concept album is a dark ambient descent into psychological terror, merging vintage synth horror with modern sound design. Drawing influence from John Carpenter, Tangerine Dream, and the haunting landscapes of classic suspense scores, Mister Stichs delivers an unsettling, immersive experience built on analog textures, spectral atmospheres, and emotionally resonant melodies.

With chilling ambience, bursts of dread, and fleeting glimpses of fragile beauty, Mister Stichs is not just a soundtrack—it’s a sonic horror story.

Critical Praise:

“A sophisticated and unrelenting journey into darkness.”
— Ben Dugas, ZoneMusicReporter.com

“Mister Stichs is impressively reminiscent of a John Carpenter film score, and it evokes the spirit of Tangerine Dream. With masterful use of vintage and modern synths, and suspenseful, surround-like effects, Keith Richie proves once again that he ranks among today’s finest electronic composers.”
— Candice Michelle, Journeyscapes Radio

Erin's Theme

This week's Disquiet Junto, number 0717, invited us to collaborate with an ancestor. I recalled my kinship with a certain pioneering electronic musician, my reclusive great aunt Carly Wendos. (Her catalog is strangely absent from most streaming services, but she was something of a sensation in classical music.)

The piece is a favorite of hers, an interpretation of Beethoven's Piano Trio #5 in D Major, Op. 70 No.1, the so-called "Ghost Movement". Aunt Carly rocks the Moogs while I supply the string section via live electric violin.

In all seriousness, this one is dedicated to my trans elder Wendy Carlos. Thank you for making a way for us. 

(Cover photo is a shot of her studio circa 1968.)

More on the 717th weekly Disquiet Junto project, Generation Gambit — The Assignment: Layer two eras of recordings, one of them imaginary — at https://disquiet.com/0717/.

Ghost Movement (with Carly Wendos) (disquiet0717)

Doom Loom

My DAW, my VSTis, my MIDI devices and I.
Making music for movies and games that only exists in my head.

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