Hold On(instrumental)

Lyrics:

My father was elusive mostly cause he was abusive
pulling knives out on my mother rageaholic undisputed 

did a tour in Vietnam.. had these issues with his mom
and feeling like he wasn't wanted did his way of thinking harm
 
I guess the things he must have saw really stuck up in to his craw
from my perspective didn’t like him thought his heart was black as tar

my mother had to leave him for fear that  one day he’d  kill us all
without the money he brought in financially we start to fall 

this is a common occurrence the type of disturbance
of many of my peers back then and did the family  such disservice

no form of support..financially or otherwise
just lots of drama shaping how the world is seen through children’s eyes

no correspondence with him heard he moved up to New Jersey
started preaching for some church….yeah that right you heard me

the next time I saw him it was in the city morgue 
drunk himself to death I guess that’s just was the path that he was on










guess my resentment denied me any type contentment
so I grew rowdy and sullen with no sign of repentance

running the street a lot with lots of other broken kids
acting like I had no conscious or a single fuck to give

momma was just trying to live and keep a roof over our heads
so lots of times she can’t keep track of all her sons had ever did  
So
we had brushes with the law for having guns and stealing cars
but never hustled drugs because somehow I thought that went too far

after she had left my dad my mother met another man and
and even though he was a good one I just really couldn’t stand em

I felt like who the hell are you to tell me what the fuck to do
you’re not my father as if my father was someone cool

I’m looking back on all that foolishness  regretting now
because my step father loved us that’s why he stuck around

and his example’s the reason I am the man I am
him and grandad only men that ever gave a damn






I had a baby at the same age that my father was
the mother of my little girl must have  ran out of love

cause not long after that she felt like that she had to split
and left me standing with betrayal and feelings of abandonment

yo I was so fucking pissed and angry thoughts would cloud my mind
and all that hate was corrosive brain felt on fire all the time

through all of that  though I would never walk out on my child
and leave her fatherless to roam this fucked up planet in the wild

so despite the rage I had to keep the monster caged
refused to go out like my father did.. there is no fucking way

and in a weird sort of sense his life inspired me hence
cause that example kept me far enough from out the abyss

left that old grudge behind dead and kept it mostly buried
because that burden got too heavy for my mind to  carry

I just know that if my family’s straight that I’m gonna win
and never says those things about me that I said about him







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sp-404sx + cassettes + guitar

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0:00  -  schb
1:07  -  bwln
2:08  -  crnt [x @forrestfiremessiah]
2:54  -  pvmb
3:38  -  zren
4:43  -  elxs
5:48  -  sqrl
6:52  -  nimh

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