prod/vox/mix: me

you spend your days
punching through tv screens
screaming at other
men in a boxing ring
and you could get out
if you really wanted to
buy a new house
cut out this part of you

i’m holding on
soaked in resentment
claw at the past
anything but the present
i’ll lie on my back
stare at the ceiling
just tell me you love me
or know how i'm feeling

you spend your days
punching through tv screens
screaming at other
men in a boxing ring
and you could get out
if you really wanted to
buy a new house
cut out this part of you

if you can see the future what happens?
if you can see the future what happens?
if you can see the future what happens?
if you can see the future what happens?

i bet you thought
that you talked to god
on that night that i met you
and said you're the one
drunk off attention my
guard wasn't drawn
when you weren't who you are now
just falling for someone

if you can see the future what happens?
if you can see the future what happens? (i could get up)
if you can see the future what happens? (if i really wanted to)
if you can see the future what happens? (buy a new body, erase every part of you)

tv / taroter

prod me
s/o advxrse the goat and alt0 the goat

lyrics:
ball up takin pics with a zip
i ain never goin switch up for a bih unless we click
vetement on my cover yeah ill see you on my kicks
shootin like im Curry in the paint, I never miss 

oh im missing out
your words, your stupid sounds
my heart just filled with doubt
no i can make it out (x2)

keep the music going, i aint tryna hear myself tonight
askin when we starting, tryna get there early for the night
im just hoping all pieces fall right down
im jst hoping that we could work this out

girl you threw away the keys to my heart
your words hit the spot just like a bullseye to the dart
if you wanna restart we could always fall apart again

makeitout

prod me

you took it all and left
no baby i'm so tired of the way you make me feel
my life has been hella boring
look at me i'm a fucking mess
i lost all capabilities of making something right
i'm starting to think the worst
i know it's not healthy but this feeling is a curse
i liked when we talked about the shit that made you laugh
now i'm stuck on the little things i'll wait until i crash
who will take the blame?
if i look back in two years am i the same?
yeah i love my life because i treat it like a game
everyone that I've ever encountered is insane (but who am i to-)
at the end of the night
i miss how you liked
i know its not right but it keeps me up all the time

took it all

fun song for fun times
original https://soundcloud.com/lyn_u/deathwish
produced by me

lyrics:
im longing for the end, i dont wanna breathe ur air
and if i have to make a sacrifice dont sit & stare

when the bands all back together i wanna see them 1 more time
i got problems with attention always reading past the signs
i keep telling myself everythings alright but its a lie
if u hate urself so much why dont u end it all tonight
fucking up my body cause im never satisfied
im a psychopath when i walk in im carrying a knife
dont get influenced they told me but i never even tried
if u hate urself so much why dont u end it all tonight

u kept ur friends and stayed the same i wonder what its like
i been holding onto nothing i just wanna feel alive
screaming at myself he wont answer when i cry
if u hate urself so much why dont u end ur fucking life

i know what u want, i know what u
i know what u want, i know what u
i know what u want, i know what u
i know what u want, i know what u
fucking up my body cause im never satisfied
im a psychopath when i walk in im carrying a knife
dont get influenced they told me but i never even tried
if u hate urself so much why dont u end ur fucking life

i dont need a reason bitch i been moving reckless
everyday i wake up with a target on my chest
they tell me its just a phase they tell me that ill regret this
i dont need a reason move like i got a deathwish
i look in the mirror i see a stranger
if i lost control of myself would it even change ya
eyes blacked out i got too used to the danger
if i tap out would they just write off my anger

when the bands all back together i wanna see them 1 more time
i got problems with attention always reading past the signs
i keep telling myself everythings alright but its a lie
if u hate urself so much why dont u end it all tonight
fucking up my body cause im never satisfied
im a psychopath when i walk in im carrying a knife
dont get influenced they told me but i never even tried
if u hate urself so much why dont u end ur fucking life

deathwish /​fun mix​\

sample @pitifulrock

when i held the world in my hand
i tried to satisfy your demand
i'd write it all down just to forget what you want
when i had your mind at heart
i would cry every time that you called
i would lie just to get what i want out of you
i was a

child and i knew i would die for your love if i'd only a gun
i was breaking and entering, picking the locks just to find out whats wrong x2

if id only a gun

before saying anything in the comments yes, im aware that this beat is ass, i just wanted to make an unserious cypher thingy for fun and post something in this account. 

1) https://soundcloud.com/sebstixns-funerl
2) https://soundcloud.com/oneshotniko
3) https://soundcloud.com/daikore
4) https://soundcloud.com/1dxn
5) https://soundcloud.com/crvnchyy
6) https://soundcloud.com/airoez
7) https://soundcloud.com/julvee
8) https://soundcloud.com/besiah
9) https://soundcloud.com/kawaiichan299

caughtin4kcypher (w/ friends) (prod. sebstixns)

Track 6 aka - I'll cherish these moments forever
Produced by Serena Liars and @saturnnnnnnnn
Mixed and mastered by Serena Liars
Vocals by saturnn
145bpm Amajor

Lyrics:

when im alone and i have nowhere to go
pick up the phone, nobodys home

i could try to speak my mind but my words just seem to choke
i could feel the knife in your hands pulled right under my nose

i refuse to growl at the bars no use in wasting breath
lay my arms on top of the thorns cuz all my wits have left

and everytime you laugh the anger rings throughout my headd
but if i yell with all my might youd leave again! (go!)

take your apology dont write me nothing better
know you hate to see me stand but id convince myself youd never
you sure love to black out, mood swing, change the temper (yeah)

i could try to wipe my eyes and say nothing is wrong
but you would know the truth since im singing this song

it excites me, that i hold the outcome in my hand
i let it past me just because i miss the memories i had

and if you ever try to think about it
youd be way more sympathetic 
i cant be calm about it

Recovered Moments, Never Falter (with saturnn)

april 2025

when i was younger, everybody seemed much older to me
now life is changing and i don’t believe anything i see
farewell, i always knew that you would make it out
i’m still going but as time goes on, the silence gets loud

are you glad that you met me now that we’re friends?
i always pictured myself with you until the end
i put my whole life at risk ‘cause i tried to fit in
family taught me what i know, they taught me everything
i end up starving myself, breaking my fucking hands
they never taught me to stop being codependent

i put down the guitar
sing to myself in my bed as i’m sinking in
i never thought it’d be hard
and when he passed, i had tried to breathe it in
who knew that life would be like this?
my old friends told me i’m psycho, and i didn’t like it
and i try so hard, i’m always trying to fight it

are you glad that you met me now that we’re friends?
i always pictured myself with you until the end
i’d rather kill my best friend than take my fucking meds
family taught me what i know, they taught me everything
if only i would’ve told them i’m a fucking mess
i could’ve learned how to stop being codependent

Codependent

‘what really happened to Walker’

written by Jane Salem Mitchell & Jay Luis Pena
produced by Serena Avery Liars & Jane Salem Mitchell
vocals by Jay Luis Pena & Jane Salem Mitchell

cover art by Jane Salem Mitchell

chicken scratch (with JAYOVSN & Serena Liars)

prod @qlein

am i an idiot
can you say it to my face
am i stupid
im sorry if im late

everybody else seemed to know before me
you dont have to worry youre not doing it for me 

why are you still holding that grudge
baby are we doing too much
i cant help but think that you dont wanna talk
can you promise to me that youll prove me wrong

do you know if im running out of luck
tell me you dont wanna talk fair enough
can you stay for a little i dont ask for much

---

can you tell me where to go from here
im lost im afraid i cant act from fear
dont dogs act weird when the end is near
how do i react to your tantrums

fuck
i dont wanna go home
cant keep up god i feel so slow
no it's not that bad, im overreacting
it's that bad its the right reaction

am i an idiot
can you say it to my face
am i stupid
im sorry if im late

everybody else seemed to know before me
you dont have to worry youre not doing it for me 

wtf am i doing 
2 minute song fuck the mind that im losing 
youre a hypocrite telling me these lies and im sick of it
i needa take a break cause ill never hear the end of it