prod. idly blare

my tears would dry at the sight, of you
you can tell me what you wanna, do
bottle up what she means, to you
but im scared to let go

is there any way to go?
am i trapped here in the corner
im waiting for the snow
and hope that it reminds you of the times, just you and i

wanna marry you tonight
i forgive you for., all the pain, the treachery
i know its hard, but you're made for me my lover

i wont let go
ill show. you
ill prove to God
how much i love you

i promise ill change
and keep it forever 
cause i hurt you
and im sorry
dont replace me

i know itll take, time
but ill be here forever!
change my life, around
cause you need something better

waiting for the snow

i wish that i was better but i just dont know how
i wanna do right by my girl so i can finally say vows
i swear im doing all it takes so im not letting her down
but every time i try to climb my demons pulling me down

i keep a smile up on my face but im just dying inside
i make a toast to all my failures while my soul running dry
i swear i only feel myself when im just too fucking high
its even better when im crossed and i know you wonder why

i gotta problem with myself, and i never feel safe
im holding trauma in my bones, got me feel like a slave
i wish that i could be myself i dont know how to behave
and i could blame this borderline but im too gone to be saved

i wear a mask, but its cracking with age
and im not worth it, less than minimum wage
i think that im a monster, let me me out of my cage
but if you do ill disappear to keep you safe from the rage

what would J do, thats some words to live by
im not coping, im just to get by
say im fine but i know its just a big lie
if you werent around i know id be up in my pigsty

im on saint johns bay, smokin three point five
when im this detached, give a fuck bout life
when im down and out, im reaching for the knife
know they call it self harm, but i call it my life

i swear that im trying, im doing my best
but sometimes its just hard with this weight on my chest
like im just tryna live, like no more and no less
like its hard every day guess its time i confess

if i die, middle of my sleep
i pray the Lord, that my soul He keep
im so messed up, and my roots run deep
i pray for forgiveness, i hope He see me

st johns bay pt 2

prod hollowprpl
guitar by me

lyrics


hes gone now
and all he ever wanted was to be loved
can u calm down 
lately girl i know im messing up
oh im pissed now
and i can only focus what ive done
im a bitch now
i dont think it matters anymore
shut the fuck up
i dont wanna talk about this now
i just thrown up
like 2 or three times , im coming down
im just a no one 
and ill be nothing until im dirt
theres blood in my snot
and in my lungs and it fucking hurts

it costs me my life
cuz i cant be sane again here in my mind
im alone
i see the sympathy die by the window
i really miss what we had
am i too cold?

the constants in my life arent constant anymore 
between you and me im not sober no more
i can die freely, id have no remorse
the meaning of life is to love and mines no more 
oh im horrible

hes gone now
and all he ever wanted was to be loved
can u calm down 
lately girl i know im messing up
oh im pissed now
and i can only focus what ive done
im a bitch now
i dont think it matters anymore
shut the fuck up
i dont wanna talk about this now
i just thrown up
like 2 or three times , im coming down
im just a no one 
and ill be nothing until im dirt
theres blood in my snot
and in my lungs and it fucking hurts

it’s not your fault. [swan dive] (hollowprpl x ash.)

some days I be waking up
and idk why I try no more
some days I just fake this love 
cuz lately I been feeling bored 
not I cannot get enough 
like give me something a little more 
don’t know what I took but it got me feeling good 

i been on some different shit
im stuffing 3 grams in that wood 
no they never high like this,
not high like me they wish they could 

I said ah shit it’s crashing down on me again
and I don’t like it 
back in school I hated that shit 
I said fuck it 

way too ahead of myself I thought I had u in my pocket
I don’t believe in god but it feels like there is someone watching 

some days I be waking up
and idk why I try no more
some days I just fake this love 
cuz lately I been feeling bored 
not I cannot get enough 
like give me something a little more 
don’t know what I took but it got me feeling good 

but i know that someday if i go
like you will think about the past
walking down a lonely road
like thius aint good for my head
i been stuck on auto mode
tryna fix the bad things


but i pray soem day when we are up
may the angels follow us
shit, a couple people left me now 
but they’ll be back so quick
can’t wait o to get up out this town
I fucking hate this shit
my bad it I don’t text u back im 2 busy working

angels [tiresss]

10_things i hate abt u.

10_things i hate abt u. (guttertrvsh)

prod. deadends

lyrics:
whyd it all go wrong
when i fell in love?
said you care you dont
i held on so long

whyd it all go wrong
when i fell in love?
said you care you dont
i held on so long

when you wear that necklace
do you think of me?
or did you throw it out
with the other things?
it only feels a year
but fuck, yeah, its been 3
genie, i only have one wish
i wish that she didnt leave

whyd it all go wrong
when i fell in love?
said you care you dont
i held on so long

whyd it all go wrong
when i fell in love?
said you care you dont
i held on so long

when you wear that necklace
do you think of me?
or did you throw it out
with the other things?
it only feels a year
but fuck, yeah, its been 3
genie, i only have one wish
i wish that she didnt leave

necklace

lyrics ⬇️  

 I made this song on October 14th

its 2 am and you wont talk back
so how should i feel if you off of the map
tell me its real but see that its cap
i wanna walk with you 
for life you wanna take a nap
i got a solid scoop
you wanna lie and you wanna love
so i can’t rock wit you
even if its all that i got left
i tried to hike and it was a trek so it wasn’t worth the move
if its an emergency dial the number an ima put on my shoes
im gonna be there real soon
when i get there i hope ur not upset
i wanna share it with you no bunkbed
said youll be there but you want me to function
dont give a heads up act like its nothin
you couldn’t expect me to sit here breath girl cuz ima choke
you gon see you got ropes around my throat

no no dont remind me what you said
id rather take one to the chest
not a word of it made sense
maybe wed be better- better off as frie-

i couldnt even finish what i was gonna say
cuz it hurt my head too much i wish i could explain
ima keep on trying as long as i see a flame
i jus hate the option you wanna wash it down the drain
what could i say
i know its late
lemme explain
i dont wanna leave you but if u wanna go
lemme tell you everything you wanna know 
but you bolted on a heart of steel

when you touch me ill be colder than November feels
and i know that its been harder than you wanted
when we started i knew you were never honest
now were off it every night and every time i tty i feel like ima fold and die
maybe this all i wanted - its not
you said you were so exhausted 
i should drop
i would rather be alone than ever wanna hear you talk
if u jus gon give me all of that trash i would rather stop
i cannot rock wit no litter bug id rather date a rock. 🪨

litter bug (sk8miles)

prod neverforever & marlon

im on the fence
with smoke in my lungs 
i lost a friend 
burning bridges to dust
it bothers me how
ill forget in a month
i wont think about 
the damage ive done

im just worn out
indifferent to everything
and nothing seems to matter
ive grown into apathy
im tired of trying to keep my feelings on a shelf
why should i need an excuse, when i need time for myself

im on the fence
with smoke in my lungs 
i lost a friend 
burning bridges to dust
it bothers me how
ill forget in a month
i wont think about 
the damage ive done

apathy

saint mike

go
to
the waves

they crash
so much ash
whyd i even ask

somethings got a hold on me
it might be my memories
my crystal brain is shaking
ill be forced to wear a mask

dont test me
mountain peaks
are my remedy

im fighting gravity
it pulls me out to sea
i feel the waves
they spell her name
i hesitate
i gave in

blue gravity

prod. @wraithontheporch

cover art by @enyusroom

@mistralbtw

the alarm sounds
so jump ship quickly
with my arms bound
you’ll barely miss me

Guess I'm just seeking salvation
locked in lately
I invite isolation
don’t be gentle I can take it
all your efforts will be wasted

the way that she shakes my foundation
when she tells me
I'm the red in her painting
clutch your arms around my waist and
trace the cracks upon my plating
all my words become engravings
on the blade that I’ll be slain with
a savior in need of saving
just let me face it
I’ll be complacent

it’s over tho it never felt like it started
to rid me of all was to settle the bargain
go out with nothing, not even as martyrs
save your salutes for the dearly departed

settled down but I am shaking
shaking
shaking
settled down but I am shaking
shaking
shaking

@wraithwilldie

She’s holding tight, said to focus on breaths
Think I am but there’s nothing to do but compress
All my solutions are written in stitches
10 to the arm but who's counting the digits
Placed at the back of my very own value structure
I need to pause dear, I need to buffer
I need to think how to tell her I love her
I’m just a masochistic
Fucking misfit
You need space girl
I need distance
Give my all
And you give pittance
You’re indifferent
Like what’s the difference
I just need some clarity
I sit and wait on wisdom teeth
I break my back and bend to you
And you act like I never do at all

@mistralbtw

Guess I'm just seeking salvation
locked in lately
I invite isolation
don’t be gentle I can take it
all your efforts will be wasted

the way that she shakes my foundation
when she tells me
I'm the red in her painting
clutch your arms around my waist and
trace the cracks upon my plating
all my words become engravings
on the blade that I’ll be slain with
a savior in need of saving
(saving)
(saving)

engravings (wraithontheporch)

Love you all.

i swear im trying my best.
TY NEERDOWELL FOR THE MASTER <3
TY Hero for the public beat king <3
-----LYRICS-----

trees bend slow, they’re watching me in falter  
wind hums low, every gust like an altar  
mind drifts quiet, the mud grips my skin  
I move almost nothing, swamp pulls me in

"There are far worse things 
awaiting man
than,
Death"

break bones static
heart race panic
find myself in the bog saying dammit  
too much noise in the mud cant stand it
sink down now enjoy the panic

black rain  
hit the muck — I vanish  
numb voice in my gut say “can it”  
every thought I clutch goes rancid  
I don’t trust any wound that bandaged  

mud step, cold drip, throat’s clamped shut  
heartbeat thump like a rusted drum cut  
eyes go wide when the dark says “wake up”  
the whole damn world keeps swallowing me up  

left foot sinks and the right one trembles  
can’t keep pace with the thoughts I’m assembled  

can’t trace why my pulse frantic
thoughts bleed out in blur so graphic
chest so tight the air turns tannic
don’t know how to claw back, I manage yeah 

skies turns numb when my eyes lose focus  
blood drip slow like a ritual omen  
ground pulls tight when the tide keeps rollin’  
I’m swallowed again by the dark I’m holdin’  

hands shake soft but the night grows colder  
burden on my chest like a ghost on my shoulders  
try to stand straight but the world tilts over  
I’m slipping so deep I don’t think I’ll recover

mud. (hero)

transmissions from distant skies
sonic maps of planets • atmospheric and cinematic stories you can feel

blue gravity

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