ty ne'erdowell goat for always helping me fix my dogshit mix

lyrics

-Wraith-
Girl don’t you know that
The words you have spoken
Throwing emotion
Are heavy and potent

I tried 
And I don’t know how to fix me
I’m dying to find the path forward
Her eyes paint all that she’s seeing
She’d leave but I’m such a hoarder
I adore her
Fuck no I just scorn her
Make a good fight
God the fucking war hurts
Shot right through the heart
Got the blood on my t-shirt
I don’t feel the love girl
I just feel the recoil

I guess we don't get a happy ending
After all
All that happens always has to have the 
curtains fall
All the tragedy I kill away with alcohol
Try to numb the fucking feelings ‘fore I end it all

Dead on an impulse
Hate all my wishful
Thoughts cause I’m sinking
Right through the soil
Right through the armor
I thought I could guard her
Just another missed call
I can’t ever bother

I tried 
And I don’t know how to fix me
I’m dying to find the path forward
Her eyes paint all that she’s seeing
She’d leave but I’m such a hoarder
I adore her
Fuck no I just scorn her
Make a good fight
God the fucking war hurts
Shot right through the heart
Got the blood on my t-shirt
I don’t feel the love girl
I just feel the recoil

-yungcray-
all the damage that you done
you pierced right through my chest plate
I could never let you go
but if I did I might fade
ur the last piece to the puzzle
ur the key to get out the maze
and in my dreams I see the fire
im trapped below the rubble

I cant seem to help myself
I get into this trouble
is it hard 2 love me now 
got bruises on my knuckles
this shit seems 2 really get the fucking best of me
I cant seem 2 help myself
I get into this trouble

a new high
I said imma reach a new high
a new lie
that you're telling under blue skies
its alright
I said imma do my best to try
a blue night
I said imma reach a new high

I really want whats best for us
but you just think about yourself
you don't care about it
but its all I think about

theres no escape from this place 
I think we'll die here
what is love
its just fake
you said you'd try here

recoil w/ yungcray (dash)

got another stomach ache
a new home, another shape
broke down on the tracks as you walked away
i’m missing home
i watched it burn today

i’ve been chasing dust
it’s such a long road
i’m walking it
two feet in the dirt
it’s a journey and i’m not equipped
climbing up the bridge to look down on this vacant town
but it’ll never feel the same since you’re gone
it’s a different sound

you would take my hand and tell me i am not a letdown
and if i fall this time you won’t be there
i’ll only hit the ground
i paint it all grey
to show there’s nothing left
i’m in a ghost town
one more day
i’ll no longer be around

stomach ache [deadends]

prod hollowprpl
guitar by me

lyrics


hes gone now
and all he ever wanted was to be loved
can u calm down 
lately girl i know im messing up
oh im pissed now
and i can only focus what ive done
im a bitch now
i dont think it matters anymore
shut the fuck up
i dont wanna talk about this now
i just thrown up
like 2 or three times , im coming down
im just a no one 
and ill be nothing until im dirt
theres blood in my snot
and in my lungs and it fucking hurts

it costs me my life
cuz i cant be sane again here in my mind
im alone
i see the sympathy die by the window
i really miss what we had
am i too cold?

the constants in my life arent constant anymore 
between you and me im not sober no more
i can die freely, id have no remorse
the meaning of life is to love and mines no more 
oh im horrible

hes gone now
and all he ever wanted was to be loved
can u calm down 
lately girl i know im messing up
oh im pissed now
and i can only focus what ive done
im a bitch now
i dont think it matters anymore
shut the fuck up
i dont wanna talk about this now
i just thrown up
like 2 or three times , im coming down
im just a no one 
and ill be nothing until im dirt
theres blood in my snot
and in my lungs and it fucking hurts

it’s not your fault. [swan dive] (hollowprpl x ash.)

purple bruises

Lyrics <3 

Taylor - im sorry but I don’t relate , cause there’s no one to call when I break, they tell me im waisting my life cause I’m doing drugs til it rids me away, take a look at myself in the mirror I’m disgusted in everyway, my life full of stress and I’m so depressed , I wish you would pull me outta my brain 

200 the dash , took my pride and threw it in the trash, whole time I was wearing a mask , tryna be someone else didn’t last , 

but either way it goes , imma be alone until I’m bones , all I have is our memories , I’m sorry that I built a broken home ,I’m sorry I was never perfect and sorry I was never worth shit,  I just wanted you to love me and maybe realize I was worth it 

So if we’re being honest I’m a crumb , this ain’t moncler bro I’m a bum, I drink until I go numb , or I drink til I throw upppp , havent seen my daughter in a month , tryna hold it in and act tough , tears drain from my eyelids and nobody cares that I’m fucked

I’m walking in quick sand , sinking by the second , I keep coming back idk when I’ll learn my lesson


Swamp 🐍🐊- It’s muddy in my cup 
And there’s a forest in this blunt 
Ion got time for no bullshit so can we wrap this up
I’m just tryina catch me a buzz
but these Russians ain’t enough 
Should of filled em with more skunk
Instead we’re still here on this love shit 
Like do you even really want this 
Are you upset or just sinkissed 
Like my bad you’re feeling loveless 
I Gues ur skin ain’t the toughest 
Yuh yuh 
But I’m back in ball 
Blockin goofies like a prime Chris Paul 
Oh you wanna talk? Baby don’t hit call 
If your mission is to watch me fall 
Tell the truth, don’t lie to me 
It’s funny I can see the irony 
Let me take a page from Taylor’s diary 
learn to smoke away all my anxiety 
But it’s 
Tough luck 
No chance 
Ima surly fold again 
I’m fucked up 
Oh man 
Don’t leave me here alone my friend


Notahero 🚫🦸‍♂️— burberry glasses on but you’re not in the frame
i don’t wanna leave the house girl i ain’t pregame yet
this shit going back and forth like wii sports tennis
and i keep coming back don’t think i learned my lesson
i don’t wanna get to know you
i don’t even know myself
drunk as fuck in this function singing like alvin
simon on my belt
tommy keep me warm when it’s cold
wear that shit like pelt
if its bout my queen then im gon fold
that’s how the cards dealt
baby your so perfect
i can’t treat you wrong and if i do i don’t deserve it
i might be better gone lately i been feeling worthless
but you tell me that im wrong and swear that i have a purpose





Notcursed 🚫🧙‍♀️- i don’t feel much older
but i’m really worn down
wish i knew when i was younger this was how i’d turn out

cold room flooded out the summer
and i’ve been in this dark mood month after another
it’s been feeling daunting lately
no one here to shape me
yeah i could, i know, but my mental needs saving

i might feel better when the winter comes around
i’ve been finding lost letters that were better unfound
i stay locked in this house
the keys been buried now
you’d think i wanna get out
but i don’t know how

i might get better when i learn to love myself
i’ve been writing less letters to girl who never helped
she still looks like me now
down to the skin
i see you’re getting freaked out
should’ve never let you in

I’m sorry, but I can’t relate w/ safehaven , swamp , notahero & notcursed. (Prod by Cxrter)

lyrics:
say what you will say, but you dont know me, huh
switching every minute cant control me, huh
sippin on the whiskey while i roll me up
leaning on the bottle how i cope, its part of growing up

i cannot escape the torture deep inside my brain
do my favorite shit but i know now its not the same
devil eating at me and its turned into my bane
wanna blow my brains out but i know im not Cobain

honestly i just hope that ill be here for christmas
for xmas, for xmas, for xmas
honestly i dont wish this on my enemies
enemies, enemies, im my own enemy

if you knew how fucked that i really was
i know youd disappear second shit get rough
but i learned to ride alone when the road get tough
you say forever but deep down i know im not enough

you probably hate all the ways that im beside me
im distraught about the things that still inside me
so its whiskey to my gullet, way you find me
i know im passed out on the couch just dont remind me

honestly i just hope that ill be here for christmas
for xmas, for xmas, for xmas
honestly i dont wish this on my enemies
enemies, enemies, im my own enemy

you dont know me

prod saint mike

Who am i but a planet carver
Ill strike you down

See me
Im lost
At what cost
I thought i was an astronaut

But im just a planet carver
Im a watcher from this ship i call my coffin

I will strike you down with anger
Flying saucer
Astronomic
Subatomic
Under the oceans waves
They carve up into the plains

You can see it from the milky way
In the sky real bright who am I but a planet carver

PLANET CARVER

she was walking out the door
she dont wanna stay no more
I never cried like this before
I dont want another whore
she dont know what to believe in
got used to the sight of you leaving
told me she dont like me keeping secrets
  
baby can you keep a secret? secret? secret?    
living, living, living life in-
living life in regret, regret, regret
baby, baby, baby can you?
can you keep a secret? secret? secret?    
living, living, living life in-
living life in regret, regret, regret
baby, baby, baby can you?
can you keep a secret?

can you keep a secret?
baby can you, can you keep it?
im blinded by the city lights
if you make a promise will you keep it?
and I dont know what to believe in
she got used to the sight of me leaving
I told her I dont like her keeping secrets
baby can you keep a secret?
she dont like me keeping secrets
baby can you, can you keep it?
she dont like me keeping-
im blinded by the city lights
if you make a promise will you keep it?
got used to the sight of you leaving
blinded by the city lights
secret, secret, secret
blinded by the city lights
baby can you?

can you keep a secret? secret? secret?    
living, living, living life in-
living life in regret, regret, regret
baby, baby, baby can you?
can you keep a secret? secret? secret?    
living, living, living life in-
living life in regret, regret, regret
baby, baby, baby can you?
can you keep a secret?

secret (sustain)

lyrics

eof:

it’s taken too long to forget your face
it’s taken too long to to get out this place
i didn’t know what to do when you told the truth
said you were leaving me in a day or 2 
oh in day or 2 like fuck you
you didn’t give me anytime now my screws are loose
i mean this fucked over my life but it’s what you had to do
i wanna hate you but i guess that’s what true love will do

it’s what true love will do it’s what true love will do
i packed this blunt with purple hairs and now im feeling blue
blue, baby can you tell me what’s new
cause ever since you left me i’ve been losing my mind
yeah i swear i do this all the fucking time
drop a couple track and then i go ghost online
but i swear i really ain’t that hard to fuckin find
yeah find, i do this all the time

notahero:

no surprise
every night if im getting sleep its cause im fried
remember that one night that had left me traumatized
if i keep on taking these drugs ill feel alright
but if i keep on taking these drugs then imma die
okay so we gotta get violent
crazy how your love feels just like violence
im too geeked with my homies in the jag
amiro rose the fronto leaf up like a flag
i just pray at night that you feel it too
believe me i dont want to walk away from you
frankly i dont know why i keep running right back to you
can we work this out
i know i dont talk a lot
i just dont want to fight
so i guess youre right

brecken:

know you well
send a couple texts and ghost me its alright
its hard to feel you said but that was after we had something nice

but its alright its alright
i swear i seen this a hunnid times
you’ll keep stallin til its too late then it’s never mind
wishy washy you gon trip while ima stay in line
and ion change the topic ik that you changin mine
you said im genuine and genuinely i feel i fell short
stuff i never said somehow makin you run out the door
put away my sword
ill open the gate
thought these castle walls would make it harder to escape
nah nah nah im wrong once again knew id break
& howd it take a day or two for you cuz i been upset
& u been much less
howd you make me feel a way and then u dump me out with the rest
it made me loveless
made me love less

lil booj:

they just wanna know all about you 
once they know enough it’s all let go
they don’t want it any further closing up  

theres no rush yeah to take that final toll 
It’s not my role 
swear that it’s the same doing what I’m told 
take off the rust forming on my soul 
what am I to do with a core so cold 

Got nothing to say about it sure take that time 
come around to the answer when I’m calling that’s my sign 

Little burden never there when you want me 
rolling up king size on the balcony 
you can hear the metal clang when I’m walking 
I think you’d be the last person to cause a scene

eof:

it’s taken too long to forget your face
it’s taken too long to to get out this place
i didn’t know what to do when you told the truth
said you were leaving me in a day or 2 
oh in day or 2 like fuck you
you didn’t give me anytime now my screws are loose
i mean this fucked over my life but it’s what you had to do
i wanna hate you but i guess that’s what true love will do

eof x notahero x brecken x lil booj - in a day or 2 (wstdtime x sorrowbringer)

Love you all.

i swear im trying my best.
TY NEERDOWELL FOR THE MASTER <3
TY Hero for the public beat king <3
-----LYRICS-----

trees bend slow, they’re watching me in falter  
wind hums low, every gust like an altar  
mind drifts quiet, the mud grips my skin  
I move almost nothing, swamp pulls me in

"There are far worse things 
awaiting man
than,
Death"

break bones static
heart race panic
find myself in the bog saying dammit  
too much noise in the mud cant stand it
sink down now enjoy the panic

black rain  
hit the muck — I vanish  
numb voice in my gut say “can it”  
every thought I clutch goes rancid  
I don’t trust any wound that bandaged  

mud step, cold drip, throat’s clamped shut  
heartbeat thump like a rusted drum cut  
eyes go wide when the dark says “wake up”  
the whole damn world keeps swallowing me up  

left foot sinks and the right one trembles  
can’t keep pace with the thoughts I’m assembled  

can’t trace why my pulse frantic
thoughts bleed out in blur so graphic
chest so tight the air turns tannic
don’t know how to claw back, I manage yeah 

skies turns numb when my eyes lose focus  
blood drip slow like a ritual omen  
ground pulls tight when the tide keeps rollin’  
I’m swallowed again by the dark I’m holdin’  

hands shake soft but the night grows colder  
burden on my chest like a ghost on my shoulders  
try to stand straight but the world tilts over  
I’m slipping so deep I don’t think I’ll recover

mud. (hero)

i like it when i say ur name
and you say mine back 
if i text you still reply 
and it makes me smile 
it was by the powerlines
where you stole my heart 
i dont need to have it  back
you can keep it for a while 

we watched the fireworks and sat 
we both had this  pull it wasnt spoken only felt  
must have been the  power station buzzing in  the back  
i know some memories are best kept
frozen in time.. and its true
hold it inside.. every day i wake up i still think of you
frozen in time.. it would hurt too much so i wont ask the truth 
and you slow the time every time 
and all the things i wish youd say
i realize youll never say
but i guess thats what wishings for
so ill just hope and pray 
i just heard some static like your voice inside my head
but it was just the buzzing from the power station   
and right before my birthday we stayed in
if u want me to come back just say when 
in that house in my old bed 
i keep having dreams that i wake up and noones there 
theres no longer comfort in the loneliness 
 i reached out my hand cause you were holdin it 
on and on
i hope that you still keep the things that i made on your walls
you make my heart stop
frozen in time
and on and on
i sat on the porch you layed on the lawn 
i hope you keep the things that i made on your walls 
everything i said i swear i meant it all
at least you think im pretty
if you could go back i hope youd still kiss me
i still think youre the most beautiful girl ive ever seen

i like it when i say your name and you say it right back 
if i text you still reply and it makes me smile
on the porch face to face
when i gave you my heart
i dont need to have it back
you can keep it for a while
we watched the fireworks and sat
we both had this pulse it wasnt spoken only felt 
must have been the power station buzzin in the back
i know some memories are best kept 
frozen in time
hold it inside
frozen in time
and you slow the time every time


<3 i miss u

fireworks & powerlines

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