i meant it when i said i loved you, i'm sorry it didn't last.

produced by heylog

lyrics:
knew this was all a mistake
as soon as i gave u grace
no matter what i'll b here
she said to me "pls just stay"
i'm at my lowest i've been
don't think i could get lower
so let's share what we have
n fall deep low together
the bones rot in the grave
and they'll all think that he's insane
but i continue to hold me
i swear to god i'm ok

couldn't get lower than this, even if i try my best
don't wait for me in the end, cus i'm never coming back
are u lost, are u a stray
you look like u seem afraid
do u need somewhere to stay
don't worry i'll keep u safe
but promise you'll hold my hand 
cus this world is such a mess
and they will try to break us
so we can't fall for their tricks
i'm at my lowest i've been
don't think i could get lower
so let's share what we have
n fall deep low together
the bones rot in the grave
and they'll all think that he's insane
but i continue to hold me
i swear to god i'm ok

spotify

keep u safe

https://soundcloud.com/heylog

lyrics:
staring at the random number
but my mind is at a blank
lookin at my computer
so i ask, "who is this"
it was my lover
how could i forget?
ur light im thunder
ill hurt u twice again
staring at the late phone call
whoops did i miss that on purpose?
yeah that was intentional
and all this distortion
girl i never wanted this
for u to go off to college
and honestly i hated it
so id never have a chance

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

i tried my best baby but this is never gonna happen
im not the one to show love, shouldve known that was a problem
i picked these flowers for u i know u probably tossed em
now i just be resting from girls n everybody
she dont really love me
she just like to attention
how am i this stupid
omg im gonna lose it
take in all this caffeine
i still have no energy
drinking all this coffee
still got no energy

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

at least i didn't forget

heylog - at least i didn't forget

produced by heylog

lyrics:
would u like to meet in the summer
catch up on life or should i even bother to plan a dine
i don't really even know where u reside
pick apart my soul and it feel like
something has been missing
right now i really miss u
n when i'm alone i wish i could reach out and kiss you
but life isn't fair
no life's never fair
the one i truly loved is gone now i'm the only one that's here
man i'm really done, getting tired, might just book a plane
this the same shirt i wore, for like 3 days
throw it on, roll my eyes looking mad at the stains
no if u can't handle this then u can't handle me
i'm busy hangin w myself so i got no time
to come through and drink booze or waste my life
peer pressure, i said i don't wanna get high
but the pressure continues i got a fragile mind
so i fantasize about a future that lies
and u are in it w me, all the way till we die
but i don't want it to seem like i am forcing
anything oh at all, just tell me what u think

always feelin down, guess this is life
surprised i live another night
surprised i haven't took my life
surprised i'm even still alive
but i got way too much to lose
i don't do it for me, i do it for you
i put away the knife, i did that for you
i'm wonderin if u can see, i'm right in front of you

so i fantasize about a girl who i'd die for
and she look up to me, like "ur the one that i search for"
but that's too good to be true
and that is my point of view
if i had to ask one thing
would you die for me too
so would u wanna run away with me..?
through the mountains and things i've never seen
on a hill maybe lay down by a tree
and close my eyes with a little bit of breeze
she said, "i can't do this log... i can't look after u no more"
so why u telling me this now?
i thought u had me figured out

man i'm really done getting tired might just book for a plane
in the north montana, gotta isolate
need someone to break my heart to feel something
cus i deserve it i've caused way too many pains
so i fantasize about a girl who i'd die for
and she look up to me, like "ur the one that i search for"
but that's too good to be true
and that is my point of view
if i had to ask one thing
would you die for me too

reside

little song that I did so you guys can have something to listen to before I can release smth longer, I still hope that all of you will enjoy it ^^ (I also been inspired by https://soundcloud.com/heylog - give them a listen!!)

produced/mixed/mastered by me

insta:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

Truth hurts
don’t want to hear no more
and I know
that you just had enough
of me
to be honest, I understand
that’s on me
just pin the blame on me

we both know what’s better
for us and we can never
fix us cause we will never
come to get to know each other

and I’m completely honest
truth hurts but we’ve been trying
was it really all for nothing
was it really all for nothing

and I don’t wanna solve it
let’s leave it and forget it
I won’t be even trying
to reconnect as friends
 
Let’s seperate our paths
And heal these fucking cuts
We both had bunch of knives
stabbed in our backs

Truth hurts
don’t want to hear no more
and I know
that you just had enough
of me
to be honest, I understand
that’s on me
just pin the blame on

Truth hurts
don’t want to hear no more
and I know
that you just had enough
of me
to be honest, I understand
that’s on me
just pin the blame on me

truth hurts

produced by heylog

lyrics:
am i alive? guess we'll know if i breathe
i killed them all i can live in peace
i lost a lot, praying for enemies
avoiding evil that i might bring
i'll fight till death if it keeps u safe
i'll kill them all just to make sure ur okay
they charge at me, hold my ground, be brave
i lost my mind and there's nothing that remains

(one, two, three, go)

i just wrote you a letter
i wish u the best
yea i been doin better
and that's a big step
u got what u asked for
a life with no us
but u come back for more
and it's never enough
i just sent a letter
all the way from home
i'll miss u forever
why'd u have to go
i'm caught up in the center
baby i could die
it has been a pleasure
i'll meet u in the sky
this is it yea can't let down my guard
i never talk man, don't put me in charge
i cut her off should've done that from the start
leaving marks
i don't love me
why do i continue? swim in agony
we were so close until u stabbed me
i cut u off too cause u were bad for me
don't come back to me no

i'm so nervous right now i'm tweaking, why can i not speak
i fidget, it's so obvious i have anxiety
u sat there and did nothing while u saw me slowly bleed
i wiped it from my skin now there's scars for eternity
am i okay? guess we'll know if i breathe
check for my pulse to make sure it beats
i lost a lot, it's too much for me to see
i talk to god, praying for my enemies

the war II

produced by heylog
guitar by ashen

lyrics:
my minds
dizzy and my head is way too light 
middle of nowhere just i
now i wish u could be here
the plan is to go disappear

no i
wanna leave so bad i sigh
and i'm sick of everything i cry
and i don't if i should be scared
just let me know if you'll be here
cause i'm too used to people leaving
why is it never good timing
and i'm sick apologizing 
when ur the one who should b sorry
i'm sick
i'll pass it over with one kiss
now we're both sharing our dna
too soon for home yea i'll be there late
still see grey

i'm sick
i'll pass it over with one kiss
now we're both sharing our eye's
what is it like sharing lives?
tonight i plan to make u mine
hearts so lost, thinking u could change that
i been through a lot and i lost a couple friend's 
but if i'm being honest i could care less
i don't wanna go through hell again
i need nothing, from u or anyone
i see something in her, i felt like i have won
(won)
translate my words into love
a better me, better evolve
no i
wanna leave so bad i sigh
and i'm sick of everything i cry
and i don't if i should be scared
just let me know if you'll be here
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made this with strep throat yuh

evolve

prod deadfish <3

socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig

lyrics:

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid

I never wanted
to end up like that
alone and aching 
with no one to talk about stuff
that troubles me and I can't
deal it with on my own
I've been to therapy
didn't listen now I'm at the start

I never wanted to feel like a burden oh no
so sick of hearing that I'm better off dead
Don't need your pity, no
I Don't want any meds
I know I'm god damn numb
but pills just won't help

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid
x2

Afraid

Cold breath running down my neck
Life been constant stress
Know that I'm a mess
No more tears are left now
Thought we had a chance
Said its for the best
Still I know that you'll be coming back around, coming back around
Still faded, been playing myself for too long
Narcissistic prick only listen to my own songs
Always bullshittin' swear that you would never do me wrong
Always lies, know I really wish that you would prove me wrong

Fool me once, it's okay know I've been thru this
Fool me twice and that trigger might get pulled man
Saying I'm the same as I once was, been a lost cause
No more speaking rip your jaw off
Fool me once, it's okay know I've been thru this
Fool me twice and that trigger might get pulled man
Saying I'm the same as I once was, been a lost cause
No more speaking rip your jaw off

I don't trust your boy know he lying every word
If any girl come near me, there's no option but to curve
Always laying low, only talking to myself
I'm starting to realize that this ain't good for my health
Lonely, met a new one
Is it too soon to say that I'm in love?
Hold me, physical touch
Surprised I got you, guess it was luck

Don't show my face oh please don't record
Don't let him in, promise me you'll ignore
Drowning my voice, don't care if it distorts
I want your love I need more I need more
You need to quit
Alcoholic
She hauling two beers and that's not attractive
But your so pretty on the outside
Hurting inside
Stay with me if you wanna walk a straight line

spotify link<3

lostcause w/ heylog (31sentinel)

'me' produced by heylog

lyrics:
you see
i'm always down
down bad and
turn around
walking backwards
hit the ground
lookin up pushing me down
my biggest enemy
is
me
but how can
this
be
look i
step in a party
wonder why
am i here 
and check the time
check the weather 
and do it twice
then i realize my biggest enemy
is
me
but how can
this
be?

if u know me well enough then u know i got flaws
u gotta get going, when u leave i shut off
argue with me all the time i'm just overthinking
grab the brain and took the mind connecting all the pieces oh
the enemy
here is me
this whole time..
i been
in front of me

can't get me to stop
my shoes giving me blisters
it's difficult to crop u out the picture
but i gotta do it one of these days or later
baby i'm a nuisance
my hearts covered in layers oh
the enemy
here is me
this whole time
i been..
in front of me
look here i go through it
this not a joke i'm so pissed
wake up and mope, slouching
always no hope
(but don't quit)
hate on myself
that's my loss
i don't need help
i'm so done
one two three four
i'm it
but i give up
you win
take me out the frame i don't do this
swear like every single day i'm always losing
can't tear me apart already ruined
but i don't know why u lie what are u doing
already knew it
hating myself twice now i don't even cry no more
underneath my eyes, rapidly bounce back and forth
seeing through your lies
now i don't get phased
but thank god, now i realize
that the enemy is me

'the war III' produced by heylog

lyrics:
resting my eyes wonder if this is a dream
barely get by, drips of blood stain through my fleece
stumbled across some stones near the creek
stopping i pause and hear the angels sing
gasping breaths of air, vision narrow and it's blurred
stop telling me to calm down that only makes it worse
sharpen i got claws now, cutting through my shirt
this is not the end just know soon i will return
watching people die, i cannot look or see
covering my eyes, i hear the distant screams
plugging both my ears but the sound bleeds
crying more tears than it is raining
throw it all away could tell u didn't care
is that all u got? love when it ain't fair
move me out and crop the picture, never there
people love to talk but never wanna square

tell me what u want baby tell me what u need
going through it all everything is out of reach
engaging in a fight everyone is scared of me
but they will never know deep down i'm only weak
please just hear me out can u promise me one thing
i can never win if u promise you'll never leave
baby i'm alone, does life have any means?
falling through the cracks and slipping right through the seams
stepping on the gas
quarter of a tank
i gotta ways to go but i know i have the strength
not in crowds or packs
2 if even that
i fight all by myself, capable of what i have

go in pissed off risking my life
stranded, panic tracking the time
dangerous hatred, kill and divide
this is not what i had implied
bleeding out, mission abort
loose ties, cutting the cords
stable, carry support
no i don't care if this all distorts
contradicting yourself, you make no sense
i try to get me to talk but i'm so dense
shoot my thoughts at the floor and think again
my depression is war, a chain of events
u made a mistake of losing this
now i feel unworthy of so many things
i continue to grow, thanks to a screen
and continue to fly feeling free

trusting my gut
made the right choice
when is it time to stop feeling destroyed
bottom of the ocean
fell into a void
i kinda like it here no sign of any noise
fighting for my life
this is the war III
letting go of souls
who were so close to me
aching won't stop
my heart from leaving
charging with no hope
but i have to believe

believe
believe
believe oh, i need to believe

the war III

produced by me
hope you enjoy <3

lyrics:

Lay in my bed and the time
Is running away but thats fine
I feel like I dont try enough
To make anything out of my life

Tell me that I am not wasting my time
Tell me that I didnt fuck up my life
Feed me your lies and make me feel secure
I can’t tell the truth and dont want to anymore

Dont call on my phone
Leave me alone
You say you’re a bro
But I don’t think so, no

I don’t want to hide
But I dont have a choice
Bottle it up
I feel like a toy

Seems like every day’s just getting worse
And I’m taking all these pills but there’s no difference at all
Its gotten to the point where I’ve given up hope
But I keep on faking smiles cause they want me to

I can’t just sit n chill
By myself cause then I would
Find myself just breaking down
Thinking bout my life and how

Itd be easier to end it
Thinking bout it but then still
I got someone to live for
Dont know how much I need them

Lately its been way too much
Weight on both my arms
Been carrying way too much
Troubles, stress still not enough

Looking at the time and I’m wasted
FUCK
It’s another day, nothing changing
Still feel like shit and head’s aching
Take another pill and forget it
x2

change

produced by me and @heylog

socials:
www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

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lyrics:

I’m broken, I know that
I’m trying to get up
I’m falling apart
That should be enough

showing my good side
Have to keep my composure
But always get angry
I’m tryna keep it closed

Tell me something
I’ll ignore it
Always angry
I’m just broken

Take it out
On people that I care about
Always sorry
For all the stuff that I have done

Someday I’ll fade
Away, regrets
Still there 
6 feet in the ground
With me

Don’t need you to
Pity me, I don’t
Deserve anything
Oh anything at all

on a borderline to kill all things i obtain
all i gave was kindness, u don't provide the same
i leave it all inside but man i'm bound to explode
i'm holding in my blood that just might come out my nose

i don't really see a point in this
ima cut you and your stupid friends
before i hang up get the bye bye
no voicemail i got the right mind

ima bleed out if i don't cover up
my wounds hurt, they're all deep cuts
so i stg u need to stay away
behind my back i could feel ur blade so

stab me good and cut my face and gouge out my eyes
staring at a wall i've stared at too many times
the way the shadow shapeshifted its way in the light
sinking to the floor cus it turns out i was right

broken

broken (feat. heylog)

stream

'destroy' produced by heylog

lyrics:
often this summer we fight & start over
u were the best but this bye ain't forever
i'll make some space for ur tears on my shoulder
cus i'll still be here when ur ready to come home

don't cry i'm here with u
through every bump i still love you
don't give up, we'll survive the storm
i promise to keep u warm
babe i try but it's so hard
another boy is probably locked in ur arms
i have no hope of trying again
do u believe we've come to an end

i'm so goin numb, rip my heart out and my guts
love for me is lost and this pain is all for what?
(why)
i built an outer shell, ain't no one allowed in here
i keep my circle small and i shrink it every year
i'm still growing up and i fear the endless void
that i might get sucked in and soon to be destroyed
(destroy)
never would i want u to feel like ur not safe
i see fear in ur eyes when i found ur true place
why u always lie
don't joke it's not the time
i'm not here to pick sides
i'm just here to sit tight
she leveled to my waistline
and give me the rude eye
no something don't sit right
emotionless incline

I ALWAYS GET WORSE BEFORE I GET ANY GOOD
WHY CAN I NOT LEARN WHEN I KNOW I PROBABLY SHOULD
I LOOK AT MYSELF AND I HATE THE FACE I SEE
YOU WON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT THESE WORDS TRULY MEAN
	
i just need to isolate before i go and lose it
on some stupid situation i have no control with
watch me think over my head
at this point i'm useless
i won't match up to your degree
who in here is uncommon like me
just leave me alone
before i destroy us
away with everything
and everyone

destroy

https://open.spotify.com/album/2erLjZg3vJPYobdmKrexhW?si=Iu-yZ4N-Qc-Ec5v5DKoxrg

prod. @deademane

(heylog)
between the glass
is filled with poison
i feel like trash
apply the ointment
just stay back
he needs some time alone
cus through the cracks
is the widows home
don't come inside here
i would bounce
we're not alive here
don't stick around
when ur minds clear
come in the house
cus i'm not safe here
so get me out

don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

(casperrr)
oh she
she is lying thru her teeth
i swear that she wants to kill me
lay with my lifeless body
while staring at the ceiling
her actions are deceiving
she cuts herself she's bleeding
the blood is running and she really
fucking loves to see it

welcome to the widows home
there's cracks and holes in every wall
the emptyness fills all those holes
this place really tourments my soul
but you can't leave neither can i
i'll go into a room and cry
i'll try to just make up my mind
cut my hair lock myself inside

there's nowhere to go to now
there's no1 to save you now

(heylog + casperrr)
don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

casperrr x heylog - there's nothing left here (deademane)

produced by me
hope you enjoy <3

socials:
www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

discord.gg/hsUwdAJknJ

lyrics:

And I’m so sick of always fucking up
Always apologize, it’s the last time
Blame it on me, i’m never good enough
Lost my peace, now I lash out

Cant get rid of the taste out my fuckin mouth
Carve out my tongue, said too much, bleeding out
Doesnt matter what I do, it’s way too late
Screaming out and procrastinate

I can’t
Stay here
Mental
Dread and
Pain gets
Stronger
Isolated

I can’t keep it up, nah
Throw me out, leave me to rot
I think it’s easier that way for me
You have no say in this, so just leave me

I dont care what they say
I ignore, most of dms
I don’t know why it’s so hard to
Keep a convo, maybe laugh

Caught myself staring at the ceiling
Everyone pretends they know the feeling
7 years has passed and I’m still healing
You will never know what I’m concealing

Caught myself staring at the ceiling
Everyone pretends they know the feeling
7 years has passed and I’m still healing
You will never know what I’m concealing

blame

produced by heylog

lyrics:
her eyes frown upon me looking at the mess
marks are on my shoulder blade and right below my neck
oh she can't stand the look i give her back
please don't be afraid
it was just a little scratch

it was just a little scratch..

u make me nervous
sending chills from head to toe
i could feel ur fingertips 
dig into my bones
i'm not scared at all
you can have me by my throat
her iris weakens thee
the brown just got a hold of me

a hold of me..

you look cold so i'll keep u warm
keep u warm
walking through the snow and i see ur door
see ur door
u look so pretty waiting there for me
there for me
sparks are round ur eyes when u stare at me
stare at me

stare at me
stare at me..

iris

produced by me

lyrics:
wanna be alone cause it's quiet
locked up in my room, no more fighting
plug both of my ears, hear no riot
put away my feelings, no more crying

no talk
thorns out
mask on
happy home

always feel ignored and nobody wanna take me
seriously for once, why you think I'm always faking
walk around my   room with no purpose, thoughts are pacing
wish I had the guts, cause the future fucking scares me

always feel ignored and nobody wanna take me
seriously for once, why you think I'm always faking
walk around my room with no purpose, thoughts are pacing
wish I had the guts, cause the future fucking scares me

don't go the way I went cause you'll end up with scars
I just want a piece of quiet, is it too much to ask?
rarely check up on my phone, cause it's filled with demands
I can't meet ur expectations, you been asking too much

please stop yelling, I've been trying
please stop pushing, please stop fighting
I dont wanna see you crying
I just wanna feel 
(at home)

home

prod logan

lyrics:
hearing conversations that i don't know what they're talkin bout
give a little lip and bet you know that i'll be walking out
holding up the line like seriously what are you on about
stepping up to fight, do you think i'm afraid to knock u out
gloves up, round one
i can't wait to pounce ya
blood bath, get smacked
come on, can you hit back
no chance, throw hands
punch him in his throat glands
your boy is a pussy and i'd like to throw w you next

your excuse is blaming her being a hoe
if that was new to me i'd kill you on the low
but i was stupid then and brushed it off
i'm in the trees and my bow is drawn

it doesn't matter
i'm moving like better than ever
it's all been captured
you notice how there is a pattern
i take a weapon and turn it into an aesthetic
i take aggression out all on myself & accept it
she looks so fine
i won't let her know why
"i like your hair and your pretty blue eyes"
i'm a disaster, oh baby i'm a disaster
and does that matter
oh baby does that really matter

𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘢 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳

POSTED OUTSIDE
WAR IS COMPLETE
I FOUGHT FOR MY LIFE
IT GOT DEADLY
BLOOD ON MY FACE
STOP HOLDING ME
DODGING A M-
BUT I DON'T RETREAT
don't you ever talk a-
wake up & i'm winning
how does second feel when i'm first
my life might be lame-
least that i'm not lamer
cry
i gotta get going and i hope to see you never

disaster

producer: @deadfishpoland

featured artist: https://soundcloud.com/goodbyewilson

lyrics:

'another suicide attempt, why would you do that'
my family concerned, why they didn't knew that
all you have is talk with us, that's what we're here for
no one knows it isn't easy, when you're sucidal

feeling like a burden, do you know the feeling
Won't talk with nobody, rather stare at the ceiling
Don't want to be a problem, that's what I'm thinking
try to change my point of view with "just get a grip kid"

Depression, you're always sad?
Just don't think about that
You're seeing things and you're scared
You know there's nothing there
Panic attacks, you can't breath?
Just calm down and you'll see
You can't get out of your bed?
Just pull yourself together

"YOU'RE DEPRESSED? HOLY SHIT I DIDN'T KNOW THAT"
WHY DO EVERYBODY THINKS, IT'S EASY TO JUST SAY THAT
PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER AND JUST TALK WITH US ABOUT IT
I FEEL LIKE I MUST PRETEND THAT I'M ALWAYS HAPPY
X2

Nothings ever easy when your suicidal
Catch me on the floor broken bottle poisoned vitals
Move on with the day because the pressure hasn’t killed me
End it with a bang because the pleasure what I’m feeling

You have no idea how bad that I wish that I could tell you
If only it would work and you could save me with your help soon
Cuz time is running out n I don’t think your gonna make it
But I’ll hold out my hand in hopes that you are gonna take it

Can’t you see that it’s tearing me up
While these thoughts keep on breaking me down
I just wish I could turn this around
But Not more than I wish I was underground

"YOU'RE DEPRESSED? HOLY SHIT I DIDN'T KNOW THAT"
WHY DO EVERYBODY THINKS, IT'S EASY TO JUST SAY THAT
PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER AND JUST TALK WITH US ABOUT IT
I FEEL LIKE I MUST PRETEND THAT I'M ALWAYS HAPPY
X2

Mental Illness

spotify/iTunes etc

Mental Illness (feat. goodbyewilson)

guitars were done by SADisfying & heylog

lyrics:
and i try to run from u but i end up right back where i begin
her waist is skinny young face may i borrow u just for one sec
and there's this place we'll stay where the fire burns, it's nice and quiet
ill be by your side i swear take care of u until i end
i'm in the mud cut up god forgive me for i have sinned
i pull out the nails and heal i guess that's what i get
and i'm pullin out my hair and i'm still learning how to control it
but i'm still doubting me to this day i'm really tryna fix it
and you're a thousand miles away i bet tonight u look so good
while im a mess with bags under my eyes and i don't look good
and i run from u and i recommend that u run from me too
and u left me but i left u don't know if we'll be back together soon

i write this song i'm scared to death no one will even like it
and i dump my thoughts to the world i'll probably regret this
and i can't sleep if ur rent free in and out of my head
so basically i'm starting to think i'll be like this for infinite
and you're a thousand miles away i bet tonight u look so good
while im a mess with bags under my eyes and i don't look good
and i run from u and i recommend that u run from me too
and u left me but i left u don't know if we'll be back together soon
and you're halfway across the world i bet tonight u look so good
while im a mess and my hairs a nest and im too ashamed to look
and i fell for u and i recommend that u fall for me too
and u left me but i left u first i hope we'll meet again soon

i meant it when i said i loved you, i'm sorry it didn't last.

sav.