from soap water album, by carwash 
℗ 2021 Playroom

friendship [carwash]

why can I feel

when I’m not real

cause I can’t  eat I can’t sleep I can’t think 

without you on my mind 

Everytime

when I'm not real+1.o

donovan

It’s just something that I thought about 
Never thought that I would act it out 
Try to make it past another day 
Another day where I don’t harm myself 
A premonition of a funeral 
And my name is on the headstone 
When you looked at me I felt ashamed 
I couldn’t help but hate what I became

There was a ritual inside of the grove 
A thousand souls but I still feel alone 
A pale horse was standing by my side 
I lit a flame hoping we would be entwined 
I don’t know what I thought I could achieve 
I only wished that I receive eternal sleep 
There was a body dead in front of my feet 
I looked em in the face and noticed it was me

Pale Horse

I hate you like I hate the smell of cigarettes 
the sweet but bitter scent of Florence 
but I love you and I love the love we shared 
but was it love or was it just manipulation?
you didn’t call, gave no words of reassurance 
you just disappeared 
and I have no idea if you were real at all
but the person that I used to know has died 

new emotion, a pain i’ve never felt before 
the depth of this feeling’s inconceivable 
I don’t wanna feel anymore 

did three years mean anything to you?
or do you only care about your reputation?
I think I made you up inside my head 
when I see you now, I only see a stranger 

avoiding you at every cost it takes
but I still want to catch a glimpse for some reason 
I saw you through the window of the bus
I saw your eyes but was there anything behind them?
and do you even feel remorse for what you did?
if you loved me then you never would’ve done it 
you plunged the knife directly in my back 
and run away as if it never even happened 

new emotion, a pain i’ve never felt before 
the depth of this feeling’s inconceivable 
I don’t wanna feel anymore 

did three years means anything to you?
or do you only care about your reputation?
I think I made you up inside my head
when I see you now, I only see a stranger  

and even as I pour my heart into a song, you still don’t care 
and I could write a thousand words on how I feel 
but it would never satisfy me

and you continue living your own life 
and just discard me like I never even mattered 
I wonder who is staring back at you 
when you look yourself directly in the mirror 
the sweet facade that everybody knew will fade away with time 
for now you’ll keep on lying to yourself 
and you’ll just leave me here to shrivel up and die 

new emotion, a pain i’ve never felt before 
the depth of this feeling’s inconceivable 
I don’t wanna feel anymore 

did three years mean anything to you?
you clearly only care about your reputation
I know I made you up inside my head 
and when I see you now I only see a stranger

stranger

Eyes

Enjoy (Demo)

My personal favorite on the album, It's the song that started it all.

The Goddess

I dont mean to swear 
At what time would I find you 
Here and there
Jealousy 
I know you’d rather watch a movie 
Or two
And we’d much rather be out casting spells
But you look so cozy and loved and well

The puffiness in your eyes says otherwise 
My lawn needs mowing and I could use a hand or two 
Just keep your distance and stay up there
Don’t come down or you might not see where 
All along we tried to catch butterflies 
Escaping reality that sought to make you cry 

No matter how hard I try,
No matter how hard I fight

I don’t wanna leave you I know that
Mama bird stay safe on my tree
This weather gets real cold and rainy but I’ll keep you safe 
wait wait wait for me There’s 
time and I won’t bother you much
Just let me hear your song again 
Baby bird

friendship [carwash]

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