featuring @h3artch3rades
circa — October 2021

But it feels like every time I try
You end up falling for another guy
It feels like you don't want me in your life
It's like you would rather just fucking die
And I hate to be that guy
But I don't really wanna waste your time
And I don't really wanna be too shy
But it feels like you're the only one that makes me feel alright

Two steps ahead, that's how I'm feeling
Thinking about me all night got you dreaming
And I believe everything happens for a reason
I want to feel like your air is what I'm breathing
I know it's hard for you
Just believe in yourself, we can make it through
You know I will always try for you
If you believe in me, let's make an attempt to push through

But it feels like every time I try
You end up falling for another guy
It feels like you don't want me in your life
It's like you would rather just fucking die
And I hate to be that guy
But I don't really wanna waste your time
And I don't really wanna be too shy
But it feels like you're the only one that makes me feel alright

It's so weird when you're innocent, but your heart hurts
You're trying to say what you're not worth
Not meant to spite you
But instead to inspire you
To step outside of your comfort zone
We've been on the phone
Going back and forth it seems
Arguing the same things
But it's never getting anywhere
And I don't wanna see you disappear
Even if I wasn't your first choice
I'm happy being at least one of your considerations
But I can't help but feeling the way that I feel
It's okay, it's just rain, I'll dry up
One day you'll make your mind up
I hate to say I told you so
I hate to say I told you so

But it feels like every time I try
You end up falling for another guy
It feels like you don't want me in your life
It's like you would rather just fucking die
And I hate to be that guy
But I don't really wanna waste your time
And I don't really wanna be too shy
But it feels like you're the only one that makes me feel alright

You're the only one that makes me feel alright
I said you're the only one that makes me feel alright
And I hate to be that guy
But I don't really wanna waste your time
And I don't really wanna be too shy
But it feels like you're the only one that makes me feel alright

Attempt

prod me 

additional drums @attc
additional piano @gr0lth
additional vox @trustt
bg photo by @zzoos
art by me
[sometimes its okay to not be okay]

[@qlein]
dance till i fall down
never been one to talk out
out of sight out of mind
never been one to cry never been one to cry never cry
but you know its been 
been one to cry,,

bring it back now back now
not attached now
stg you're complacent to run it back now
back back
wanna tell me how to act?
wanna tell me what im fucking up and tell me what i lack
bring it back now back now
not attached now
stg you're complacent to run it back now
back now back now
not attached now
swear to swear to, now

[@trustt]
think i spent too much time worrying bout myself
thought you only cared about your own health
now i spent too much time worrying bout myself
i can tell coz the way you act with me now
is there something that i can believe in?
tell me is there not? is there not?
is there something i can believe in?
tell me is there not? is there not?

[@qlein]

dance till i fall down
never been one to talk out
out of sight out of mind
never been one to cry never been one to cry never cry
but you know its been 
been one to cry,,

never been one to cry ft. trustt

ib: @kingfelix
@tropes777

Now it’s take or be taken
Green beast and hatred
Work in the progress
Yeah I’m a bad bitch in the making
But I know life’s what you make it about
And I’d fuck up a bagel w raisins right now
We can grab one I know bout a place in this town
And I’m a mad one these hoes dont know nothing about
I’m not edgy, not logan, I’m dead pooling out
Yeah she think that I hate her
I said see u later she said “when is later?”
She said she a drainer, she said she a gainer 🤔 
Smoking on raw papers
Smoking hash like taters
And now I’m caught in something I didn’t know but now i know
I shoulda went to humboldt, no one in socal
If I could mention everything I wanted to I’d ball out
And if I ever tie the knot, will you ever get me up?
And once I’m dreaming on the job, I want you to wake me up
I don’t think I’m ever done, always working toward sumn
And I’m only living once… I think that got to him
You won't ever see his face, he won't ever see the sun
And he don’t recognize his smile, and I’m still combing through the pile
All black fit like wyldstyle, emo bitch like wyldstyle
And she got hits yeah she dont miss, I’ve been listening for a while
Yeah 1009ing up my life, I’ve been MIXing up my mind
You catch my signal its 5G yah
And I’m traveling cross the coast 
Eating cinnamon raisin toast
I could make it to your show but I don’t think I wanna go
I hope it was worth it tho

You Only Live Once #Tropes @Madhouse

i live the life that i dream about , that i dream about
she like that i took the justin bieber route, like that im singing now
bitch im tryna blow that speaker up till the demon's out
i might throw a middle finger up, hit a face like (face like) heuuugh 

count up blue bills
fuckin up my thumbs
all this paper make me feel sick
threw up my lunch
all these hoes goin, thought u was the one
thought u was my baby, where's my princess bubblegum?
i'm tied down in chains , i smoke a pack fuck up my lung
brand new shades, ya gucci goggles, i still shine AND block the sun
bitch im rly raven baxter, i play it off as a hunch
i popped him like a zit ya for that Acne on her butt
rock out bby like it was a concert, fuck it up
he pissed he got his bitch took but couldn't make her cum
add a ring like Saturn every time i took a dub

Fake smile compliment thats a hit or miss
Tattoos scattered and youre lacking a meaning
Two first names Thinking scott ryan season
I try to keep the peace and its making me squeamish

I try be the Blue helmet and now they lost
Now i gotta tell em kiss a ring mafia
Tony soprano Avril on a piano
I kept a lotta Goodwill u exhausting the ammo

Dlc mark 2 let it hit like kablam
Dining aint a mission if all my company ham
Begging at my feet like im a holier man
Cable box a bitch I cant bark on demand

Turn me up
Come on turn us up
Pray the knob right when u turn it up

Avril ft saturn (p. attic + grolth)

Track 7 from "Creation Story"
soundcloud.com/yamamayamaybe/sets/creation-story
Produced, Performed, Written, & Recorded by @bbyazul4k and @yamamayamaybe

Get tickets to the "Creation Story Tour" with Bbyazul, Yamamaya, Saturn, Mental, Tropes, & Heartstopmiami @ linktr.ee/PZ_events - with sounds by dep4rted

7. ruby rushDown (feat. Tropes)

post engineering/master by https://soundcloud.com/billsburyjoeboi
<3

Yeah, feels unreal, I'm fucked up
Let's push up and rush 'em
I'm so up like Russell
I-I'm so up like

Country got me f-
I'm tryn tour in Russia
I might do a flip
My blunt might do pushup

And we not friends, we fell out
So don't ask Four for wisdom
'Fore I push start and
'Fore I push start and peel out
Two faced, I'll bring the real out
Spin like grabba, cigarillo
Two faced, I'll bring the real out
Armor on me, armadillo

Yeah, it's a dead party, where my car keys?
Eugh
Young Four a one man army,
Eugh
Young Four the young Prince Charming
My lil Cinderella, she a Barbie
Eugh
Sick like salmonella, stay afar please, eugh
Uh- she my Van Girlie, she my art piece, yuh
When you hit my phone it make my h-h-h
When you hit my phone it make my heart speed up

fuck
whip that hoe like larson
my heart stay on fire like this hoe stay commiting arson
im fucked up
thats the hoe i want yuh.
i might love that hoe more than you can until im done yuh
but fuck that, i got plenty more
you still worried bout that hoe, but i got more to go
i pull up yo lil hoe want me, fuck it hoe lets go
why yo lil hoe want me so bad, ion fucking know

Feels unreal, I'm fucked up
Let's push up and rush 'em
I'm so up like Russell
I-I'm so up like
Country got me fucked up
I'm tryn tour in Russia
I might do a flip
My blunt might do pushup

Feels unreal, I'm fucked up
Let's push up and rush 'em
I'm so up like Russell
I-I'm so up like
Country got me f-
I'm tryn tour in Russia
I might do a flip
My blunt might do pushup

And we not friends, we fell out
So don't ask Four for wisdom
'Fore I push start and
'Fore I push start and peel out
Two faced, I'll bring the real out
Spin like grabba, cigarillo
Two faced, I'll bring the real out
Armor on me, armadillo
Yea
Ooooh,
Go, Go
J- J

Russell ft funeral prod jane remover

I just saw them try to take us down from the jump
This new low was too low for you, I'm stunned
I'm between a hard place and a rock
Can you just help me out?
I'm not the only one thats out of bounds
I'm still on the outer layer of this house
And you can meet me in the middle then, or else I'm out
Knocking on the door of Heaven screaming help
I'm wearing the sweatshirt of a school that I dont go to
Even the school that I go to, I dont go to
You texting me "yo" as if I know you
She got all these ideas of me I can't live up to
I never got out, but I hope to
I dont need your vice, I need your love and a Roku
But I could use some space, Andromeda, I can't hold you
But every time I notice a new up, there's a low too
Yeah, I don't get the point in y'all crew, what the fuck do y'all do?
Every day in solitude
I'm at different altitudes, I'm at 13,000 feet
Got a whole new attitude after my check came in this week
I'm not participating in this rat race you call a scene
I'm in my own colosseum, why the fuck you bother me?
I walk into the museum, you walk in the dollar tree
I like getting hurt and healed, that shit sounds so fun to me (It's back to zero)
I dont got a screen on my face, she got Shein on her waist
We got queens on the base, I feel green all the way
Am I wrong for feeling so betrayed?
I been dreaming over days cuz I'm never sober ayy

Roku prod elxnce ivvys

i wanna waltz back in your arms
i wanna go back to the start
i wanna see inside your heart
this is me taking my shot in the dark
no thought where i aim but the message is sharp
will you embrace this gamble of darts

met alot of girls and all of em ain’t you
when i hit you up, surprised that you came through
you’re the only one that i know that just stayed true
i hope we ain’t through
and when i talk to you it feels like time hasn’t moved
see yourself through my eyes, put your feet in my shoes 
we’re both not good at goodbyes, so let’s spend the afternoon
i promise it’ll be good

and i hope it’s still the same
with you, everyone else can wait
to lose you, my heart just couldn’t take
so come by and let’s make some-

and i hope it’s still the same
with you, everyone else can wait
to lose you, my heart just couldn’t take
so come by and let’s make something shake

i wanna waltz back in your arms
i wanna go back to the start
i wanna see inside your heart
this is me taking my shot in the dark
no thought where i aim but the message is sharp
will you embrace this gamble of darts

Luck of the draw

produced, arranged, mixed & mastered by me

heavily inspired by the works of @virtual-riot, @iamnasko, @zeneth-sc, @eliderp, @sophro-audio

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hello all! this is my first drop in awhile! while it doesn't feature my vocals, months of work has gone into finalizing this project. additionally, i'm not entirely pleased with the final product of this song due to final mix, arrangement, vocals, sample selection, etc. but figured if i dont put it out it'll never come out. so thank you all for listening, better music soon. enjoy!

huge thank you to all of my friends who have taken the time to learn & progress with me i love all of you <3

Avril ft saturn (p. attic + grolth)

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