lyric video: https://youtu.be/GfSLIIWXNdM

it's in your head
all in your head
fabricated words, deception so absurd
the lies you tell yourself so easily

it's in you head
all in your head
tripping over thoughts that shouldn't turn to words
thoughts i wish i'd never even stirred
it's in my head
all in my head

in your head

i found my strength through you !

written, produced, mixed & mastered by self discovery

// lyrics

pull at my head from under the water
i'd rather go so deep that i can't breathe with you
than make the drive from my tree to the bottom
of the state in hopes that i'll have more to do

and i don't know if it should go unsaid
but some days i wanna go back the nights we spent
just to count down all the seconds each of us had left
till we flew off in opposite ways

and whether it's the paper cup against the wind
or the words across your oddamn lips
or the awkward night i thought we'd kiss
through the fear and love i found my strength through you
ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh

i changed my laugh eleven times that year
and with every passing version it was a joyous sound to hear
or so you said
as your voices traveled to my ears
i intruded on your triangle
but you said we made a square
as close friends do

and i don't know if it should go unsaid
but some days i wanna go back the nights we spent
just to count down all the seconds each of us had left
till we flew off in opposite ways

and i don't know if it should go unsaid
but some days i wanna go back the nights we spent
on the counter, at the table, and the night out
cause i don't wanna push you to push you away

and whether it's the paper cup against the wind
or the words across your oddamn lips
or the awkward night i thought we'd kiss
through the fear and love i found my strength
through all the tears that battered off my cheeks
and all the stupid songs that we would sing
and the games to take the load off me
through the years of love i found my strength through you

ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh
i found my strength through you

afraid to be the last one left
to share my story
i'll bite my tongue
it's for the lore
did i make it weird for my friends
should i refrain towards the end
i'll do it over again
she takes it as her ups and downs
i made a mistake wanting to 
fuck around with above my age
did i do it all to myself
is my abuse underwhelming
why did nobody tell me (not to do it again)
she faked wanting to be with me
the smile on her face her hands between my knees
why was i so proud to ruin
a simple touch of the hand
a hug from mother or friends
a partner's warmth in my bed

don't make me do it again !
don't make me do it again !

and i'll go against the winds
as the words fall out from odder lips
though the autumn nights we wrecked as kids
after years of love i found my strength

in time
i'll learn to stop
so why can't i stop myself
i swore i'd never do it again

you tried to hide behind my latency
but i woke up too late
to see you cry

it's never nice to meet
the girl i never wanted to be

so i was forced to say goodbye
i felt the daylight pass me by
i got too loud and caused a scene
and so i'll
cut back and maybe i can make it out

of those same old states
i've got too many things on my plate
i don't know why

when odds were heavier
you were my 
backbone, bring me back
i should've broke it off

i'm never gonna be you
i'm never gonna be
i'm never gonna be you

oh, i'm never gonna
waste my weekends
or give you the time of day

i'll never do it again !

strength training ! (catharsis !)

there is no art without the artist <3

the art that you create can take a break
don't force yourself
so rest your weathered hands for a single day
the sun will still rise tomorrow

and it's not weak
it's not anything (at all)
and you're chasing dreams
you'll never make it as you are, so lay your weary head down

listen to me
there's only so much you can take
and that's okay
the joy that you seek
doesn't come from productivity
so cast your worries down and let it be

you need shelter from the snow
and it gets colder still being out there all alone
and somewhere out there there's a light shining on
but you just can't seem to make it, your feet won't pick up the pace

so you fall to your knees and you tremble in the night
the stars aren't above you, the clouds whirling by
so just know that i love you even though we're storms apart
and when the cold nights get so dark, you know the way home in your heart

listen to me
there's only so much you can take
and that's okay
the joy that you seek
doesn't come from productivity
so cast your worries down and listen to me
there's only so much you can take
and that's okay
the joy that you seek doesn't come from productivity
so lay your weary head down

colder still

Produced & Written by shadee
Mix & Mastered by Tezu

The Mess Of You

If I could tell you
how I would feel
when I'm at your side

If I could tell you
how much I've missed you
in these past days

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a short simple remix

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Leave it all

Thai trap

Acid House was the first EDM music I heard back around 1988. My older brother introduced me to the Stakker Huminoid track and I was hooked.

Unleash the acid

hey! this is a song about finding calmness through the displacement of the mind into a personal headspace, meant to revive a happy infancy where you could find happiness in naivity.

I also made a lyric vid for it! here's the link:
youtu.be/6kFYytUSjwc

Lyrics:

talking tortoise
across the street

telling stories
about defeat

pine wood forests
watch over me

birchwood cabins
across the street

when the sun rests its head you forget
about the creatures and whispers inside your house

cars pass by, crickets sing and you see
oh, the true face of this world and what's to come

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stay safe <3

Solace

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okay maybe i'm just a little bit sad tho (instrumental)

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