lyric video: https://youtu.be/GfSLIIWXNdM

it's in your head
all in your head
fabricated words, deception so absurd
the lies you tell yourself so easily

it's in you head
all in your head
tripping over thoughts that shouldn't turn to words
thoughts i wish i'd never even stirred
it's in my head
all in my head

in your head

this is a thing i made a while ago

don't know why im just putting things up right now for no reason

shift - when (2023 Edition)

@paxenimzi

fun fact: this turned into a full song!
check it out here! https://soundcloud.com/paxenimzi/bliss

illness_chapter147

i found my strength through you !

written, produced, mixed & mastered by self discovery

// lyrics

pull at my head from under the water
i'd rather go so deep that i can't breathe with you
than make the drive from my tree to the bottom
of the state in hopes that i'll have more to do

and i don't know if it should go unsaid
but some days i wanna go back the nights we spent
just to count down all the seconds each of us had left
till we flew off in opposite ways

and whether it's the paper cup against the wind
or the words across your oddamn lips
or the awkward night i thought we'd kiss
through the fear and love i found my strength through you
ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh

i changed my laugh eleven times that year
and with every passing version it was a joyous sound to hear
or so you said
as your voices traveled to my ears
i intruded on your triangle
but you said we made a square
as close friends do

and i don't know if it should go unsaid
but some days i wanna go back the nights we spent
just to count down all the seconds each of us had left
till we flew off in opposite ways

and i don't know if it should go unsaid
but some days i wanna go back the nights we spent
on the counter, at the table, and the night out
cause i don't wanna push you to push you away

and whether it's the paper cup against the wind
or the words across your oddamn lips
or the awkward night i thought we'd kiss
through the fear and love i found my strength
through all the tears that battered off my cheeks
and all the stupid songs that we would sing
and the games to take the load off me
through the years of love i found my strength through you

ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh
ooh, ooh
i found my strength through you

afraid to be the last one left
to share my story
i'll bite my tongue
it's for the lore
did i make it weird for my friends
should i refrain towards the end
i'll do it over again
she takes it as her ups and downs
i made a mistake wanting to 
fuck around with above my age
did i do it all to myself
is my abuse underwhelming
why did nobody tell me (not to do it again)
she faked wanting to be with me
the smile on her face her hands between my knees
why was i so proud to ruin
a simple touch of the hand
a hug from mother or friends
a partner's warmth in my bed

don't make me do it again !
don't make me do it again !

and i'll go against the winds
as the words fall out from odder lips
though the autumn nights we wrecked as kids
after years of love i found my strength

in time
i'll learn to stop
so why can't i stop myself
i swore i'd never do it again

you tried to hide behind my latency
but i woke up too late
to see you cry

it's never nice to meet
the girl i never wanted to be

so i was forced to say goodbye
i felt the daylight pass me by
i got too loud and caused a scene
and so i'll
cut back and maybe i can make it out

of those same old states
i've got too many things on my plate
i don't know why

when odds were heavier
you were my 
backbone, bring me back
i should've broke it off

i'm never gonna be you
i'm never gonna be
i'm never gonna be you

oh, i'm never gonna
waste my weekends
or give you the time of day

i'll never do it again !

strength training ! (catharsis !)

Produced & Written by shadee
Mix & Mastered by Tezu

The Mess Of You

If I could tell you
how I would feel
when I'm at your side

If I could tell you
how much I've missed you
in these past days

Flawed Mangoes - Cold
linktr.ee/flawedmangoes
https://www.instagram.com/flawed_mangoes/
https://soundcloud.com/flamingoflamingoflamingo

Flawed Mangoes - Cold (Ji remix)

cover of https://soundcloud.com/janeremover/search-party

made in 2 afternoons 1 month apart because of procrastination :p

lyric video: https://youtu.be/fhe-ucajlyQ

search party (originally by Jane Remover)

@juseva

(im back guys !)

(i remixed one of juseva's song that is a year ago so enjoy !)

Again (remix)

SadBloom blends emo nostalgia with modern pop energy.
“half-life” is a melancholic yet catchy anthem about fading in fragments,
delicate vocals carried by warm synth pads and clean guitars.
For fans of bittersweet hooks, dreamy soundscapes, and late-night reflections.

Lyrics: 

I measure time in coffee cups  
they empty faster every day  
i keep old notes inside my drawer  
the ink just slowly fades away  
i’m shrinking down in quiet rooms  
like songs that never play  
half a person, half a plan  
decaying in delay  

half-life, i live in halves  
never whole, just broken graphs  
half-life, i fade in parts  
but the fragments still glow in the dark  

i decorate my cluttered thoughts  
pretend they’re constellations  
but stars collapse, and so do i  
in smaller radiations  
i skip the news, i skip the calls  
pretend i’m not around  
my energy just cuts in two  
each time they pull me down  

half-life, i live in halves  
never whole, just broken graphs  
half-life, i fade in parts  
but the fragments still glow in the dark  

maybe i’m not meant to last  
maybe i’m just built to pass  
like quiet sparks that burn then hide  
a little less with every side  

half-life, i live in halves  
never whole, just broken graphs  
half-life, i fade in parts  
but the fragments still glow in the dark

half-life

Dreamy. Psychedelic. Soulful. It's the kind of music that washes over you like a warm tide, pulling you into a hazy, sun-drenched daze. This is indie-pop with a cosmic twist, blending shimmering synths and reverb-soaked guitars with a smooth, soulful groove. It’s perfect for late-night drives, lazy Sunday afternoons, or anytime you want to get lost in a soundscape that's both melancholic and uplifting.

Spotify

I Try to Laugh About It

[Verse]
I live my life in fear
They don't understand
And they will never hear
I've had it up to here
These voices in my head that tell me what to feel

[Chorus]
Oh
The voices I hear
Oh
The voices I hear
[Verse 2]
I never learned how to cry
My mother raised me strong
These voices don't lie
They tell me to cut myself and tell my friends
"Goodbye"

[Chorus]
Oh
The voices I hear
Oh
The voices I hear
Oh
The voices I hear
Oh
The voices I hear

VOICES I HEAR

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The Mess Of You

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