Apple cores unholy chores i have to raise my voice to speak
My thoughts got bad i dropped the bag with eggshells cracked i know i lack all that u need i cannot breathe my lungs r filled with smoke from trees so u tell me i need to leave
And i did
And now im wondrin how

How i even got this far
Got sympathy for all ur scars
Running circles bowing down
But im still fucking wondering how

Broken bones and heart shaped stones
They block my road the way to home
The hedges trimmed the blades just skimmed
Above my head i lay in bed
The ceiling stares into my soul
I didn't wanna have to go
U forced my hand
And we've found land
But now im scared
And still wondering how

How i even got this far
Got sympathy for all ur scars
I'm running circles bowing down
But im still fucking wondering how
And im still fucking wondering how
And im still fucking wondering how

How i even got this far
Got sympathy for all ur scars
I'm running circles bowing down
But im still fucking wondering how

The snow will stick upon the ground
The sky got dark from all the clouds
It's getting cold i say out loud
That im still fucking wonderin how

Wondering how

production/mixing/mastering by me
in celebration of zombie boy hitting 20 million streams on spotify, here is one of the remastered tracks i'm working on (yes i am re-doing the whole album)
hope u enjoy <3

My brain is a very strange place
My heart is cold
My pride is gone
My parents lay and they cry all night
So do I
So do I
My brain is a damaged place
My arms are weak
My eyes are bleak
And I take these drugs just to make me numb
And I won't stop
No, I won't stop

i haven't gotten around to telling you (remastered)

lyrics:
i forgot already
why you told me i should go
but i remember being drunk and asking u to use ur phone
must have made myself look dumb
cos all i talked about was how i started rolling joints last night
and that i couldn't wait to go to california
and i'd ask u if you'd been and what's it like
up in the mountains, and i'll add i've lived in texas most my life
and you would roll ur eyes but i would ponder off and never notice you were mad
and you call me saying shit that sounds like this

what's it like in phoenix
do u miss me 
are u scared
how's the weather over there
do u still play cyberpunk 
sorry that's a stupid question 
i just don't know what to say 
2077 might be better days

arizona's hot but not as hot as texas or nevada in the summer 
and the drive was kind of long because i drove through by myself 
listening to bon iver and some nirvana
and that song blind pilot sang
it made me think of u before i saw the sunset 
in colorado in the rain and so i pulled my car on over 
cos i heard ur voice and this is what u said

what's it like in phoenix
do u miss me 
are u scared
how's the weather over there
do u still play ESO
sorry that's a stupid question 
what's a better one these days
we're all burnt out lost ourselves washed down the drain

what's it like back home and do i miss you?
yes i do
yes i wanna be with u
we don't have to talk too much
that's ok cos i do bad with conversation
and we’ll live in mmos
we don't care
and we don't know

phoenix, arizona

sorry forgot to put this up when i dropped it last year
lyrics:
My trust is fucked from getting fucked over again
Why's it so hard for me to buckle down
And let somebody in
I keep on getting close to letting go and floating in the wind
I get so caught up in the feeling
Then it brutally begins
I was an addict back when doing drugs could make you better friends
Now I'm an addict with nobody who will stick through till the end
I wish I had someone to cry to
When the crying starts again
Drowning in feelings in the mirror
Seems more likely fitting in
Elastic organs they will fill my stomach up
And I am plastic I am lead
And you wish that I was dead
But I can't collect the data 'cause my processor is busted
And my printer paper's jammed
Can I fix it with my hand and you say "no"
"You have to hang up all your clothes before you go to find a home"
"Or else mother, she will scold the both of us"
People stuck inside the cusp of losing everything we love
Should we risk it all for drugs or loosen up
We're growing up, we're growing up
And I can't handle holding cups
My attention span is rough
And you don't know
How much I miss being in love with someone
You can hear my heart 'a-bumping
Playing to the beat of nothing
My trust is fucked I think that I won't trust again
Until someone comes along
And starts to act just like a friend
I get excited when I think it's closing in, I'm closing in
But excitement starts to fade
And the lights begin to dim, begin to dim

the beat of nothing

dire need

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Journey to Joy

Daydream Reality

beautiful lyrics by chatgpt4.0 with gentle prompting by mateo2222, musical performance by Zona music creation app, art by CreArt.

From a Dad to a Daughter

lyrics:
so this is what you meant
when i saw you get distant
i begged and pleaded you
free of care you used
me to tie your shoes
to pick you off your blues
with all the wine we sipped
you never gave a shit

and now im lost inside a glass museum
what did i do to make you look to him
i thought the trip we had meant more
but now im hurting im so fucking sore

so this is what you meant
when u put it to an end

glass museum

marble man

try to sleep- for granddad

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