coup de grâce

malady

le pendu

melancholy

Lost Not Forgotten

Just talk to me 
I know that your’e still there 
Take a walk with me 
I no longer feel scared 

With the smoke in the air can you feel the trust?
Tired of running but it’s what I know best of
Blame everything and hate everything around me 
Open my eyes I cast doubt on what could be 
Oh my spirit slowly died 
Lost the light in my eyes 
Every night I wondered 
What it would be like if I died?
No more lonely nights 
No more pretending everything is alright 
No more pushing away my feelings 
Oh to feel is to suffer 
Oh but I’m so tired 
Oh how do I feel apart of this life I don’t know?

Just talk to me 
I know that your’e still there 
Take a walk with me 
I no longer feel scared 

I feel one with the dead even though I’m not dead 
Prayer just can’t be for me be for me 
don’t let me die alone 
In the end we all will die alone 
Don’t let me die alone 
In the end we all will die alone 

Just talk to me 
I know that your’e still there 
Take a walk with me 
I no longer feel scared

Talk to me (prod. miless)

Branches break 
The wind it leads to the river 
Empty my blood 
Turn me into a believer 

That You can’t let me go 
You can’t let me go 
Hold me down 
Choke me up 
Am I just not enough for you anymore 

You call, you call my name 
And lie and say things will change 
But they never change 
Shit just stays the same
Watch me run away but I didn’t run away 
So I start a new path aligned with a new me 
A new man who can’t lie to himself 
I get drug through the mud full of blood and the tears from my past that I just buried down 

That You can’t let me go 
You can’t let me go 
Hold me down 
Choke me up 
Am I just not enough for you anymore 

Pin the glass in my eyes 
Show me pain yeah 

Pin the glass in my eyes 
Show me pain yeah 
Cut my neck 
Seal my wound with your lies yeah 

With your lies, with your lies…

That You can’t let me go 
You can’t let me go 
Hold me down 
Choke me up 
Am I just not enough for you anymore 

Let go 
Of the pain that holds you down 
Let go 
Of the pain that holds me down

Reflections (prod. BAD KID x ‪IVYPROD‬)

As we break and we fold 
The winter can’t kill us both
Love how you feel so cold 
Love how you grab on my throat 

But now I’m all alone again 
It takes two to pretend 
Addison can’t you see I’m everything that you need 
Take a pill you need to breathe 
But baby don’t lie to me 
You fuck me up in the worst way 
I hate the way you say my name 
Push me down, push me around now 
Hate me now 
Fuck me now 

As we break and we fold 
The winter can’t kill us both

As we break and we fold 
The winter can’t kill us both
Love how you feel so cold 
Love how you grab on my throat

Fold (prod. reactance)

The lake it calls to you at night 
It breaks us down, each breath we confide 

A beautiful August night 
We sit by and watch it die 
Just pick up your head
Fill up your heart, clouds lift the damage is done 

I don’t wanna be here no more 
I don’t ever wanna feel again
There’s a whole in my chest put there by my daughters death 
I don’t wanna hear your screams play through the night 
But everytime I close my eyes they play over and over
In my head put me to sleep 
Songs of the dead they play on repeat 

Songs of the dead they play on repeat 

The lake it calls to you at night 
It breaks us down, each breath we confide 

A beautiful August night 
Just sit by and watch it die 
The gases they seep into our blood stream 
I can’t feel I can’t see 
Hear the livestock scream through the trees 
In the fields we weep of the memories 
Memories, memories of you and me 

Shock waves 
The pen has struck the silent ears of the fallen woes that will never hear 
The smell of your hair 
The salt in your tears 
The light in your eyes 
The youth of your fears 
This message has been clear 
This message has been clear…

You are one with the lake ,You are each wave 
Each stone and sand that will lay for years to come 

You are one with the lake

Nyos (prod. New Desires)

Feed me 
I know that you need me 
Harvest all the bones 
The blood becomes rich in soil 

Off the coast the signs they all point home 
But it never felt like it was a home 
This body of blue holds form 
another sacrifice to be born 
Salt in my wounds I feel alive 
In the cold there’s no sense of time 

Feed me 
Destroy me 
Let me into your darkness babe 
Defeat me 
Complete me 
I don’t wanna feel a damn thing 

Feed me 
I know that you need me 
Harvest all the bones 
The blood becomes rich in soil

Monster (prod. myss)

Sit back 
We don’t know 
Stab wounds broke bones 
this case is still unknown, It’s still unknown 
The monster it grows 
Captures there screams 
The silence can be so deafening 

In the woods 
We dream of the unknown 
But we’re never alone,never alone 
The cold it will slowly grow 
Watch as it takes ahold 

Push back 
Die slow 
Our tears they stain the floor 
Push back 
Die slow 
We will never be alone

We will never be alone 

Plunge this knife in my heart 
Plunge this knife in my heart 
Over and over until I can’t love again 
Over and over until I can’t love again 

This is the end 

Push back 
Die slow 
Our tears they stain the floor 
Push back 
Die slow 
We will never be alone 

We will never be alone 
Sit back 
We don’t know 
Stab wounds and broken bones 
This case is still unknown 
The monster it grows in each capture of the lessons, we each have to learn for ourselves 
The pine trees have seen it all 
The lake embraces all 
Your voice won’t go unheard this time 
This time, this time 

Sit back 
We don’t know 
Stab wounds broke bones 
this case is still unknown, It’s still unknown 
The monster it grows 
Captures there screams 
The silence can be so deafening

Bodom (prod. NeverExIsted)

In the winter of 24 
They hunt for the profit of fur 
Three pay with their life 

Yeah 
The traps have been left with the dead 
In the cabin the table was set 
The snow fell like gunshots and blunt force trauma 
A blood stained claw hammer and a whole cut in the ice 
Pools of blood on the snow with clumps of hair and teeth you like 

The beast will grow with every life 

Float straight 
Consume your mind of the fears of this lake 

Let go of everything 
As you float face down

Lava (prod. Beef Drew)

It’s the end 
But it’s never the end 
Carry this message through the night 

Dive deep 
Suffocate 
In the high tide I wasted my whole life 
Rip my limbs 
Seize the time 
Another tragedy that I need to be 

Waste away in this grave 
I play the pawn in this war 
Make your move 
Flank the sea 
Here comes the storm 
We are reborn 

Lift up spirits 
Clips there wings as you hunt them down 

Its the end 
But it’s never the end 
Carry this message through the night 
Carry this message through the night 
Carry this message through the night 
The lake itself feeds is only dead tonight

The final chapter (prod. New Desires)

Don’t go 
Times up 
Regret the past that you can’t change 
Bleed out slowly 
The guilt controls me 

Bruised and battered 
Thoughts are shattered 
Sleepless nights vs endless nights 
I don’t know anymore what matters 

I don’t know anymore what matters


Another fork stuck in the road we can’t go back down
Just lie to yourself and be the fucking letdown 

Bruised and battered 
Thoughts are shattered 
Sleepless nights vs endless nights 
I don’t know anymore what matters 


Don’t go 
Times up 
Regret the past 
You’re fucked 

Bruised and battered 
Thoughts are shattered 
Sleepless nights vs endless nights 
I don’t know anymore what matters

Times up (prod. drylids)

This circle calls your name like fire that has bestowed upon another disbelief 
A disbelief that you were something 
could feel something yet not human 
not human like me 
Pressed upon my heart 
Subtle at the start 
Rest upon another shoreline 

Cast away another tear 
Don’t worry when I die I’ll always be right here 
You rip apart my dreams at night 
Lie to me and tell me everything will all be alright 
Cast away another tear 
Don’t worry when I die I’ll always be right here

If this is the fiction we live then I want to be etched out of every plot 
I’m tired of every false god and broken promises 
Again and again 
When do we learn for the better?
My wrists never heal from the limits I was to afraid to take 
So I close my eyes and take that leap of faith 
Into the circle of mistakes 

Cast away another tear 
Don’t worry when I die I’ll always be right here 
You rip apart my dreams at night 
Lie to me and tell me everything will all be alright 
Cast away another tear 
Don’t worry when I die I’ll always be right here 
You rip apart my dreams at night 
Lie to me and tell me everything will all be alright

Circle (prod. saint mike)

Lay the blade as the sun sets, as the sun sets 
Cast a shadow to the sea 
I don’t wanna be me 

Me
You lied to me 
Cut into me (remove my heart)
Tease me 
As you lead me to the darkness (where things go to die)
Rip my heart out 

Lie to me and tell me you love me 
Lie to me and tell me it’s over 

As I follow you (into the woods I remember)
That I tried and you died 
Wipe the tears from your eyes 
And burn 
With every unread letter 
I never read what the fuck 
Remove the claws and let me bleed out on the floor where you left me now 

Lie to me and tell me you love me 
Lie to me and tell me it’s over 

Tell me it’s over, tell me it’s over 

Two shots one for me one for you 
Here we go again

Into the woods (prod. Quiltx)

Falling from the perils of your grip 
tell me I’m not worth shit 

By the eleventh hour I saw your true form 
Masked in disguise 
Beauty runs deep in these lies 
You call to call to me 
Baby come home 
She said I don’t want you to be all alone 
And your mind it’s mine even when you die 

Falling from the perils of your grip 
tell me I’m not worth shit 

By 3 am
The web has been spun again around my fucking neck 
You tell me don’t go again 
Tell me I’m loved (what is love?)
Grab and take ahold 
Degrade me as you fuck me slow
If my death has value to you then take me 
Cuz I am through 
Cuz I am through 

Falling from the perils of your grip 
tell me I’m not worth shit

Degradation (prod. drylids)

In loving memory, in loving memory 

In loving memory 
Of what you took from me 
In loving memory 
 you keep haunting me 
In loving memory 
Carve it on my skin 
We all have to bleed so we can feel again 

Wait a minute 
Did you think I would submit 
Wait a minute do you even know me now?

Back roads we go down 
As the sun sets in the background 
But the stars they are dead now 
Get the fuck out of my head now 

In loving memory 
Of what you took from me 
In loving memory 
 you keep haunting me 

In loving memory 
Of what you took from me 
In loving memory 
 you keep haunting me 
In loving memory 
Carve it on my skin 
We all have to bleed so we can feel again

In loving memory (prod. saint mike)

Plant your feet down on the ground 
Tell yourself you made it now 
Take another drag of your cigarette 
Press it hard against your teeth 
Ain’t no difference between you and me 
When we cut yeah we both bleed 
But I don’t try to lie to myself 
What’s the fucking point 
What’s the fucking point 
I don’t know, I don’t know 

 I’m tired of digging my own grave 
Dig another hole and it feels the same 
We procrastinate and anticipate the worst of the worse is yet to come 

Pennsylvania roots got me buried down with the moonlight and fireflies all around 
Gave up dope for some hope now 
But the scars they go deep deep down 
Fear fills up my veins till I drown 
Fuck I hate the world right now 

 I’m tired of digging my own grave 
Dig another hole and it feels the same 
We procrastinate and anticipate the worst of the worse is yet to come

Moonlight and fireflies ( prod. dennydarko x onlymovimento)

Breathe 
Don’t tell me to breathe
Just leave but you never ever leave 
Breathe
Don’t tell me to fucking breathe 
Just leave but you never ever leave 
You visit me 
Visit me in my dreams to kill me and destroy my sleep

I don’t know I don’t know what I’m waiting for 
I don’t know I don’t know what I’m searching for 
But I hope it’s more, hope it’s more 
Cuz I need more 

Silence there is never a moment of silence 
In my head, you want me dead 
You visit me 
Then torture me 
Another scar but I never bleed 
Carry it around with me I want to be free 

I don’t know I don’t know what I’m waiting for 
I don’t know I don’t know what I’m searching for 
But I hope it’s more, hope it’s more 
Cuz I need more

There is never a moment of silence (prod. saint mike)

With each passing thought 
time no longer exists 
With each passing thought 
I no longer exists 

Tired of the fuck ups 
Tired of the letdowns 
Get out of my own way
Keep myself down 

Erase what no longer serves a purpose 
Rewire the feelings in a dire sense of fashion
Rearrange my life cuz this shit ain’t working 
I’m not okay the voices say I’m not worth it 

Im not worth it drown in the sea of fucking torture that’s what you do to me 
Back and forth with the bullshit 
Back and forth such bullshit
 I fucking knew it the writing was on the wall we all knew it 
I’m tired of the fuck ups 
Tired of the letdowns 
Get out of my own way
Keep myself down 

Erase what no longer serves a purpose 
Rewire the feelings in a dire sense of fashion
Rearrange my life cuz this shit ain’t working 
I’m not okay the voices say I’m not worth it

Rewire (prod. bended x kazba)

Hey it’s me again 
I’m like the breeze you feel on a hot day and the cold that breaks your bones on a winter night 
Don’t you remember?

Miracles you call this shit a miracle 
Drown me slow I feel fucking miserable 

I should have known you held distain 
You’re eyes were black and skin cold to the touch 
But I told myself you were different and that’s the lie I bury myself with every night 
Don’t go 
Take hold of my heart 
It breaks as I fall apart, fall apart 
SOS this ship is sinking 
SOS my mind is blacking out 
There is no god to save me now 
 no one can help me out 

Miracles you call this shit a miracle 
Drown me slow I feel fucking miserable 

Miracles are just something in child hood stories 
I’ve seen death and I’ve felt it’s wrath and I came back with a vengeance to feel connected to something more 
So I brace 
It’s ups and downs 
See the beauty misery is all around 
SOS this ship is sinking 
SOS my mind is blacking out 
There is no god to save me now 
 no one can help me out 

Miracles you call this shit a miracle 
Drown me slow I feel fucking miserable

Miracles (prod. saint mike)

I’m sick of feeling that I’m always attached to a lie that has this notion of self love and perseverance 
Watch me detach myself from what is no longer needed 
It’s no longer needed 
You always break me down at my core and say I’m fine yeah I’m fine 
You always shut me up my words they have no weight in this fight 

Don’t fucking lie to me 
It’s so plain to see 
That you want me dead 
In the end I see 
The pain it always creeps 
Isolation is my only friend 

You say this and say that 
I can’t help but feel that I’m worthless this is useless (But no no your being fed bullshit,this is all bullshit)
At another crossroad and I feel broke (do you know what it’s like to feel broke)
At another crossroad and I feel alone (we are never alone)
Rise up rise up 
kill the static tonight 

Don’t fucking lie to me 
It’s so plain to see 
That you want me dead 
In the end I see 
The pain it always creeps 
Isolation is my only friend

Kill the static (prod. IOF x karus088)

Gone in a flash 
Rewrite the past but you can’t let it go 
Tell me yeah just let me know 

Am I different 
This feels different 
Cut the skin 
My thoughts are shifting 
Take away from my head 
Away from my heart 
Cursed from the start 

Right now 
Slow down 
Cut away the virus 
 infects my mind, never silence 
It kills my dreams 
When will I not feel like dying
When will I not feel like dying 

They say the thing about unread letters is they get lost in the void 
But what if the void is placed between your eyes then this one goes out to you 

Rip away the tension 
Wound so tight around my fucking neck 

Right now 
Slow down 
Cut away the virus 
 infects my mind, never silence 
It kills my dreams 
When will I not feel like dying 
When will I not feel like dying 

Detach from the world just to get fucked up bleh 
But then I woke up 
Why did I wake up 

With each failed attempt it adds another burden that others seem to not be able to reckon with 
They ask me why did you do it and I think to myself I don’t know 

Right now 
Slow down 
Cut away the virus 
 infects my mind, never silence 
It Kills my dreams 
When will I not feel like dying 
When will I not feel like dying

Dear virus… (prod. karus088 x IOF)

So much 
Have so much to say 
No control 
Bury down the pain 
Of my thoughts 
I don’t want to feel 
Don’t want to feel 
But here I stay 

The more that I let you go
The more that I let you grow 
The more that I let you go
The more that I let you grow 
In the dark can you see the light 
It’s hard when you wanna fucking die 
Make me feel something real tonight 
But I don’t think I’ll even fucking try 

I feel myself be on the verge of existence 
As I slowly fall into the abyss 
I tell myself this all just a dream 
But when I open my eyes my reality is 
I’m hopeless, I’m hopeless 

So much 
Have so much to say 
No control 
Bury down the pain 
Of my thoughts 
I don’t want to feel 
Don’t want to feel 
But here I stay 

The wires are tethered this communication is now broken 

So much 
Have so much to say 
No control 
Bury down the pain 
Of my thoughts 
I don’t want to feel 
Don’t want to feel 
But here I stay 

Don’t want to feel but here I stay 
Don’t want to feel but here I stay 

They say life is what you make it 
But what if your afraid to make it 
Maybe I’ll just pretend and fake it 
I feel like my dreams are just from a past life that I fucking disregarded 
That I threw away, I threw it all away 

So much 
Have so much to say 
No control 
Bury down the pain 
Of my thoughts 
I don’t want to feel 
Don’t want to feel 
But here I stay

Stoic (prod. IVYPROD‬ & alexanderbierk)

Open the skies, but with closed hearts 
You left so soon with no notice 
Full of questions that go unspoken
If you could take it back 
We all have once been broken 

Broken 
I’ll show you broken…

Cruising through the backroads 
It’s really hard to let go 
Memories kill the last hope 
Sorry I just can’t let go 
Imprisoned to this headstone 
Help me I can’t feel I’m all alone 
Breaks my heart please just let go 
How do you let go if you don’t try to let go 

Open the skies, but with closed hearts 
You left so soon with no notice 
Full of questions that go unspoken
If you could take it back 
We all have once been broken 
Broken 
We all have once been broken

We all have once been broken (prod. reactance)

I’m checking out 
I’m checking out of this town 
Checking out of the world 
I thought once understood me
No one understands me 

Are you satisfied (with your life)
Are you satisfied (with your life)
Do you wanna die 
Just like me 

One second your’e here (you’re here)
The next second your’e not (you’re not)
You only have one chance to make the right choice  (right choice)
Do I stay or do I go 

Do I stay or do I go
I’m checking out of this town 
I’m checking out of this town 
I’m not coming back 
Will you miss me now 
I’m checking out of this town 
I’m not coming back 
Will you miss me now 

Are you satisfied (with your life)
Are you satisfied (with your life)
Do you wanna die 
Just like me 
Are you satisfied 
Are you satisfied
With your life?

If tomorrow starts without me (prod. reactance)

Have a seat how have you been lately?
Fine I guess i don’t I’m having trouble sleeping 
Trouble how? Like you can’t fall asleep or you’re sleeping to much?
I can’t sleep I feel like all my mind is doing is racing and getting stuck on my fears 
That must be hard what fears are you having lately?
I don’t know that happiness is all a lie 

Tell me anything 
Tell me something different 

I’m tired 
Tired of acting like that everything is okay 
I’m not okay will I ever be okay just one day 

Have you been taking the meds that I prescribed for you?
No I haven’t you know what I’m sick of this shit you don’t even listen to what I’m saying you just say a pill will help 
I think you’re being very close minded to this form of therapy

I feel like a prisoner in this rat race 
Watch me vanish without a single trace 
Feel like a victim of my own mind 
You couldn’t save me even if you tried 

I’m tired 
Tired of acting like that everything is okay 
I’m not okay will I ever be okay just one day 

This session has now ended

Part one: therapy (prod. Saint Mike)

I believe in nothing 
When I die is there something?

Watch the may flowers grow 
Then watch them die in the snow 
I’m sorry to the ones I love 
I just see dark around it grows
No one ever came 
Claw at the rope from which I hang 
No one ever came 
Claw at the rope from which I hang 
Memories on repeat 
A front seat to this movie 
I can’t leave, that I can’t leave 

I believe in nothing 
When I die is there something?

Depart (prod. reactance)

Tell me everything 
Tell me what you really mean 
Just sit back watch the love retract, love retract 

Carve it in my hand 
Spread the blood on the sand 
Tell me what you feel don’t tell me not to feel what’s in my head 
Pine trees line this old coast 
As the shores rip the tide back, you whisper don’t go 
Don’t go take hold 
Burn the sage let it go 
Talk to the unknown 
Protect the ones you love 

Tell me everything 
Tell me what you really mean 
Just sit back watch the love retract, love retract 

Prepare the cycle of never ending suffering 
the moons are aligned with my inner self 
Is this a test of my will to live or a test of the unknown to trap me in another living hell 

Sink or swim 
Suffocate another suffocation
Sink or swim 
Suffocate another suffocation
Don’t go take hold 
Burn the sage let it go 
Talk to the unknown 
Protect the ones you love 

Protect the ones you love 
Protect the ones you love 

Fuck you I’ll never let you go 
Fuck you you live inside my soul
Just rip apart my mind take me home 
Just cut away at the fear I forever hold 
Resurrect the love that I gave 
Resurrect the love that you take 
That you take, that you take, that you take

Sink or swim (prod. KenenKore)

Watch the leaves fall 
Now I sink in my head 
Another sunset with empty streets, I’m a mess 

I’m a failure by design 

Discard this message 
Don’t even try 
Typewriters sit on broken glass 
Cold around kills we can’t get it back 
We can’t get it back 

Walk the tightrope 
We go back and forth back and forth 
Kill the house lights 
What makes it a home?
Turn up the white noise 
no love is here no love is here 
Break the silence 
We cant bear no more 

Watch the leaves as we all fall down again 
Pick up the pieces we don’t need 

Watch the ink bleed in 
who said goodbyes were ever needed 
This ship is past sinking 
Past sinking , past sinking 
Abandon deck 
This tree will never ever blossom 
Its roots have been gutted like the calls of the forgotten souls 
Forgotten souls 

Walk the tightrope 
We go back and forth back and forth 
Kill the house lights 
What makes it a home?
Turn up the white noise 
no love is here no love is here 
Break the silence 
We cant bear no more 

Fuck you

When I hate myself the most 
I always think of you 

Walk the tightrope 
We go back and forth back and forth 
Kill the house lights 
What makes it a home?
Turn up the white noise 
no love is here no love is here 
Break the silence 
We cant bear no more

Back and forth (prod. JXSS3)

The darkness 
I feel it 
Around me 
Just watch it 
Crawl up my spine 
What is true closure baby
Come back another time 
There is no time left lately 
Bang my head against the wall 
I can’t do this on my own 
Bang my head against the wall 
I can’t do this on my own 

I’m the rain that never falls 
I’m the call that you wish would call 
You can keep holding on 
Just know it’s not 
Not my fault that we grew apart 

Black clouds around my bed again 
Make home in my head again 
The webs they spin around and around 
I know that you’re in too deep love 
I feel like this can’t be undone 
Keep downing that poison 
Traitors of the night yeah you were chosen 
Yeah you were chosen, yeah you were chosen 

Abandon everything you know 
Abandon everything you love 
What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger 
Rise up, rise up 

Rise up, rise up 
What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger 

I’m the rain that never falls 
I’m the call that you wish would call 
You can keep holding on 
Just know it’s not 
Not my fault that we grew apart

We grew apart (prod. 52Blu)

Silence through the trees 
Static in the leaves 

Are you free now 
Push everyone that ever loved you away
Such a let down 
Its all dark now 

It’s all dark now 
It’s all dark now 

Fuck this I don’t want to feel no more 
Fuck this I don’t want to feel no more 
Fight the tears they suffocate my mind  

Are you free now 
Push everyone that ever loved you away
Such a let down 
Its all dark now 
It’s all dark now 
Without you here 
I feel so lost in my head 
I hope you find your home 
This heart forest you can now call home 

This heart forest you can now call home 
This heart forest you can now call home 

Shattered glass broken memories 
Crush my heart don’t want to feel a thing 
But I feel everything 
You never have to feel alone again 
It was all just in your head 
It was all just in your head 

Are you free now 
Push everyone that ever loved you away
Such a let down 
Its all dark now 
It’s all dark now 
Without you here 
I feel so lost in my head 
I hope you find your home 
This heart forest you can now call home 
This heart forest you can now call home

Heart forest (prod. Feelskybeats)

Open it up 
Rip through my chest 
I hope that your’e at peace now 
Separate my blood from my pain
Remove all my worries put it to rest 
Discard the less I feel like trash now 
Beg for it all to come to and end 
To an end 

Pick up the pieces 
Don’t let them all fall back down 
Between the seasons I can feel so hopeless now 
We can all feel so hopeless deep down 
In all our minds it can be so hard to try 

Open it up 
Rip through my chest 
I hope that your’e at peace now 
Separate my blood from my pain
Remove all my worries put it to rest 
Discard the less I feel like trash now 
Beg for it all to come to and end 

With open arms I embrace this loss 
Another loss I wear on my heart 
Give em hell kid you were a loss 
Give em hell kid you were a loss 
Give em hell kid you were a loss 

Open it up 
Rip through my chest 
I hope that your’e at peace now 
Separate my blood from my pain
Remove all my worries put it to rest 
Discard the less I feel like trash now 
Beg for it all to come to and end

Embrace  (prod. bierkbeats)

With a voice so broken
Your words hold weight in this moment 
In a hospital bed you said I wish I was dead 
Worn bones carry you to the window side 
You had no hope in your blackened eyes 

Another empty chair 
Another pain I bear
With every loss feel more scared of getting close 
Another wall goes up 
I feel so fucking dumb 
My heart can feel so numb with each crush that it takes 

Pulse pick up the pulse 
Feel so low can’t let it go 
Kill me slow i don’t know 
Hope it burns so slow 
Kills the ones I hold close 
You didn’t die in vain I love you bro 
Oh 
Open up the skies 
Let the rain fall down
Bleach my skin of this poison 
Remove the guilt I hold in 

Another empty chair 
Another pain I bear
With every loss feel more scared of getting close 
Another wall goes up 
I feel so fucking dumb 
My heart can feel so numb with each crush that it takes

Empty chair (prod. bierkbeats)

The day you that you died 
Was the first time in years that I cried 
I fight it off don’t want to feel 
Tell myself this isn’t real 

The silence fills the room 
But it feels so heavy 
I don’t know what I’m supposed to do 
The static on tv 
Drowns out the way I’m feeling 
Fuck the way I’m feeling 
I’m angry that you died for no reason 
Feels like my heart won’t stop bleeding 

Bleeding I feel it 
Just take it 
Embrace it 
Take me 
I’ll fake it 
I made it 
Don’t break it 

The day you that you died 
Was the first time in years that I cried 
I fight it off don’t want to feel 
Tell myself this isn’t real

Breathe in breathe out 
Breathe in breathe out 
My heart sinks in my chest 
I’m a fucked up mess 
My heart sinks in my chest 
I’m a fucked up mess 
Is this the bitter end 

The day you that you died 
Was the first time in years that I cried 
I fight it off don’t want to feel 
Tell myself this isn’t real

scryy

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