Girl Of My Dreams (prod.flower)

weight of the wind (prod. oilcolor)

SINGLE OFF THE ALBUM
'BITTER BLUE'

prod: https://soundcloud.com/nothingnowheremusic

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

And for the first time
Im feeling closer to closure
I Feel the storm blowing over,
like i can close my eyes tonight

And i can see it in your eyes
(Let go)
A whisper in the night
(Run home)
Run home, Run home

And thought i was right for too long
Now its time to face it
I can feel it inside of my bones
And its so hard to shake it
And for the first time
Im feeling closer to closure
I Feel the storm blowing over,
like i can close my eyes tonight

And i can see it in your eyes
(Let go)
A whisper in the night
(Run home)
Run home, Run home

Run Home (Prod. nothing,nowhere.)

(ft. SMRTDEATH) [prod. haardtek]

@smrtdeath
@haardtek

ride away

@prodreaper

lyrics:
i've been scared all my life
i've been scared all my life 

i've been scared all my life
tell me that i won't die 
tell me that i'm okay 
i've been wasting my time 
wandering in my mind 
i'm not who i was 
all out of my luck
god damn it i'm stuck 
i don't where i should go from here
i've been scared all my life 
i've been hiding inside 
i don't show you my face
this is my safe place
inside, inside

and i know i can't hideaway forever
i know that, so don't look at me that way 
i know that i'm hurting me 
but i'm scared to see the world 
i am scared to live my life
i am scared of everything that's not here 
i am scared

scared for my life (prod. reaper)

VIDEO: youtu.be/RWo_yQr_8bA?a

BODYBAG EP(Prod. Nedarb)

Prod:
https://twitter.com/NEDARBNAGROM
https://www.instagram.com/nedarbnagrom/

Art: 
http://roelun.co
https://twitter.com/roelun
https://www.instagram.com/roelun/

Lyrics:
I'm just tryna get to u
Shits been hard 
But I'm making moves 
Well I'm trying
I'm trying 

And I just hope u understand
All the pain in my back 
And blisters on my hands 
It's all u
Now you're screaming 
At the top of your lungs
I don't need u

Ask me what's my problem
Baby come outside 
Pulling on my hand like everything's alright 
Messing with my 
Something's just not right 
I don't wanna go back 
Baby u should know that 

Bitch don't hit my line
Do this every night 
Phone on 2% 
Like ya i swear that shit gone die
I've been getting money 
pretty baby what u like 
I've been getiin money 
pretty baby what u like

At The Top Of Your Lungs (Prod. Nedarb) *VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION *

prod. @skahbeatstore 💔

twitter.com/RROMANTICSS

@safesin
@brxmvz
@lilsulphur
@caspr
@yesterday-570099803

choked up 💔✨ (safe sin, sulphur, bromaz, yesterday & caspr)

on a side note, rest in peace lil peep he was a huge inspiration and his music really helped me get through hard shit last year. I'm glad to have met him, we talked about music it was a day i won't forget.

sample credits: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w6rDh75VHMs

prod. @notmorgn

im afraid you really can’t save me
but i still wanna lay with you until my visions fading
i have feelings no im not faded
i would wait a lifetime if you had the patience 
oh you cannot save me
im too deep in this
oh you cannot praise me
i’ve got demons in me

constant conflict 
with my own reflection
i ain’t got no sense
of direction 
when it comes to this
i just succumb to it
please enlighten me
all i hear is thundering
in a couple months
i hope to see some changes
maybe with this check 
i can get you that bracelet
it never happens my 
bank account is dead again
do you mind if we just kick it 
in my bed again
workin to hard 
to feel empty
im almost 20 but 
i feel like i’ve had plenty
wake up in a faze 
i feel like ecco2K
wake up everyday but
 i fight through the pain

im afraid you really can’t save me
but i still wanna lay with you until my visions fading
i have feelings no im not faded
i would wait a lifetime if you had the patience 
oh you cannot save me
im too deep in this
oh you cannot praise me
i’ve got demons in me

you cannot save me
im too deep in this
i have feelings
know i’d wait a lifetime

you can't really save me

Mixed by IOF & Bangss
Mastered by Bangss

bangss:

In my bed i feel you wide awake
In my head i hear you everyday
But i cant wait till it all fades away
And i cant make out what your trying to say

I see monsters in my room at night
I put my mattress on floor so theres nowhere to hide
I keep my closet doors open with a light inside
The thing about all of these monsters is we look alike

Are you the one who sits behind my eyes at night rewatching all my memories like my heads a big movie screen inside
Are you the one who likes to take their precious time devising every line i write and speak
Are you the one who makes assumptions about other people and how they lead their lives. 
Are you the one who keeps me bothered
Ill wake up and check my phone screen one more time x3

Are you the one who takes my hand so frequently and tells me how its easily avoidable being beat up and used again
Are you the one who says that im your everything and nothing with a sudden change breath. 
Are you the one whos so self conscious lets be honest with ourselves for just one time
Are you the one whos so hypnotic make me forget all the trouble in my life, in my life, end my life

monsters (+ shattered)

spotify/apple music

Monsters (+ shattered)

OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO
---------------------------------

www.youtube.com/watch?v=HJpmpm9I-Zc

produced by https://soundcloud.com/domynoofficial

lyrics
————————
i just wanna feel good
i just wanna get better
i know said i’d quit
but that was last september
if i keep this up
ill be dead by december

i can’t even live w/o that rush
yea i can’t even live w/o that cup
with u im dead
without u im empty
i took too much
but i swear its not enough 

yea i want u so bad
oh u make me so mad
i should leave u the past 
but i know that i cant
i been starin at the mirror
i don’t really like what i see
see my vision getting clearer
now i gotta make it burry

how u sayin
let it go?
when u all know
i just wanna coast
fall back
right in to the door
always do the most
needa smoke
roll me up some dope
then i swear ill go
u wont see me
ever again
i hope u know

dead by december 
will u remember me?

produced by domyno

dead by December [OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION]

love me again (ft. lil narnia)

if you want get a feature or collab just hit me up on here

scared for my life (prod. reaper)

scum