ch2rms - b3 [p. soma + ssh1be]

prod. exp

(lyrics)
do you know how much it takes?
do you know how much it weighs?

and it was so hard to walk away that day
i think i really need a light to guide the way
imma light a flame

nothing was the same
that hurts but its okay
think bad words but i dont say
forgot my password
i dont know how to change it

sun still burning
earth still turning
all i have to worry about right now
shit just aint been right since i left your town
panicking holding on to the ground

after hours  <exp>

scars upon my legs i walk around with too many stories
i got blood up on my floor my situation is gorey
i fucking hate the drugs but it gets rid of all my worries
my burden holding weight got some things that i carry

i'm scared of ppl they're some monsters like the blair witch
always been impatient i was asking "are we there yet?"
all these pretty memories i wish i could forget them
lighting up a cigarette
i need love i need compassion

used to say you cared that was past tense
if i don't matter to you leave me in the past then
you said you loved me while i ate you like rations
i know you don't want to hurt me but there's consequences to actions

turn my body into ashes
remember when i first saw you 
you looked so pretty in your glasses
i've been stuck up in my bed moving slow like molasses
cover my body in gasoline gave you the matches

we broke up then hooked up on my mattress
ever since that day i carry weight up on my shoulders like im atlas 
it happened twice since that day its kinda like a hat trick
then u turnednto a ghost and i don't fucking matter

scars upon my legs i walk around with too many stories
i got blood up on my floor my situation is gorey
i fucking hate the drugs but it gets rid of all my worries
my burden holding weight got some things that i carry

i'm scared of ppl they're some monsters like the blair witch
always been impatient i was asking "are we there yet?"
all these pretty memories i wish i could forget them
lighting up a cigarette
i need love i need compassion

blair witch (surgeon + valetical)

https://soundcloud.com/neohnq
https://soundcloud.com/prod_promise
https://soundcloud.com/rewind214

hoping i can make it up
i know that i suck
hope u arent already gone 
wouldnt blame u no
baby ur my only love
baby ur my only one

drugs was there when no one was 
hard for me to let it go 
n i hate keeping secrets
especially from u
baby when we kiss
only time i feel shit 
baby when ur speaking 
cant u see i listen
only time i feel safe
is whenever u reach me
but i know u cant wait 
get it if u leave me

neohn:
baby tell me ur secret
ill do all that i can
ima do what i see fit
to bring u back to land
to get u back in my hand
and if it dont go to plan
few more milligrams
just so i can feel again
pierce my skin
and salt my cuts
yeah i wanna know
baby is this love
i dont wanna give it up
i dont wanna lose u
ya i wanna know
do u feel it tooo
ill take the dmg bby
jst lay it on me
baby is this luvv

hoping w/ neohn (promise+rewind)

soundcloud.com/akasukii
soundcloud.com/hartfxlt x soundcloud.com/1akura x soundcloud.com/decago

cover art also by me

[soundcloud.com/akasukii]
how am i supposed to heal when ur still in my veins 
every breath i take, im calling out ur name 
tell me how to forget, how to let u go 
when the love we had is all i've ever known

[soundcloud.com/clay0127]
i see the shapes
the signs that sealed our fate
no it aint right but what am i to say
its my light so im taking it away

no i cant believe it
im lost in the feeling

of love so strong
it hurts whenever im reminded
that im gone
no i cant shake the feeling
of you in my arms
and so im stuck singing the same old song

[soundcloud.com/akasukii]
how am i supposed to heal when ur still in my veins 
every breath i take, im calling out ur name 
tell me how to forget, how to let u go 
when the love we had is all i've ever known

Believe w/ Akasuki [hartfxlt x akura x decago]

Suffocating #suspense [[prod Skatter+Seroet]]

idfwu prod me crusey

prod https://soundcloud.com/wfffffffffffff
mix master me

and yes im queer i can say dat

ch2rms - b3 [p. soma + ssh1be]

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