ch2rms - self loathing [p. 4am]

neck deep cover 
mixed by @frendishawty408

i thought i saw a man brought to life 
he was warm he came around like he was dignified 
he showed me what it was to cry 
u couldn’t be the man i adored
don’t seem to know seem to care what ur heart is for
i don’t know him anymore
there’s nothing where we used 2 lie
the conversation has run dry
that’s what’s going on 

nothings fine i’m torn 
i’m all out of faith 
this is how i feel
i’m cold and i am shamed lying naked on the floor
illusion never changed 
into something real
i’m wide awake and i can see the perfect sky is torn 
ur a lil late.. i’m already torn

so i guess the fortune teller’s right :/
i should’ve seen just what was there and not some holy light
but u crawled beneath my veins and now 
i don’t care i have no luck
i don’t miss it all that much
and there’s just soooo many things.. 

nothings fine i’m torn 
i’m all out of faith 
this is how i feel
i’m cold and i am shamed lying naked on the floor
illusion never changed 
into something real
i’m wide awake and i can see the perfect sky is torn 
oh ur a lil late.. yeah i’m already torn

torn

@violetxx9

where would i be?
if i never met you
my plate aint clean
ay fuck around we're past due
do u wanna bleed?
cause we're not gonna split boo
go ahead and drop yourself off
still waiting on your call
damn..
girl your so wrong
left me on the corner
dying out for the coroner
girl tell me how we feel today
do we feel okay?
dont reciprocate
cant really say the same

cant really say the same
cant really say the same
cant really say the same

i got nail polish
smearing on my face
see my teeth bae ?
admiration trace
heart pounding..
through my chest
why are you running ?
like the rest..

where would i be?
if i never met you
my plate aint clean
ay fuck around we're past due
do u wanna bleed?
cause we're not gonna split boo
go ahead and drop yourself off
still waiting on your call
damn..
girl your so wrong
left me on the corner
dying out for the coroner
girl tell me how we feel today
do we feel okay?
dont reciprocate
cant really say the same

cant really say the same..

aphonecallaway (violet)

ch2rms - summer (sayako)

produced by @prodrest
featuring @yyohji

(jinn)
210 on her feet
she a real emo
tie up loose ends, loose leaf
my bro had to reroll
no new friends
you and me
thats jus what i be on
it dont make sense to me
tell me whats the reason

ya money talk too much, pull up in rolls royce
i jus had to ball i aint had no choice
when i pull up in the club, bitch they make noise
n this ho like to fuck, said she like my voice
i jus came in w that glock, like that shits a toy

210 on her feet
she a real emo

(yohji)
les go
210s on her feet
im outside w the team
if u keep running ya mouth youll get hit w the beam
i pull up to the scene
glock 19
yea i step out the crib n i rock beauty beast
ion know who u are
i don care who u be
all black fit alexander mcqueens

210 210s
yea yohji done did it again
he think he got style but he followin trends
he aint makin no bread
call up jinn he pull up w dat tec
na i aint talkin bout no nike tech
she like the chrome hearts on my neck
556 to ya head
this beat too fye prod rest

real emo ft. yohji Prod @rest______________

i can barely fit ur standards now
but i obeyed u like a dog when u needed it back then
and whats the point of lyin now
when u expect me to know all of the answers again
and everyday it gets harder to believe
that theirs somethin out there helpin me
or that theirs someone out there answering my prayers when im cold and when im scared or when i am in need
and to be honest i dont know you like i did
you became vague with me
have to beg you for the answers or you get upset just like a child at its mothers feet
and honestly it troubles me
you treat me like a doll a new discovery
feel like im underwater like a submarine
i cant breathe it gets hard to speak i keep stuttering
but sometimes i feel like i deserve all of this punishing
im not perfect myself
all of my mistakes just sit up on my shelf
all my promises just become mistells
and i save these drugs for myself when u tell me that u need somebody else

ch2rms - self loathing [p. 4am]

mud