ch2rms - that's the way it's meant to be w/ okeefey [p. okeefey]

Self destructive bastard prod garasu jolst

violet, hollons, hakeon, viyah - feel my cry, i think its pretty prod mxsui

recorded 06/28
prod me #RtD #DukaNation
i cant get in on it
i just dont kno shit
i mite up it if i flip
n i cannot switch
lost my brodie to prescriptions
im an emo bitch
n my bro turned to someone else
i never knew like its magic
i wish i knew
if i knew tht hed b counterfeit
n im crying in my crib
now i got slits on my wrists
my brodie omie from the 6
i miss my bros when we was kids
i seen him lose his grip
so many niggas on that shit
i saw my homeboy off the xans
n i cried internally
lil bro thought he was a man
n then he got on some bullshit
i knew id never get to him
i dont know why i try this shit
dunno why i try
its been june im still alive
i hope im gone by july
i dont wanna say goodbye
cus i want in on this life
niggas wan b on my side
i just wanna fuckign cry

counterfeit (arbok)

not free, buy the mp3 on my traktrain: traktrain.com/kuriyai
for higher leases contact me on ig/discord - @kuriyai.flp/@kuriyai

ps: if its not on traktrain anymore contact me

{00:00 <> 00:42} urEyes +@1revert
{00:42 <> 01:18} free me +@ilyrchrxme
{01:18 <> 01:54} whats new +@ihateukidu
{01:54 <> 02:31} back in ur arms +@ihateukidu
{02:31 <> 03:11} story +@ilychrxme @rip.warheart
{03:11 <> 03:57} love pieces +@ilychrxme
{03:57 <> 04:46} ur touch heals me +@rpsu
{04:46 <> 05:37} turnt +@rpsu
{05:37 <> 06:20} sob +@kxzuo
{06:20 <> 07:24} hold my hand 
{07:24 <> 07:54} lckd +se7en
{07:54 <> 08:49} one day we'll meet again +ilychrxme
{08:49 <> 09:45} rear view 
{09:45 <> 10:41} seeUagain
{10:41 <> 11:52} toodeep

##july2k24 𝄞 catalogue +@revert @ilychrxme @kidu @rip.warheart @adrien @eversince @se7en

jannah & gëmz - don't evën know what 2 say {jkjmetasco}

prod @bloodcryy

ion wna c sht ,, cuz it nvr stop
ion wna feel dis way, . bb can u talk / ?>
i can nvr tell u , if im rly up . /
ion wna b like dis. , ican nvr talk . /

pillz in my cup . ., bish im droppin 2. .
i can nvr look ,. at the same of u .. ,
ion wna quit all da drugz in me .. 
feelin like  . ., dis my destiny
pull up2 da bank quick. . feel like dyin on prescription ,.. /
i cant tell u if im livin,, ,all tha time i h8 dis sht
h8 dis sht,, bb i shuld fckn quit xx2

ho im done,., ion even feel the sun ,, 
stay inside , , bih u already won .  
call it quitz im abt2 slit my writst. .
fuck it up ,. ion wna b like dis
bae its ovr , ,
 ion wna c ya . .improlly dumb ,, i could nvr complete ya,  ,

feel like dyin off prescription freestyle [bloodcryY]

youre so beautiful (@backxster + @dimple)

im not asking for much

High Upon The Mountains

“Tome of Stars” is a 100 sonnet journey, equal parts art, therapy journal, and exorcism, both a celebration and an elegy, a single narrative arc tracing the birth and death of a relationship. All poetry by Stargazer. The verse and accompanying synthetic art and music are public domain, CC0, with no restrictions on use. Nothing is monetized. See below for links on how to access the print, PDF, audio, ePub, video, and music files. 
Website: https://www.tomeofstars.net/

In the classical margam of bharatanatyam, the varnam is the recital’s centerpiece, its longest and most emotionally charged performance. In “Tome of Stars“, the varnam appears as the twenty-nine-poem section “Senescence”. Following the exaltation of Anthesis, the beloved as a celestial goddess, love now descends from the stars into the gravity of human frailty. 

This sonnet emerges from the inner monologue of a fictional character in one of the poet’s novels, though its emotional architecture is grounded in the poet’s own lived experience of devastating romantic loss. The novel’s chapter that inspired the poem was itself one of many attempts by the poet to exorcise that loss through art. 

The sonnet explores a landscape of emotional annihilation, where absence becomes palpably existential, and even death is stripped of metaphysical resonance in the shadow of grief. It dramatizes the unbearable disjunction between what once was in love, intimacy, and experienced transcendence, and what now remains: void, silence, and spiritual suffocation. 

The title evokes a cosmological collapse and a psychological implosion, fusing the concept of intense gravitational density with the image of an irrevocable inner unraveling. In the final couplet, the speaker pleads not merely for the return of the beloved, but for the restoration of meaning itself, as her presence had become the very axis upon which his spiritual survival depended.

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Lyrics

Let darkness close; foul fangs in throes confine.  
I fear it not—no night could match the dread  
Of spirit’s void, where her star’s soul should shine,   
Or chill my heart, as light by absence bled.

What terrors hunt that I do not endure?  
What unlight blacker than her empty space?  
Should shadow bring its blight, devoid of cure,  
I know that even death dies in this place.

I pray for dawn, and beg the whispered vow  
She left in love afore, sung pure as flame.  
Although I drown in famished silence, bowed,  
Her light could blaze, and I might breathe her name. 

I blindly chant through hell’s eternity:
“My dearest Stargirl, please, come back to me.”

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Internet Archive
Book of sonnets:
https://archive.org/details/tome-of-stars/

Music:
Item 1, Anthesis: https://archive.org/details/Anthesis/
Item 2, Senescence: https://archive.org/details/senescence_tomeofstars
Item 3, Sporogenesis: https://archive.org/details/Sporogenesis_TomeOfStars/
Item 4, Anemochory: https://archive.org/details/Anemochory_TomeOfStars
Item 5, Quixotosis: https://archive.org/details/Quixotosis_TomeOfStars
Item 6, Scripture: https://archive.org/details/Scripture_TomeOfStars

Bandcamp:

Item 1, Anthesis: https://stargazer-elentirmo.bandcamp.com/album/anthesis-item-1-of-tome-of-stars
Item 2, Senescence: https://stargazer-elentirmo.bandcamp.com/album/senescence-item-2-of-tome-of-stars
Item 3, Sporogenesis: https://stargazer-elentirmo.bandcamp.com/album/sporogenesis-item-3-of-tome-of-stars
Item 4, Anemochory: https://stargazer-elentirmo.bandcamp.com/album/anemochory-item-4-of-tome-of-stars
Item 5, Quixotosis: https://stargazer-elentirmo.bandcamp.com/album/quixotosis-item-5-of-tome-of-stars
Item 6, Scripture: https://stargazer-elentirmo.bandcamp.com/album/scripture-item-6-of-tome-of-stars

ch2rms - that's the way it's meant to be w/ okeefey [p. okeefey]

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